Robert Parker - Night Passage

At the end of the continent, near the foot of Wilshire Boulevard, Jesse Stone stood and leaned on the railing in the darkness above the Santa Monica beach and stared at nothing, while below him the black ocean rolled away toward Japan.

There was no traffic on Ocean Avenue. There was the comfortless light of the streetlamps, but they were behind him. Before him was the uninterrupted darkness above the repetitive murmur of the disdainful sea.

A black-and-white cruiser pulled up and parked behind his car at the curb. A spotlight shone on it and one of the cops from the cruiser got out and looked into it. Then the spotlight swept along the verge of the cliffs and touched Jesse and went past him and came back and held. The strapping young L.A. patrolman walked over to him, holding his flashlight near the bulb end, the barrel of it resting on his shoulder, so he could use it as a club if he needed to. The young cop asked Jesse if he was all right. Jesse said he was, and the young cop asked him why he was standing there at four in the morning. The cop looked about twenty-four. Jesse felt like he could be his father, though in fact he was maybe ten years older.

Im a cop, Jesse said.

Got a badge?

Was a cop. Im leaving town, just thought Id stand here a while before I went.

That your car? he said.

Jesse nodded.

What division you work out of? the young cop said.

Downtown, Homicide.

Who runs it?

Captain Cronjager.

I can smell booze on you, the young cop said.

Im waiting to sober up.

I can drive you home in your car, the young cop said. My partner will follow in the black and white.

Ill stay here till Im sober, Jesse said.

Okay, the young cop said and went back to the cruiser and the cruiser pulled away. No one else came by. There was no sound except the tireless movement of the thick black water. Behind him the streetlights became less stark, and he realized he could see the first hint of the pier to his left. He turned slowly and looked back at the city behind him and saw that it was almost dawn. The streetlights looked yellow now, and the sky to the east was white. He looked back at the ocean once, then walked to his car and got in and started up. He drove along Ocean Avenue to the Santa Monica Freeway and turned onto it and headed east. By the time he passed Boyle Heights the sun was up and shining into his eyes as he drove straight toward it. Say goodbye to Hollywood, say goodbye my baby.

Tom Carson sat in the client chair across the desk from Hastings Hathaway in the presidents office of the Paradise Trust. He felt uneasy, as if he were in the principals office. He didnt like the feeling. He was the chief of police, people were supposed to feel uneasy confronting him.

You can quietly resign, Tom, Hathaway said, and relocate, well be happy to help you with that financially, or you can, ah, face the consequences.

Consequences? Carson tried to sound stern, but he could feel the bottom falling out of him.

For you, and if necessary, I suppose, for your wife and your children.

Carson cleared his throat, and felt ashamed that hed had to.

Such as? he said as strongly as he could, trying hard to keep his gaze steady on Hathaway.

Why was Hathaway so scary? He was a geeky guy. In the eighth grade, before Hasty had gone away to school, Tom Carson had teased him. So had everyone else. Hathaway smiled. It was a thin geeky smile and it frightened Tom Carson further.

We have resources, Tom. We could turn the problem over to Jo Jo and his associates, or, depending upon circumstance, we could deal with it ourselves. I dont want that to happen. Im your friend, Tom. I have so far been able to control the, ah, firebrands, but youll have to trust me. Youll have to do what I ask.

Hasty, Carson said. Im the chief of police, for crissake.

Hathaway shook his head.

You cant just say Im not, Carson said. You dont make the rules in this town, Tom.

And you do? Carson said.

His face felt stiff as he spoke and his arms and hands felt weak.

We do, Tom. Emphasis on the We.

Carson was silent, staring at Hathaway. The mention of Jo Jo had made him feel loose and fragmented inside. Hathaway took a thick stationery-sized manila envelope from his middle drawer.

You arent much of a policeman, Tom, and it was just a sad accident that you learned things. But you did, and you were right to come first to me. Ive been able to save you so far from the consequences of your knowledge.

