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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Gilbert, Elizabeth, date.

Big magic : creative living beyond fear / Elizabeth Gilbert.

p. cm.

ISBN 978-0-698-40831-9

1. Creative ability. 2. Inspiration. 3. Magical thinking. 4. Confidence. 5. Courage. 6. Conduct of life. I. Title.

BF408.G464 2015 2015010717

153.3'5dc23

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This ones for you, Rayya

Q: What is creativity? A: The relationship between a human being and the mysteries of inspiration.

Contents

Courage

Hidden Treasure

O nce upon a time, there was a man named Jack Gilbert, who was not related to meunfortunately for me.

Jack Gilbert was a great poet, but if youve never heard of him, dont worry about it. Its not your fault. He never much cared about being known. But I knew about him, and I loved him dearly from a respectful distance, so let me tell you about him.

Jack Gilbert was born in Pittsburgh in 1925 and grew up in the midst of that citys smoke, noise, and industry. He worked in factories and steel mills as a young man, but was called from an early age to write poetry. He answered the call without hesitation. He became a poet the way other men become monks: as a devotional practice, as an act of love, and as a lifelong commitment to the search for grace and transcendence. I think this is probably a very good way to become a poet. Or to become anything, really, that calls to your heart and brings you to life.

Jack couldve been famous, but he wasnt into it. He had the talent and the charisma for fame, but he never had the interest. His first collection, published in 1962, won the prestigious Yale Younger Poets prize and was nominated for the Pulitzer. Whats more, he won over audiences as well as critics, which is not an easy feat for a poet in the modern world. There was something about him that drew people in and kept them captivated. He was handsome, passionate, sexy, brilliant on stage. He was a magnet for women and an idol for men. He was photographed for Vogue , looking gorgeous and romantic. People were crazy about him. He couldve been a rock star.

Instead, he disappeared. He didnt want to be distracted by too much commotion. Later in life he reported that he had found his fame boringnot because it was immoral or corrupting, but simply because it was exactly the same thing every day. He was looking for something richer, more textured, more varied. So he dropped out. He went to live in Europe and stayed there for twenty years. He lived for a while in Italy, a while in Denmark, but mostly he lived in a shepherds hut on a mountaintop in Greece. There, he contemplated the eternal mysteries, watched the light change, and wrote his poems in private. He had his love stories, his obstacles, his victories. He was happy. He got by somehow, making a living here and there. He needed little. He allowed his name to be forgotten.

After two decades, Jack Gilbert resurfaced and published another collection of poems. Again, the literary world fell in love with him. Again, he could have been famous. Again, he disappearedthis time for a decade. This would be his pattern always: isolation, followed by the publication of something sublime, followed by more isolation. He was like a rare orchid, with blooms separated by many years. He never promoted himself in the least. (In one of the few interviews he ever gave, Gilbert was asked how he thought his detachment from the publishing world had affected his career. He laughed and said, I suppose its been fatal.)

The only reason I ever heard of Jack Gilbert was that, quite late in his life, he returned to America andfor motives I will never knowtook a temporary teaching position in the creative writing department at the University of Tennessee, Knoxville. The following year, 2005, it happened that I took exactly the same job. (Around campus, they started jokingly calling the position the Gilbert Chair.) I found Jack Gilberts books in my officethe office that had once been his. It was almost like the room was still warm from his presence. I read his poems and was overcome by their grandeur, and by how much his writing reminded me of Whitman. (We must risk delight, he wrote. We must have the stubbornness to accept our gladness in the ruthless furnace of this world.)

He and I had the same surname, wed held the same job, we had inhabited the same office, we had taught many of the same students, and now I was in love with his words; naturally enough, I became deeply curious about him. I asked around: Who was Jack Gilbert?

Students told me he was the most extraordinary man theyd ever encountered. He had seemed not quite of this world, they said. He seemed to live in a state of uninterrupted marvel, and he encouraged them to do the same. He didnt so much teach them how to write poetry, they said, but why : because of delight. Because of stubborn gladness. He told them that they must live their most creative lives as a means of fighting back against the ruthless furnace of this world.

Most of all, though, he asked his students to be brave. Without bravery, he instructed, they would never be able to realize the vaulting scope of their own capacities. Without bravery, they would never know the world as richly as it longs to be known. Without bravery, their lives would remain smallfar smaller than they probably wanted their lives to be.

I never met Jack Gilbert myself, and now he is gonehe passed away in 2012. I probably couldve made it a personal mission to seek him out and meet him while he was living, but I never really wanted to. (Experience has taught me to be careful of meeting my heroes in person; it can be terribly disappointing.) Anyway, I quite liked the way he lived inside my imagination as a massive and powerful presence, built out of his poems and the stories Id heard about him. So I decided to know him only that waythrough my imagination. And thats where he remains for me to this day: still alive inside me, completely internalized, almost as though I dreamed him up.

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