Burr - Love, Tanya

As we drew up beside the pavement in front of the Sanderson Hotel, light bulbs started flashing before I had even opened the door of the car. I felt sick with nerves but at the same time, I was really excited and couldnt wait to go inside.

Jim gave my hand a squeeze. Ready? he asked.

I took a deep breath and stepped out onto the street. One of my biggest fears was that no one at all would turn up and I certainly hadnt expected there to be photographers waiting for me. It all felt really surreal. It was 30th January 2014 and the launch night of Tanya Burr Cosmetics. I had been working on the range for more than eighteen months and really wanted everyone to love the products as much as I did. This party felt like the culmination of many, many hours of meetings, designing and hard work.

Entering the party, I just couldnt believe how many friendly faces were there. My best friends from home like Maddie, Vanessa, Kate and Emma were there to support me, along with YouTube friends such as Zoe, Joe and Alfie and, of course, my amazingly supportive family Mum, Dad, little sister Tasha and little brother Oscar, and my fiance Jim. Everyone was enjoying the cocktails, and yummy canaps and looking around, I felt a buzz of happiness and excitement. All of the finished products were displayed and lit up on surfaces around the venue and looked amazing.

The evening went past in a blur and when it got to 10 p.m. and the launch was supposed to be winding up, it seemed busier than ever, but I figured by that point, it would be OK to sneak away. A lovely man at the hotel organised for me to get a private room with twenty of my closest friends and family so I could spend some quality time with them, as during the party I had been doing interview after interview with lots of different journalists. The man led us into this cute little room with a table inside, just big enough for us all to squeeze round and grab some food. As it was quite late, instead of a proper dinner we had all the Crme Egg brownies that my friend Scarlett had made me. Looking around, all the people I loved in one place, it just felt incredible. Everyone was so supportive and that meant the world to me.

This launch is just one of the many amazing things that has happened to me since I started making videos and uploading them to YouTube back in 2009. I feel like I need to pinch myself to see if its really real, and it makes me feel really choked up just thinking about it. I often have these moments, where I sit back and I think, This is just insane. It just reminds me just how lucky I am and how far I have come in such a short time.

Thanks for picking up my book! Im so excited to be writing it, for loads of different reasons. I hope to give you more of an insight into my childhood and life growing up in Norfolk, tell you about why I started making videos and the journey I have been on since: full of fun, surprises, meeting some wonderful people, getting engaged to Jim, moving to London and launching my cosmetics line.

I also want to give you all some practical beauty, style and lifestyle tips and help you feel more confident. I always try to be happy and upbeat, but as any girl knows, growing up and being a grown-up isnt always easy and I hope to show you some of the tricks and tips I use to help me feel self-assured.

As some of you might know, I have also suffered from anxiety and panic attacks and I will tell you more about how I have learned to deal with this in the hope it will help any of you affected by similar issues. I will talk about my friendships and relationships and all the everyday stuff that goes on behind my videos. Ive also left space for you to add your own scrapbook-style lists, so you can jot down different ideas about what you want to achieve, ways you can feel happier, things you want to explore online or places you want to see. I really want you to get involved, so grab your pen and get writing!