What if I went to the FBI with this?

This is what Im trying to forestall, Hathaway said.

Other people, people like Jo Jo, would prevail. And your family... Hathaway shrugged and held the shrug for a moment, and sighed as if to himself, before he continued.

But we both know, Tom, you are not made of that kind of stuff. The better choice for you, and Im sure you recognize this, is to take our rather generous severance package. Weve found you a house, and weve contributed some cash to help you in relocation costs. The details are in here.

What if I promise not to say a word about anything, Hasty? Why cant I just stay here? Youd have a chief of police that wont give you any trouble.

Hathaway shook his head slowly as Carson spoke. He smiled sadly.

I mean, you know, the next chief, Carson said, might be harder to deal with.

Hathaway continued his sad smile and slow head shake.

I am trying to help you, Tom, Hathaway said. I cant help you if you wont help yourself.

Im no troublemaker, Carson said. How can you be sure you wont just get a troublemaker?

We have already chosen your successor, Hathaway said. He should be just right.

He held the envelope out toward Tom Carson and, after a moment of empty hesitation, Carson reached out and took it.

Jesse drove out Route 10 past Upland, where he picked up Route 15 and followed it north to Barstow, where he went east on Route 40.

He didnt turn on the radio. He liked quiet. He set the cruise control to seventy and kept a hand lightly on the steering wheel and slowly settled into himself and allowed his feelings to seep out of the compacted center of himself. He no longer had a badge. Hed turned it in with his service pistol. There was no wedding ring on his left hand. He smiled without pleasure. Turned that in too. It made him feel sort of scared to be without a badge or a wedding ring. Not quite thirty-five and no official status anymore. With his right hand he fished in the gym bag on the front seat beside him until he found his off-duty gun, a short-barreled Smith & Wesson.38. He arranged it near the top of the bag, where it would be easy to reach, and he let his hand rest on it for a time. It made him feel less insubstantial. He stopped at a truck stop outside of Needles, sat at the counter and had orange juice, ham, eggs, potatoes, wheat toast, and three cups of coffee with cream and sugar. It made him feel good. The place was full of truckers and tourists, and he was alone among them. No one paid any attention to him. They were going where they would and he was on his way east. He went to the mens room and washed his hands and face. Back in the car, cruise control set, he felt a small freshet of excitement. It was afternoon now, the sun behind him. Shining on what he had left. The road spooled out ahead of him, straight to the horizon, nearly empty. Freedom, he thought, and smiled again, no badge, no ring, no problem. You look at it the right way and thats freedom. He nursed the excitement as long he could, trying to build on it.

He stayed the night in Flagstaff, 250 miles north of where he had been born, and went to the motel bar for supper. He ordered scotch on the rocks and a chicken breast sandwich on a croissant. There were a couple of guys in plaid shirts and those little string ties they wore in places like Arizona, the kind with the silver hasp where a knot should be. Both bartenders were women wearing white shirts and black ties and short red jackets. One was a fat blond woman, and the other a more slender dark-haired Hispanic girl who would be fat in five more years. Beyond the bar was a room with tables and a dance floor, and the setup for a disk jockey. No one was in the room yet. An unlit piece of neon script over the disk jockey stand spelled out Coyote Lounge. He sipped a little scotch, felt the heat spread from his esophagus. A tall well-built man in his thirties came into the bar wearing a big Stetson hat and earphones. He seemed to be bouncing slightly to music that only he heard. He had on a plaid shirt with the sleeves rolled up and tight jeans and two-toned lizard-skin cowboy boots. The tiny tape player was tucked into his shirt pocket and the slender cord ran up under his chin. He looked as if hed just come in from a shower and a shave and his cologne came into the bar ahead of him. Clubman, maybe. Jesse watched him. There was nothing particularly interesting about him except that Jesse watched everything. The cowboy ordered a nonalcoholic beer and when it was served he left the glass and picked up the bottle and carried it with him as he walked along the bar looking everything over.