Jesse James - American Outlaw

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This work is a memoir. Events, actions, experiences, and their consequences over a period of years have been retold as the author presently recollects them. Some names and identifying characteristics have been changed, and some dialogue has been re-created from memory. The timeline for some events has been compressed.

Copyright 2011 by Jesse James

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First Gallery Books hardcover edition May 2011

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Library of Congress Control Number: 2011006187

ISBN 978-1-4516-2785-5
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To Chandler, Jesse, Sunny, and my beloved Katherine

PROLOGUE

Oh shit! Its him! Get ready, get ready!

I walk out into the bright California daylight, a baseball cap pulled low over my eyes.

Jesse! Yo! Jesselook over here, man!

Jesse James! Hey, hows it going, asshole? Got time for a picture?

Like most pack animals, paparazzi arent nearly as charming when theyve turned against you. In fact, Beverly Hills gossip photographers, seen up close, are snappingly vicious.

Jess, you like sluts, right? Yo! Jesse!

I clench my jaw and glance over at my sixteen-year-old daughter, Chandler, to check her reaction. She stares straight ahead numbly as we hurry toward our truck. It infuriates me that my childrenChandler, Jesse Jr., and my six-year-old, Sunnyhave to deal with insults that should be for me alone.

But paparazzi never play by the rules. These guys make up their own moral code. And for the last week, they havent hesitated to make my life hell.

Come on, I order my kids, lets hop to it. Lets go. Chandler quickly raises her science textbook to cover her face, so they cant get a shot of her. Smart.

Jesse! Did you talk to Sandra? cries a skinny, ragged-looking guy at the head of the pack. Hey, did you talk to Sandra? Did you talk to Sandra?

For paparazzi, peak performance hinges on volume and repetition. The loudest-crowing cock rules the roost. They hurl spiteful insults at the top of their lungs, their cracked lips hemmed in by patchy beards and wet mustaches.

Jesse! Jesse! Are you a Nazi?

Camera shutters click on full auto. I keep my head down: only a few more yards to the truck.

As we approach my vehicle, I open the doors remotely with a click of my key. Chandler helps Sunny into the backseat. Jesse Jr. hops up front like a champ.

Incredibly, the photographers continue to shoot. By now, each of them have likely taken several hundred pictures of me and my children just on the way to our truck, all interchangeable and nearly identical.

You know what? I say. You guys got all the shots you need today. Im trying to take my kids to school now, so just leave for a while. Let us have some space.

Yeah, you heard the guy! one guy says, laughing. Back off! He needs his space! Derisive laughter follows from the pack of sweaty, middle-aged men.

Hey, we didnt screw up, Jesse, one of the men admonishes me. You did, okay?

Wow, I think. Physical violence would feel amazing right now. To just dole out a single blow to someones greasy templeor, even milder, to snatch a camera out of the nearest feeble grip and smash it on the curb, splintering it into black plastic glitter.

But I reproach myself. They want you to punch them. Thats their wettest dream. A paparazzo punched in the solar plexus is a bottom-feeder who never has to work another day. No more endless late nights, coffee breath, melted candy bars on the passenger seat, weaving suicidally through Saturday-night Rodeo Drive traffic because the word is, Chris Brown just left Mr. Chows...

I just grit my teeth, turn the key in the ignition, and pull away from the curb. I glance back at my three kids. Chandler and Jesse Jr. look pretty bummed out, but Sunny, mercifully, seems okay. For a second, nobody says anything.

Want to listen to some music? I ask, finally.

Dad, says Chandler. Will those guys be at school when we get there?

I look in my rearview mirror. Well, theyre following us. So, yeah, I expect they will.

Cant you lose them? asks Jesse Jr.

Not with you guys in the car.

How long do you think theyre going to keep following us to school?

I glance at him through the rearview. Dont know.

As I drive to the high school to drop off Chandler and Jesse, no fewer than thirty cars follow behind me closely. We arrive at the school, and I pull up to the side of the parking lot, as close to the doors as possible.

Go ahead, hurry. Before too many of them can get out of their cars.

They gather their things hurriedly, Chandler clutching her books to her chest, and Jesse Jr. tossing his backpack over his shoulder.

Hey, I warn. If anybody at school gives you any crap, just dont listen to them. Its none of their business what goes on in our family.

Dad, come on. Were not listening to anyone.

All right, I say. I love you guys. Go on. Hurry up. Get out of here.

They flee into the school without looking back. I turn to the backseat, to my daughter Sunny.

You ready to go to school, Sun?

She nods. Daddy?

Yup?

Wheres Sandy?

I chew my lip as I consider my answer. Well, sweetie, the truth is, I have no idea. Daddy fucked up, real, real bad, so your stepmommy decided to disappear for a few weeks.

She went away, I say finally, pulling out in traffic. Instinctively, the jackals fall into pursuit formation behind me. We set out down the street toward Cubberly Elementary.

Is she ever coming back?

Are you wearing your seat belt? Put on your seat belt, sweetie.

Its on, says Sunny, impatiently.

Just making sure.

We weave our way through the narrow streets of Long Beach, down Fourth, across Broadway, down to East Livingston. Everywhere I go, the swarm mirrors my movements. Cars swerve next to me, in front of me, buzzing me from all sides as their shutters click and their lenses refocus, retracting and extending, struggling to get a clear picture through my tinted windshield. Shooting digital is the cheapest part of the whole operation, so they roll endlessly, with infinite patience, waiting for something interesting to happen. Together, we crawl forward as a mass.