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Linda Lovelace - Out of Bondage

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Linda Lovelace is nothing. The woman who used to be Linda Lovelace is here to tell you that. She doesnt exist anymore. In this book you will find that a courageous, independent, loving woman has taken her place, and you will be moved by the story of the struggles she went through to make this happen.
When Ordeal became a national bestseller in 1980 it was an event that had meaning beyond the success of a single book. It is clear now that it was one of the early signs of a new awareness that the sexual revolution was not all that it first seemed. Some of its results now include growing awareness of sexual exploitation, battered women and child abuse. The author of Ordeal was swamped by letters and calls from women who immediately understood her story from having suffered similar experiences.
Written frankly, openly and in a style that struck such a chord in the heart of American public, Out of Bondage is an important addition to Linda Lovelace Marchianos story. In it Linda gives details of the agony she suffered in facing the public with her story the first time.
Tell me, Linda, what in your background led you to a concentration camp? is the ironical but extremely apt sentence that Gloria Steinem used to describe the new ordeal that Linda faced on television. She had to sit in a court room where a judge arbitrarily insisted on a screening of Deep Throat, for evidence, and she had to live as a person in fear for her life, on the run from men who had made millions of dollars from her degradation.
Linda makes clear that the dirty movie business is very much a dirty business. The people who run it, with the typical arrogance of real criminals, routinely enforce a form of slavery on its performers.
But things are a lot different for Linda now. She has had the warm support of feminists such as Gloria Steinem and Susan Brownmiller and she has participated in the campaigns of Women Against Pornography. She has even had the satisfaction of seeing some of her former tormentors arrested and punished by the law.
She has also had the warmth and portection of her marriage. Much of Out of Bondage is, in fact, a love story. Here Linda tells how she finally was able to share the burden of her past with her husband Larry. It was not easy. Larry is the kind of man who tells another man to get away from his wife, not caring that the man happens to be mafia boss Joe Colombo. But much of what happened was too tough even for him.
Linda, in her candid, unaffected way, andmits that she had much more to learn after she set out to control her own life, and she is still learning. In Ordeal she wrote, I could be happy just vacuuming my home. In this book she tells us, Well, that was the truth. Then. The truth now is that it is much more important to her that she is not totally dependent on anyone. Instead of vacuuming the house she prefers the picture of herself testifying before the Senate Subcommittee investigating the effect of pornography on women and children, bringing her message to the world.
Following publication of her book Ordeal, Linda Marchiano traveled extensively, speaking out against pornography in all parts of the country. The story of her victimization caught the attention of many feminist leaders who have since become her friend. Linda is particularly concerned with helping other women who have suffered from coercion and commercial sexual exploitation. She lives in a quiet Long Island community with her husband and two children, a son and a daughter.

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Im back in my bedroom in a rented cottage in Beverly Glen, California. The window beside my bed is open. A small noise there causes me to stir. I look up through sleepy eyes and see a man, a stranger, and hes crawling in through my window. I try to scream but my throat is paralyzed. I want to run but my legs have lost all strength. As I sit up in bed, I see the other men, five of them, all strangers, all surrounding my bed, staring down at me. I know what is to followthe beating and the rapingand a terrible panic overwhelms me, leaving me weak and helpless. I start to sob wildly, uncontrollably.
It is then that I wake up.
I rarely have the dream any more. But just a few years ago the dream came every night. I dreaded sleep because those men would always be there, surrounding my bed, waiting, threatening.
The dream comes from an earlier lifeback when I was Linda Lovelace, the star of Deep Throat, the high princess of pornography. Most likely the dream springs from a specific incident, a hot summery day when a man named Chuck Traynor introduced me to prostitution by selling me to five men in a motel room in Florida. And every time I have the dream, Im forced to go through feelings of fear and pain, of helplessness and hopelessness.
There was no escaping those feelings. Even when the dream ended, the memories would be there. I would wake up battered by a nightmare and the flashback would begin.

