M IRIAM N EFF
F ROM
O NE W IDOW
TO A NOTHER
Conversations on the
New You
MOODY PUBLISHERS
Chicago
2009 by
M IRIAM N EFF
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Neff, Miriam.
From one widow to another : conversations on the new you / Miriam Neff.
p. cm.
Includes bibliographical references.
ISBN 978-0-8024-8784-1
1. WidowsReligious life. I. Title.
BV4528.N44 2009
248.8434dc22
2008029224
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I n 1979 I dedicated my first book To my husband, Bob, the most Christlike person I know.
In 1992 I dedicated my third book To Bob, for twenty years of shared parenting and twenty-seven years of unconditional commitment. I recently asked him how our life compared to what he had anticipated on our first date, an outing back in 1963 on a beautiful fall day in Brown County, Indiana. He answered, The challenges and adventure are more than I ever dreamed. This book is the result of both, and this working mom could not have written it without his incredible, ever-believing support.
On April 21, 2006, I experienced the third greatest event in my life: Bobs exit to heaven. Following my choice to marry him, then his impact on my choosing to be a Christ follower, his exit was profound, far beyond the words that have resulted in this book.
After forty-one years of marriage, family, babies, adoption, careers, crises in the lives of those we cherished most, moving, ministries, traveling the world togetherAlaska to Albania, Maine to Morocco, Romania to Russiathe world shrunk in my view; the man grew in my love and esteem. Our final journey through the months and years of amyotrophic lateral sclerosis was the greatest, and toughest, though most precious of them all.
Today, my dedication again is to my husband, Bob, still the most Christlike person I have ever known.
Miriam Neff
C ONTENTS
SECTION I
A Widows Vulnerabilities
SECTION II
A Widows Strengths
SECTION III
Relationships: Never the Same
SECTION IV
The New YouThe New Woman in the Mirror: Different and Strong
A CKNOWLEDGMENTS
R eal living is a team event. This last challenge has required more emotional stamina, physical strength, spiritual courage, and mental resolve than I possess. My team is composed of cherished familiar faces and surprises as well.
First, my children have rallied with strength I did not know they possessed, sacrificing more than I can imagine of their own lives, career paths, and pleasures, to carry their Dad and me through.
Valerie and husband, Mark Hogan, what pillars of strength and persistence through the hardest of times! And today, thank you, Valerie, for pressing me to begin Widow Connection on my own. And Mark, for being such capable eyes, ears, and wisdom in my new life without Bob. And all this with parenting, law school, coaching, school board meetings, and work. What big hearts you have!
John and Lori, your dependability wrapped in creativity and care bless me today. John, my new ministry would not exist without you, your technical skills, and patience. Lori, you are like Dad, positive, smiling, and always expecting the best will happen.
Charles, Mr. Fix-It, you literally lifted your Dad day after day, month after month. Moving home and meeting the challenge was the greatest gift you could have given him.
Rob, our grill master, Bobs face lit up when you entered the room. You brought your philosophy of life to us when we needed it most. You always said, We dont need a reason to be happy. Strong and tender, we needed your perspective.
Grandchildren Edward, Albert, and Edmond, no one brought more excitement, laughter, and delightful unexpected moments to Bob like the three of you did. Edward, you were Grandpas hands in assembling and repairs. Albert, Bob loved to hear you read aloud. Whether Calvin and Hobbes, or hearing you laugh, he loved it! Ed-mond, coming to the family late (as all of you did), you told your coach that you did not have a Grandpa long enough. Please know, he, too, wanted more time with you. He loved you all so much.
And my small and tenacious group of friends, whose stories are scattered through these pagesI may have changed your names, but youll be recognized in heaven. Leaders in our widows group at church, my board for Widow Connection, and the widows and widowers who have sent thanks, encouragement, and your stories to Widowconnection.com, you have carried me on your shoulders when my heart wanted to hide under the bench on the sidelines.
Thanks to the Gibbs, Milne, and Warton families for providing me with your get-away homes for rest and reflection. You have restored my soul.
And, of course, Moody Publishers, Greg Thornton, Jennifer Lyell, and Pam Pughwithout you, this book would not exist.
I thank God for all of you.
Miriam Neff
I NTRODUCTION
I magine a single event that will dramatically change your calendar, your checkbook, your friendship network, the contents of your refrigerator, the temperature you set your thermostat, your outlook on your future, and your connection with your children. And thats not all. Your appearance may change, your emotions, your sleep patterns, your theology, your social status, and possibly your address.