Nikki Stern - Not Your Ordinary Housewife: How the Man I Loved Led Me into a World I Had Never Imagined

Author photograph: Viana Van Eyk

Nikki Stern was born in Sydney but raised in Melbourne by Holocaust survivors. Educated at MLC, she later attended Monash University, earning degrees in science and design, plus a postgraduate diploma in psychology. After working as a glass artist in Adelaide she travelled to Europe, settling in Amsterdam where she met her husband, Paul Van Eyk. Returning to Australia, they operated the Horny Housewife X-rated video business out of Canberra, which saw the couple produce and star in the bestselling Horny Housewife moviesnow in the Australian National Film and Sound Archive.

Nikki currently lives with her children and works as a librarian. In her spare time she indulges her passions of books, music and art.

How the man I loved led me into
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For my three beautiful children (they know who they are)

And my four parents:
Dory Stern
Egon Stern, AO

Gertrude Farmer
Allan Proctor, DFC

Golden lads and girls all must,
As chimney-sweepers, come to dust.

Act IV, Scene II, Cymbeline, William Shakespeare

Contents

The news reports were using phrases like freak weather event to describe the red dust storm that enveloped Melbourne one afternoon in February 1983. When it struck, I was delivering a consignment of my glass sculptures to a gallery in Hawthorn. Luckily, it was the last stop on my list. As I stood trapped insidethe lack of visibility preventing me from driving the short distance homeI thought again of the trip I was about to take. My plan was to spend a year doing art while wandering the great galleries of Europe. I was itching for adventure and would let destiny decide my fate.

Lately, I had found myself in a career cul-de-sac. After completing an art and design degree majoring in glass studies, I had spent a year at Adelaides artisan paradise, the Jam Factory Craft Centre, a heritage building that housed a gallery and numerous craft workshops, including a world-renowned glass studio. Participating in several group exhibitions, I had earned the moniker of emerging glass artist but then I developed pterygiaa nasty eye condition exacerbated by the heat of the furnace. As a result, I had decided to change trajectoryhenceforth I would concentrate on works on paper: ink drawings in my distinctive cartoon style, collage and photography.

I stayed briefly with my mother in Melbourne before heading off. Dorys beloved Egonher husband of 50 years and my adoring fatherhad recently died and she was bereft. As their only child, I had always been the focus of her overbearing Jewish angst. She harassed me mercilessly, distressed by my appearance. In her eyes, I seemed too alternative, bordering on punk, whereas I saw myself as merely arty alternative. My dark hair was partly dyed blonde and I wore predominantly black and white. I guess when I thought about it, she was rightthere was definitely an element of edginess about me.

With Amsterdam as my base, my aim was to find a new artistic direction. Backpacking would allow me to drift, away from the grip of my overanxious mother. I could survive for a year on my savingsthe Aussie dollar was at an all-time high and living would be cheap if I was careful.

On the day of my departure, Dory extracted a promise from me to write regularly. At the same time, she stuffed into my address book a sheet of paper containing dozens of phone numbers.

You might need these in an emergency, she said in her thick Viennese accent.

I scanned her parting gift. It was a neatly written alphabetised list of countries, each with a number of contacts. Many I knew from my childhoodartists, musicians and dancers. Perhaps it was because she had lost nearly all her family in the Holocaust that Dory had a plethora of close friends. Her empathy for the suffering of fellow human beings endeared her to a vast array of people. She was a person with high ethical standards, not in a religious sensefor she was atheistbut in a humanist sense.

I cant just call these people up and come and stay, I explained. Like, for instance, the Countess of Harewood...

Well, Ive given you her townhouse address, not Harewood House. Ive stayed there a few timesits basically a palace. Turner painted it. Its open to the public now, you know?

Well, Ill take the phone number, just in case, but I have all my glassblowing contacts. Anyway, Im going to be staying in youth hostels, or sleeping on the train...

You never know what might happen.

Dory was often full of pessimism. Escaping Hitler had taught her that. Why couldnt she say Have a wonderful time, just be careful, like an ordinary Australian mother would? In the end, we argued over trivialities and I left without saying goodbye.

Quite quickly, my memory of our parting faded as I flew towards Europe. I knew I would have no trouble meeting people. One of the subtle skills Dory had bestowed on me was her amazing ability to strike up an acquaintance with strangers. She could make friends in unlikely places; people were attracted to her ebullience. I too could be like that, talking easily with most people.

I first landed in Rome and wandered its streets, soaking up the ambience. People stared at me with my dyed hair and new-wave clothing. I roamed the corridors of the Vatican, overwhelmed by the beauty of the art, all the while remembering Egon telling me how the Vatican officials helped so many Nazis escape to South America after the war. At the gift shop there, I bought two diariesone to record my experiences, the other to document the galleries I would visit as I criss-crossed Europe on my rail pass.

I was keen to see Vienna, because of its deep significance in my life. My parents had fled just days before Hitlers annexation, leaving behind everything: family, friends and property. It had always been a subject far too painful for direct conversation, and there was inevitably the tragic subtext that accompanied any mention of the Holocaust. Neither Dory nor Egon had been able to visit Vienna for many decades; when they finally did they said little on their return.

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