Donna Birdsell - Christmas Presence: Three Tales of Love

CHRISTMAS PRESENCE

CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 4

CHAPTER 5

CHAPTER 6

CHAPTER 7

CHAPTER 8

SECRET SANTA

CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 4

YOURE ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS

CHAPTER 1

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 3

CHAPTER 4

CHAPTER 5

CHAPTER 6

CHAPTER 7

CHAPTER 8

DONNA BIRDSELL

For Ronald, Margaret, Miriam and Libby.

Hoping you are all close by.

Tuesday, December 4, 12:30 p.m.

A ll she needed was a pair of panty hose.

So now here she was, in the middle of a crowded mall in the suburbs of Philadelphia, just twenty-one days before Christmas, wishing like hell she could just go to her meeting with a run in her stocking.

Because until today, Astrid Martin had almost almost managed to ignore the holidays. Aside from a few anemic decorations at the nursing home where she worked, and the occasional snippet of a Christmas song as she flipped through the channels on the radio, her exposure to all things merry had been nonexistent.

But it was kind of hard to ignore the holidays here. Fake icicles. Giant red and green Christmas balls hanging from the ceiling. Enough garland to circumnavigate the globe.

She tucked her chin into the scarf around her neck and averted her eyes, heading for the department store at the far end of the mall. Unfortunately, she didnt see the temporary kiosks that had sprung up in the middle of the promenade, and walked forehead-first into the banner of one of them, which read: Wrapping for R.U.F.F. Well wrap anything for a buck!

So sorry, she murmured to the two women who manned the booth. They were dressed like elves, in hats with jingle bells and red shoes that curled up at the toes.

No problem, one of the elves said. Hey, you look like an animal lover. Here.

The elf handed Astrid a flyer.

Resources for Underprivileged Furry Friends(R.U.F.F.) needs you! Join our team of volunteers, and give underprivileged animals the gift of hope this Christmas.

Astrid was, in fact, an animal lover. And last year, she might have been tempted to join the R.U.F.F. volunteers in helping their furry friends. But not this year.

This year she was boycotting Christmas.

She gave the elves a polite smile, and ran away. Or rather, she tried to run away. Instead, she ran straight into a sweater.

A sweater covered in cat hair.

A sweater that covered a very broad chest, which was attached to a good-looking guy.

Easy smile. Hazelnut eyes. Hot-chocolate-brown hair, with just a touch of marshmallow at the temples.

He bent to pick up the flyer shed dropped when she bumped into him, and as he handed it to her he whispered, Youve got a run in your stocking.

His breath was warm in her ear, like the steam from a mug of hot cider.

Astrid tugged at her scarf. Who did this guy think he was?

Over his shoulder, she could see the elves at the wrapping booth watching them with interest. She snatched the flyer out of his hand and shoved it into her purse. Thank you. I think.

She skirted around him and headed toward the department store, this time taking care to watch where she was going.

Merry Christmas! he called after her.

Right.

December 4, 3:07 p.m.

T HE SOLES of Astrids sneakersinto which shed changed after her big meeting (at which no one even so much as glanced at her brand-new panty hose)squeaked on the freshly waxed tiles of the third-floor hallway at Tall Pines Nursing Home.

Paper daisies pasted on the doors of the rooms, announcing the residents names with fading cheeriness, rustled as she walked past.

Astrid stopped in front of a daisy that read VERA T.! She knocked and pushed open the door. A nurse towing a rolling blood-pressure machine was on her way out.

Good luck, the nurse said to Astrid under her breath, Shes in rare form today.

The nurse disappeared and Astrid entered the room, closing the door behind her.

A woman for whom the adjective birdlike seemed to have been invented perched on the edge of an oversized armchair near the window. A lime-green-and-orange striped dress covered her slight form from neck to ankle. It looked as if it had seen better days.

The same could be said for Vera T. herself.

Vera, how are you? Astrid said brightly.

How do you think I am? I cant breathe without this damned tube up my nose, I have no teeth, and Im wearing a diaper, Vera said. Plus we had butterscotch pudding for dessert again. Butterscotch pudding sucks.

I know it does. But look on the bright side. At least you dont have to chew it.

After a moment of shocked silence, Vera began to squeak and wheeze. It took Astrid a second to realize she was laughing.

Oh. Oh, dear. Vera pressed a trembling, bony finger to the corner of her eye. I havent laughed like that in ages.

Neither, thought Astrid, had she.

Not counting the automatic responses to sitcom gags, or the fake noises of amusement shed perfected for her bosss corny jokes, it had been almost a year since shed laughed. Three hundred and forty-eight days, to be exact.

Mind if I sit down? Astrid moved the portable oxygen tank around to the other side of Veras recliner.

The older woman turned to face Astrid and gestured to the vinyl-padded rocking chair beside her.

I hear youve been giving the staff a hard time, Astrid said. Want to talk about it?

No. Vera frowned, and stared out the window.

Astrid waited her out. Besides the fact that the view from Veras window wasnt great, if there was one thing shed learned as an advocate for the elderly, it was that many of them were desperate to talk.

Or rather, they were desperate to be heard.

They had problems no one had the time, inclination or patience to deal with, and thats why Astrid was there. She listened, and tried to figure out how to make sure everyone got what they needed.

I hate Christmas, Vera finally said. No one gives a fart about me since Milton died.

Astrid sighed. I know the feeling. I lost my husband, too.

Veras sour expression mellowed. How long has it been?

Eleven months, four days, six hours and Astrid checked her watch seven minutes. But whos counting?

Actually, it seemed as if shed been doing nothing but counting since David had died in a car accident last year. The day after Christmas.

Shed eaten breakfast alone three hundred and forty-eight times. Done The New York Times crossword puzzle forty-two times. Watched twenty-one episodes of Antiques Roadshow , gone to the movies twelve times and to the ballet twice. Alone.

This might have been her first Christmas alone, if not for the fact that shed decided she wasnt going to have Christmas this year. Or maybe ever.

All the things she and David used to lovethe lights, the carols, the cold. They would only serve to remind her how empty the holidays would be without him. If only she could go home, lock all the doors, and not come out until after New Years

She could survive the holidays. Hell, she could survive a nuclear attack. She still had a case of powdered milk, forty gallons of water and three cases of canned beef stew in the basement, left over from her and Davids Y2K emergency plan.

Along with a cabinet full of Johnny Depp movies and an amply stocked liquor cabinet, what more could she possibly need?

Vera patted Astrids hand, a silent message from one lonely soul to another.

Astrid smiled and leaned forward, the rocking chair creaking softly. Vera, I want you to know you can talk to me. Tell me what you need.