2006 Sheila Walsh
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Contents
Dear Reader,
I sit here at my laptop in my kitchen and think about you. We have probably never met in person, but something made you pick up this book. It is to that something I write this note.
Several years ago, I picked up a book by Dr. Henry Cloud entitled Changes That Heal. The only reason I was reading the book, or so I thought, was because Dr. Cloud would be my guest the next day on my television show, Heart to Heart with Sheila Walsh.
As I read, I took notes of questions that I believed my viewers would want to ask, but something else was going on inside me that was deeply disturbing. It seemed that God had given Dr. Cloud a clear view of my inner life. As I read about what it means to be able to bond to others, to befree to choose healthy relationships, and to "own" your life as an adult, I found myself weeping from a place deep inside me. I knew that I was not living in the freedom he described.
That was the beginning of the most incredible journey of my life. It took me from a television studio to the locked ward of a psychiatric hospital to the life I live today with my husband, Barry, and our son, Christian.
My journey has not been easy, but I wouldn't change a single moment. I used to live in a virtual prison. No one else could see the bars, but they were as real to me as a maximum-security prison. God saw those bars, and in his mercy he set me on a path to freedom. More than that, he gave me a heart to dream again and to believe that he has an amazing dream for my life.
My life today is not perfect, but it is my life. I still make good choices and bad choices. I fall down and I rise up, but I know I am loved and I am free. This is what I want for you. I want you to be free to love God out of a grateful heart, not out of shame or fear or obligation.
As you areright now, with everything you love about yourself and everything you would change, God thinks you are beautiful.
Perhaps it's time for you to trade in some old dreams for new or to reclaim a dream that has been buried under the frustrations and disappointments of life. And perhaps you need to discover or be reminded of the incredible dream God has for you.
God has given me a new song on this journey. It's more like a shout, really. I want to stand on top of a hill and cry, "God has a dream for your life!"
I welcome you to join in the celebration.
With love,
Sheila
Introduction
AUNT EM, DOROTHY, AND MRS. PIRIE
[Dorothy] gave a cry of amazement and
looked about her, her eyes growing
bigger and bigger at the wonderful sights she saw.
THE WONDERFUL WIZARD OF OZ
I'll give you a full life in the emptiest of placesfirm muscles, strong bones. You'll be like a well-watered garden, a gurgling spring that never runs dry. You'll use the old rubble of past lives to build anew, rebuild the foundations from out of your past.
ISAIAH 5 8 : 1 1 - 1 2 MSG
If you have never read L. Frank Baum's classic children's book The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, I highly recommend it. There is so much more to the story than the movie had time to tell. As a child, I loved the story so much. I have seen the movie over and over, but it is only in recent years that I have begun to see how much it has to say to us as women. The journey that Dorothy and her friends embark on has many parallels to our spiritual journey, so it is a perfect backdrop for this book.
When the book opens, we are introduced to a very gray world. Aunt Em and Uncle Henry live in a gray, weather-beaten house in the midst of the Kansas prairies. When they look out their window, they survey a colorless and bleak horizon.
AUNT EM
Aunt Em has, over time, become gray. She hadn't always been that way. She had once been a pretty young woman full of dreams. But years of disappointment had removed the color from her cheeks and hair and the sparkle from her eyes.
Their home was a single, sparsely furnished room. In one corner was an old stove. In the center of the room was a trap door leading to a hole in the ground that served as a storm shelter. There was a table, three or four chairs, and two beds. The larger bed was for Uncle Henry and Aunt Em. The small bed was for a child. They had no children of their own, but in their latter years they took in a young orphan named Dorothy.
DOROTHY
Dorothy was not gray. The book doesn't tell us how she became an orphan, but despite her circumstances she still had the gift of laughter. When Aunt Em would hear Dorothy laugh, it so surprised her that she would scream and put her hand over her heart as if the noise was a health hazard!
Baum describes Aunt Em this way: "She was thin and gaunt and never smiled, now." The implication is clear. She used to laugh, but something or a series of somethings had extinguished her joy. Aunt Em no longer had time to laugh or to dream. When she looked at Dorothy, she wondered what this girl found to laugh about.
For Dorothy, that was an easy question to answer. His name was Toto. In the book, Toto was a little black dog with long, silky hair and small, black, twinkling eyes (not the Cairn terrier of the movie). He played all day, and he made Dorothy laugh. She loved him with her whole heart.
As the story opens, Uncle Henry is studying the sky, which appeared even more gray than usual. A seasoned storm survivor, he knew the danger signs. As the wind began to change direction and increase in speed, he called to Aunt Em and Dorothy to take shelter immediately.