Ryan Graudin - The Walled City

Darkness settles on roofs and walls,

But the sea, the sea in the darkness calls.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

There are three rules of survival in the Walled City: Run fast. Trust no one. Always carry your knife.

Right now, my life depends completely on the first.

Run, run, run.

My lungs burn, bite for air. Water stings my eyes. Crumpled wrappers, half-finished cigarettes. A dead animal too far gone to tell what it used to be. Carpets of glass, bottles smashed by drunk men. All of these fly by in fragments.

These streets are a maze. They twist into themselves narrow, filled with glowing signs and graffitied walls. Men leer from doorways; their cigarettes glow like monsters eyes in the dark.

Kuen and his followers chase me like a pack: frantic, fast, together. If theyd broken apart and tried to close me in, maybe theyd have a chance. But Im faster than all of them because Im smaller. I can slip into cracks most of them dont even see. Its because Im a girl. But they dont know this. No one here does. To be a girl in this city without a roof or family is a sentence. An automatic ticket to one of the many brothels that line the streets.

The boys behind me dont yell. We all know better than that. Yelling attracts attention. Attention means the Brotherhood. The only sounds of our chase are gritted footsteps and hard breaths.

I know every corner I dash past. This is my territory, the west section of the Walled City. I know exactly which alleyway I need to disappear into. Its coming soon, just a few strides away. I tear by Mrs. Paks restaurant, with its warm, homey scents of chicken, garlic, and noodles. Then theres Mr. Wongs chair, where people go to get their teeth pulled. Next is Mr. Lams secondhand traders shop, its entrance guarded with thick metal bars. Mr. Lam himself squats on the steps. Feet flat. His throat grumbles as I run past. He adds another loogie to his tin can collection.

A sharp-eyed boy slouches on the opposite stoop, picking at a Styrofoam bowl of seafood noodles. My stomach growls, and I think about how easy it would be to snatch it. Keep running.

I cant afford to stop. Not even for food.

Im so distracted by the noodles that I nearly miss the alleyway. The turn is so sharp my ankles almost snap. But Im still running, body turned sideways in the narrow gap between these two monstrous buildings. Cinder block walls press against my chest and scrape my back. If I breathe too fast, I wont be able to wedge through.

I push farther in, ignoring how the rough, damp wall claws skin off my elbows. Roaches and rats scurry in and out of the empty spaces by my body long past the fear of getting crushed by my feet. Dark, heavy footsteps echo off the walls, throb through my ears. Kuen and his pack of street boys have passed me by. For now.

I look down at the boots in my hand. Sturdy leather, tough soles. They were a good find. Worth the panicked minutes I just spent running for them. Not even Mr. Chow the cobbler on the citys west edge, always bent over his bench of nails and leather makes such sturdy footwear. I wonder where Kuen got them. These boots have to be from City Beyond. Most nice things are.

Angry shouts edge into my hiding place, piling together in a mess of curses. I flinch and the trash beneath my feet shudders. Maybe Kuens boys have found me after all.

A girl trips and falls, spills into the foot of my alleyway. Shes breathing hard. Blood streaks down her arms, her legs, summoned by the glass and gravel in her skin. All her ribs stick out from the slippery silk of her dress. Its blue and shiny and thin. Not the kind of thing you wear in this city.

All breath leaves my body.

Is it her?

She looks up and I see a face covered in makeup. Only her eyes are raw, real. Theyre full of fire, as if shes ready to fight.

Whoever this girl is, she isnt Mei Yee. She isnt the sister Ive been searching for all this time.

I shrink farther into the gloom. But its too late. The doll-girl sees me. Her lips pull back, as if she wants to talk. Or bite me. I cant tell which.

I never find out.

The men are on her. They swoop down like vultures, clawing at her dress as they try to pull her up. The flames behind the girls eyes grow wild. She twists around, fingers hooked so her nails catch her nearest attackers face.

The man flinches back. Four bright streaks rake down his cheek. He howls unspeakable things. Grabs at the nest of falling braids in her hair.

She doesnt scream. Her body keeps twisting, hitting, thrashing desperate movements. There are four men with their hands on her, but the fight isnt an easy one. Theyre so busy trying to hold her down that none of them notice me, deep in the alleys dark. Watching.

Each of them grabs a limb, holds her tight. She bucks, her back arching as she spits at their faces. One of the men strikes her over the head and she falls into an eerie, not-right stillness.

When shes not moving, its easier to look at her captors. The Brotherhoods mark is on all four of them. Black shirts. Guns. Dragon jewelry and tattoos. One even has the red beast inked on the side of his face. It crawls all the way up his jaw, into his hairline.

Stupid whore! the man with the nail marks growls at her battered, unconscious form.

Lets get her back, the one with the face tattoo says. Longwais waiting.

Its only after they take her away, black hair sweeping the ground under her limp body, that I realize Id been holding my breath. My hands tremble, still wrapped around the boots.

That girl. The fire in her eyes. She couldve been me. My sister. Any one of us.

Im not a good person.

If people need proof, Ill show them my scar, tell them my body count.

Even when I was a young boy, trouble latched onto me like a magnet. I pounded through life at volume eleven, leaving a trail of broken things: vases, noses, cars, hearts, brain cells. Side effects of reckless living.

My mother always tried to reason goodness into me. Her favorite phrases were Oh, Dai Shing, why cant you be more like your brother? and Youll never get a good wife if you keep acting this way! She always said these on repeat, trying not to let her cheeks turn purple, while my brother stood behind her, his body language the exact dictionary entry for I told you so: arms crossed, nose scrunched, thick eyebrows piled together like puppies. I always told him his face would get stuck that way if he kept tattling: an adulthood damned by unibrow. It never really seemed to stop him.

My fathers chosen tactic was fear. He always set his briefcase down, yanked his tie loose, and told me about this place: the Hak Nam Walled City. A recipe of humanitys darkest ingredients thieves, whores, murderers, addicts all mashed into six and a half acres. Hell on earth, he called it. A place so ruthless even the sunlight wont enter. If I kept messing up, my father said, hed drive me down there himself. Dump me off in the dens of drug lords and thieves so I could learn my lesson.

My father tried his best to scare me, but even all his stories couldnt cram the goodness into me. I ended up here anyway. The irony of the whole thing would make me laugh. But laughter is something that belongs to my life before this. In the shiny skyscrapers and shopping malls and taxi-tangle of Seng Ngoi.

Seven hundred and thirty. Thats how many days Ive been trapped in this cesspool of humanity.

Eighteen. Thats how many days I have left to find a way out.

Ive got a plan an elaborate, risky-as-hell plan but in order for it to work, I need a runner. A fast one.