C. Harris - Why Kings Confess

St. Katharines, East London Thursday, 21 January 1813

Paul Gibson lurched down the dark, narrow lane, his face raw from the cold, his fingers numb. There were times when he wandered these alleyways lost in brightly hued reveries of opium-induced euphoria. But not tonight. Tonight, Gibson clenched his jaw and tried to focus on the tap-tap of his wooden leg on the icy cobbles, the reedy wail of a babe carried on the night wind-anything that might distract his mind from the restless, hungering need that drenched his thin frame with sweat and tormented him with ghosts of what could be.

When he first noticed the woman, he thought her an apparition, a mirage of gray wool and velvet lying crumpled beside the entrance to a fetid passageway. But as he drew nearer, he saw pale flesh and the gleaming dark wetness of blood and knew she was only too real.

He drew up sharply, the dank, briny air of the nearby Thames rasping in his throat. Cats Hole, they called this narrow lane, a refuge for thieves, prostitutes, and all the desperate dispossessed of England and beyond. He could feel his heart pounding; the stars glittered like shards of broken glass in the thin slice of cold black sky visible between the looming rooftops above. He hesitated perhaps longer than he should have. But he was a surgeon, his life dedicated to the care of others.

He pushed himself forward again.

She lay curled half on her side, one hand flung out palm up, eyes closed. He hunkered down awkwardly beside her, fingertips searching for a pulse in her slim neck. Her face was delicately boned and framed by a riot of long, flame red hair, her lashes dark and thick against the pale flesh of her smooth cheeks, her lips purple-blue with cold. Or death.

But at his touch, her eyelids fluttered open, her chest jerking on a sob and a broken, whispered prayer. Sainte Marie, Mere de Dieu, priez pour nous pauvres pecheurs. .

Its all right; Im here to help you, he said gently, wondering whether she could even understand him. Where are you hurt?

The entire side of her head, he now saw, was matted with blood. Wide-eyed and frightened, she fixed her gaze on him. Then her focus shifted to where the black mouth of the passage yawned beside them. Damion. . Her hand jerked up to clutch his sleeve. Is he all right?

Gibson followed her gaze. The mans body was more difficult to discern, a dark, motionless mass deep in the shadows. Gibson shook his head. I dont know.

Her grip on his arm twisted convulsively. Go to him. Please.

Nodding, Gibson surged upright, staggering slightly as his wooden peg took his weight and the phantom pains of a long-gone limb ripped through him.

The passage reeked of rot and excrement and the familiar coppery stench of spilled blood. The man lay sprawled on his back beside a pile of broken hogsheads and crates. It was with difficulty that Gibson picked out the once snowy white folds of a cravat, the silken sheen of what had been a fine waistcoat but was now a blood-soaked mess, horribly ripped.

Tell me, said the woman. Tell me he lives.

But Gibson could only stare at the body before him. The mans eyes were wide and sightless, his handsome young face pallid, his outflung arms stiffening in the cold. Someone had hacked open the corpses chest with a ruthless savagery that spoke of rage tinged with madness. And where the heart should have been gaped only an open cavity.

Bloody and empty.

Friday, 22 January

The dream began as it often did, with the sun shining golden warm and the laughter of children at play floating on an orange blossom-scented breeze.

Sebastian St. Cyr, Viscount Devlin, moved restlessly in his sleep, for he knew only too well what was to come. The thunder of galloping horses. A shouted order. The hiss of sabers drawn with deadly purpose from well-oiled scabbards. He gave a low moan.

Devlin?

Laughter turned to screams of terror. His vision filled with slashing hooves and bare steel stained dark with innocent blood.

Devlin.

He opened his eyes, his chest heaving as he sucked in a deep, ragged breath. He felt his wifes gentle fingertips touch his lips. Her face rose above him in the darkness, her features pale in the glow of the fire that still burned warm on the bedroom hearth. Its a dream, she whispered, although he saw the worry that drew together her dark brows. Just a dream.

For a moment he could only stare at her, lost in the past. Then he folded his arms around Hero and drew her close, so that she could no longer see his face. It was a dream, yes. But it was also a memory, one he had never shared with anyone.

Did I wake you? he asked, his voice a hoarse rasp. Im sorry.

She shook her head, her weight shifting as she sought in vain for a comfortable position, for she was nearly nine months heavy with his child. Your son keeps kicking me.

Smiling, he placed his hand on the taut mound of her belly and felt a strong heel grind against his palm. Shockingly ill-mannered of her.

I think hes beginning to find it a wee bit crowded in there.

There is a solution.

She laughed, a low, husky sound that caught without warning at his heart, then twisted. As much as he yearned to hold this child in his arms, thoughts of the looming birth inevitably brought a sense of disquiet that came perilously close to fear. Hed read once that more than one in ten women died in childbirth. Heros own mother had lost babe after babe-before nearly dying herself.

Yet he heard no echo of his own terror in Heros calm voice when she said, Not long now.

He felt the babe kick one last time, then settle as Hero snuggled beside him. He brushed his lips against her temple and murmured, Try to sleep.

You sleep, she said, still smiling.

He watched her eyelids drift closed, her breathing slow. Yet the tension that thrummed within him remained, and he found himself wondering if it was the coming babe that had sent his unconscious thoughts drifting back to a time he wished so desperately to forget. A cold wind stirred the heavy velvet drapes at the windows and banged an unlatched shutter somewhere in the darkness. There were nights when the high, arid mountains and ancient, stone-walled villages of Spain and Portugal seemed a lifetime away from the London town house sleeping around him. Yet he knew they were not.

He was still awake when an urgent message arrived in Brook Street from Paul Gibson, asking for Sebastians help.

The woman lay in a narrow bed in the front chamber of Gibsons Tower Hill surgery. The room was small and plain and lit only by a single candlestick and the enormous fire that roared on the hearth. Piles of blankets covered her thin frame, yet still she shivered. Between the blankets and the thick bandage that swathed the side of her head, Sebastian could see little of her face. But what he could see looked ominously pale and bloodless.

Will she live? he asked quietly, pausing in the chambers doorway.

Gibson stood beside the bed, his gaze, like Sebastians, on the unconscious woman before him. Difficult to say at this point. There could be bleeding in the brain. If so. . He let his voice trail away.

Sebastian shifted his gaze to his friends gaunt face. He was looking unusually haggard, even for Gibson, his cheeks hollow and unshaven, his green eyes sunken and bloodshot, his wiry frame close to emaciated. He was only in his early thirties, yet streaks of gray already showed at the temples of his dark hair.

The two men came from different worlds, one the son of a poor Irish Catholic, the other heir to the powerful Earl of Hendon. But they were old friends. Once, theyd both worn the Kings colors, fighting from the mountains of Italy to the fever-racked swamps of the West Indies and the stony uplands of Iberia. As a regimental surgeon, Gibson had learned the secrets of life and death with an intimate familiarity rarely matched by his civilian peers. When a French cannonball tore off the lower part of one of his legs and left him bedeviled by chronic pain, he had come here, to London, to share his knowledge of anatomy at the teaching hospitals of St. Thomass and St. Bartholomews, and to open this small surgery in the shadow of the Tower of London.