Kady Cross - The Strange Case of Finley Jayne

London, The Age of Invention, late April 1897

Youre the very spawn of Satan and Ill not have you darken this door ever again.

Finley Jayne jumped as the door was slammed in her face, leaving her standing alone in the small, damp flagstone square that acted as the servants entrance to the town house.

Shed been firedwell and goodby Mrs. Brown, the housekeeper. Normally being called the spawn of Satan would upset Finley, but lately shed begun to wonder if the sentiment wasnt true. This was, after all, the second job shed been let go from.

At least the old crone could have let her collect her things.

Just like in a stage-comedy, the back door opened once more and Finleys carpetbag sailed out of the dim interior. She caught it before it could strike her in the face.

Oy!, she cried, but the door slammed shut againand this time Mrs. Brown locked it from the inside. She heard the tumblers fall into place as the bitter old woman turned the wheel engaging the mechanism which could only be opened once again by a punch card.

Mrs. Brown had taken Finleys punch card from her room before firing her.

Of all the bloody rotten luck. Tossed out without a reference for something that wasnt even her fault. She hadnt been the one to slap young master Fenton hard enough to make him cry when he tried to take a fourth biscuit from the tea tray. That had been the governessMiss Clarkewho had a particular habit of striking small children.

Miss Clarke slapped the boy, and then Finley punched Miss Clarke.

How was she to know the womans teeth were so brittle that theyd fall out? Theyd certainly been healthy enough to cut Finleys knuckles. And not having much experience with violence, how was she to know that normal girls werent supposed to have the strength to send a full-grown woman, three stone heavier than herself, flying backward several feet?

As she lowered her bag to her side and walked toward the stairs to the street, Finley had to be serious long enough to realize that she hadnt been fired for striking the governessMrs. Brown struck the maids all the time. Shed been fired because there was something wrong with her.

She wasnt right . Was it the work of the devil? She didnt feel evil. Even when that darkness came over her and made her do the things she shouldnt do, it didnt feel wrong or bad. And she wasnt going to apologize for knocking Miss Clarke on her fat behind when the older woman had brought a child to tears.

The memory of it made her grit her teeth as she climbed the cracked and crumbling stairs. Even the smells and sounds of Mayfair didnt dent her anger. And now she had to walk through Grosvenor Square with hair frizzy from working a steam press all morning. If shed known shed get sacked she would have hit the cow harder.

She stopped two steps from the street. This was exactly what was wrong with her. Shed be thinkingcould be about nothing in particularand shed have a dark thought, like hitting someone, or saying something true, but cruel. But unlike regular people, sometimes she couldnt help but give in to temptation.

Perhaps it was the devil, after all.

Just like that, her anger receded, leaving a ball of fear and dread in her belly so cold and hard it felt like lead. She was unemployed in a city where good jobs for a girl were scarce, and without a reference.

She was, as her stepfather would often say when he thought she couldnt hear, buggered.

The thought of her parents only brought her mood down lower. How was she going to explain to them that shed lost her position because she couldnt control herself? They didnt know about these strange incidents. When she was younger they were so infrequent she barely gave them a thought, but they started getting worse shortly after she got her first monthly, and now happened regularly enoughand without warningthat oftentimes she wasnt even aware anything had happened until it was far too late.

She couldnt tell her parents the complete truth, but she had to tell them something. As of today she had no place to stay, and proud as she was, even she wasnt foolish enough to spend the night on the street.

There were things far more dangerous than her in London.

Her mother made hot chocolate.

Finley smiled guiltily at the steaming mug. She knew it would taste like heaven, even when the toast she dunked in it left a buttery haze on top. You didnt have to do that.

Nonsense, her mother, Mary, countered, taking a seat at the table. She had her own mug, as well. We havent done this for a long time.

It really hadnt been that long, but sometimes it felt like years since shed left home. Im sorry to intrude upon you like this.

Her mothers warm hand closed over one of hers. Dearest, this is your home, and it always will be. You could never intrude upon Silas and me.

Finley stared down at the scarred, yet polished tabletop. Her mother and Silas werent poor, but they werent wealthy, either. The bookshop they ran did a solid business, but life would be easier for both of them without the burden of an extra body to clothe and feed.

If only she hadnt hit Miss Clarke. If only she could bring herself to feel badly for it. She didnt. She felt badly for being here, leeching off her parents, but she didnt feel one ounce of remorse for what she had doneonly the consequences of it.

Youll find a new position, her mother added, giving her hand a squeeze. And theyll be glad to have you. Only next time, try to keep your mouth closed.

Finley glanced up in time to catch her mothers smile. She hadnt been completely honest, nor had she lied precisely. She told her parents that she had lost her job because of an altercation with the governess who was favored by the mistress of the house. That was all true. She simply left out the part about causing that same servant to swallow her own teeth.

I will, Mama, she promised, trying to force her own lips to curve.

Slowly, her mothers smile faded away, replaced by an expression of concern that tightened the corners of her pale blue eyes. Finley had often wished her eyes could be that color, but as she grew up she began to appreciate that she had something of Thomas Jayne about her.

Has something else happened? her mother asked. Is there something you want to talk about?

Words teetered on the tip of her tongue, just waiting to spill out and confess everything, but Finley bit them back. No. Im just disappointed in myself.

Learn from it and then let it go. Dwelling never helped anyone. A strange expression crossed her face. You must believe me in this.

For a moment Finley wondered, as she often did when her mother was particularly cryptic, if she referred to Finleys father. She had never known her real father, and though Silas had been as good to her as any father could, she often wondered about the man.