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A Holiday Inn in South Miami, a sprawling two-story building not far from the University of Miami. Walking with Chuck down the central corridor, up a flight of stairs, down another hallway to the end. The last room, Chuck knocking on the door three times, a man staring out at us, smiling, letting us in. Five men in the room, middle-aged, businessmen, wearing ties and jackets, having a drink, giving me the old once-over. Chuck talking to me in the dressing room, saying, Those five guys out thereyoure going to fuck every one of them Me looking for the joke: Chuck dont talk crazy. No joke: You got no fucking choice. I already got the money. And thats something I want you to remember. The first thing you do is get the money... now take off your clothes.
Saying no, then seeing the gun in Chucks hand, listening to his insanity; You know what I think? I think youre going to take off your clothes, all of your clothes, and then youre going to go out there and fuck those five guys. And if you dont Im gonna put a bullet in your head right now.
And me, still innocent, still looking for a smile but seeing only a gun. Im gonna shoot you right now unless you get out there and do what Im telling you. Knowing that he meant it, he wasnt lying; he would shoot me. Going numb then, the tears flooding my eyes as I remove my clothes, trembling, really shaking, too frightened to even pray. Chuck saying: Stop your crying before you go out there. Crying is bad for business. Walking out into the room then, wearing nothing. A man coming over and putting his hands on my breasts: Not bad. Chuck got us a nice young one this time.

The story of that day, that life, was told in an earlier book, Ordeal. In those days your worst nightmares were my everyday occurrences. For nearly three years I was enslaved by Traynor, a man who beat me and kicked me; a man who hypnotized me and sold me and traded me; a man who managed finally to turn me into a sexual zombie, able to do anything while feeling nothing.
The nightmares didnt end in 1973 with my escape from Chuck Traynor. Deep Throat was behind me; enslavement was behind me; a great deal was behind me. No longer was I forced to have sex with strangers for pay. No longer was I a party favor given freely to celebrities. However, although I was away from that life, I was not free of it. My nights were filled with dreams and my days were crowded with ghosts.
I was Chucks profitable little sexual zombie and he wasnt about to give me up without a fight. He searched for me everywhere, and I had to go into hiding. Wherever Chuck went in those days, he carried a flight bag concealing a semi-automatic revolver. While I was hiding out, protected by professional bodyguards, I was shown a newspaper story about Chuck.
Shes either going to work for me or shell work for nobody, I read. Ill see to that. Shes mistaken if she thinks shes going to do her nightclub act without me.... Ive made her what she is today. Shed be nothing without me.
It took a long time for my fear of Chuck to dissolve. Over and over again I tried to tell people what I had gone throughthat Id been brutalized, that Id been a victim, that none of it was my ideabut no one wanted to hear that. Newspaper reporters couldnt write the truth because it would be too libelous; a well-known television host rapidly changed the subject; a publisher explained that the truth was too downbeat and would never sell as well as the fiction they had published about me in the past; even family and friends seemed cool and disinterested. The whole story was taken lightly and before long I stopped boring people with it.
In those days the truth could only be found in fragments. Playboy, for example, allowed that Chuck Traynor played a sort of porn Svengali to the early Lindas Trilby.
One person who knew the truth was Gerry Damiano, director of Deep Throat. Although Damiano avoids interviews, he was talking about Chuck Traynor to a college audience and his remarks found their way into the Boston Phoenix: That man (Chuck Traynor) was a nothing. He had no personality, no charm, no brains. He was just a user of people and he used Linda. He gave her nothing and abused her. He was very brutal with her.... Many times shed come on the set and be completely black and blue.
Isnt that amazing! Reading that gave me a classic set of mixed emotions. On the one hand: Thank God someone finally backed up my story. On the other hand: why didnt he do something at the time; why didnt he come to my rescue?
People always ask me why I didnt get help. Where would I have gotten help? From whom would I have gotten help? Heres Damiano admitting that he knew I was beaten viciouslyyet he never lifted a finger to help me. He was by no means the only one.
Chuck never broke stride. Within a few weeks he was back at the old stand, managingand later marryingthe second most famous pornographic star in the world, Marilyn Chambers, the former Ivory Snow Girl. Marilyn Chambers began her porno career starring in Behind the Green Door and went on from there to ever bigger, ever more rotten movies.
It was impossible to get Traynor out of my mind. Because no matter what he did to me, no matter what crimes he committed in the past, he was free to wander wherever he wanted. And where he did a lot of his wandering was in front of the cameras.
Never alone. Alone, Chuck Traynor is less than nothing. So always he was seen with his current charge in tow. At first I felt Chuck and Marilyn were made for each other, that this was a match made in some strange porno heaven. But as I read the news accounts about the two of them, it seemed clear that Chuck was re-creating the same master-slave relationship he had with me. And the fact that she smiles a lot or she looks like she likes it has absolutely nothing to do with anything.
I watched the two of them on television and listened to Marilyn Chambers saying exactly the same things I used to sayhow she lives for sex, how she can never get enough of that wonderful stuff, etc.and I knew who was the author of both the lines and the sentiments.
The more I read about them, the more I could see Chuck was up to his old tricks. And the reporters who interviewed them seemed to notice that something was not quite right; to some it was like interviewing Edgar Bergen and Charlie McCarthy.
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