Peter Geye - Safe from the Sea

The officer stood the midnight watch, his hand easy on the wooden wheel. He was steering the ore boat Ragnark, five hours outside Duluth harbor and downbound for the Superior Steel Works in Detroit.

Jacobsen, he called.

Sir? The wheelsman stepped to the helm.

Bear northeast, Jacobsen. And never mind this. He tapped the binnacle dome. Steer for Polaris. He pointed up at the firmament. The top of the dipper. Their load of taconite had sent the compass dithering.

Yes, sir.

The officer stepped to the chart. He withdrew his tobacco and papers from the inside pocket of his coat and rolled a cigarette. In the weary light of a twenty-watt bulb he studied their course. They were some twenty nautical miles north of the Keweenaw Peninsula in water a hundred and fifty fathoms deep. He marked their position. It was a passage plotted ages ago, one he knew by rote. He stood there because he was a prudent man, strict in his habits and in his discipline. An upholder of protocol. Consulting the charts was written into his duties.

He stepped outside, rounded the pilothouse decking. With his feet astride the keel line he lit his smoke. There was the sky to the north. The aurora borealis. Coronas the color of ice, the color of fire. This man was no philosopher, but neither was he blind. He could see what lay before him.

When his smoke was down to its nub he flicked it over the deck railing. He tucked his chin into his coat and again rounded the decking.

Back in the pilothouse he said, Jacobsen, do you have children? No, sir.

My first child was born nine days ago. A son. Nine days ago, and here I am bound for the Soo. Can you beat that? Whats his name, sir?

My wife named him Noah. A weather report warning of snow squalls off the Keweenaw crackled over marine radio. This sent both mens eyes back to the north.

Look at that sky, Jacobsen. Have you ever seen anything like it? Its something.

If only my son could see it. Someday, sir.

This pacified the officer. Someday, he echoed.

The officer settled into his loneliness, thinking of his son and wife. The feeling was specifically sad and beautiful. The colors in the sky vanished, were replaced with the brightness of stars.

By the time they cleared the Keweenaw the sky was indeed squally. A chop had come up with the wind. The officer checked his pocket watch against the sky.

That morning Noah boarded a plane for Duluth. By seven oclock he was driving a rental car down Mesaba Avenue. Between the intermittent swoosh of the windshield wipers he recognized the city he harbored in his memory. It lay below him smothered in fog, the downtown lights wheezing in mist. Though he could not see the lake in the distance, he knew it rested beyond the pall. Soon he pulled onto Superior Street. The manholes blowing steam might have been freeing ghosts.

It had been his plan to drive up to Misquah, but hed been delayed during a Minneapolis layover and decided it was too late. Instead he drove onto Lake Avenue, parked, and stepped out into the evening. Now he could see the lake, a dark and undulating line that rolled onto the shore. The concussions were met with a hiss as the water sieved back through the pebbled beach. The fog had a crystalline sharpness, and he could feel on his cheeks the drizzle carried by the wind. It all felt so familiar, and he thought, I resemble this place. And then, My father, he was inhabited by it.

But Duluth had also changed. Where now T-shirt and antique shops kept address, dive bars and pawnshops and shoe-repair shops had once done a dismal business. More than a few of Noahs boyhood friends had ordered their first steins of beer in the slop shops that were now coffeehouses and art galleries. As a kid Noah had seen grown men stumble from doorways, drawing knives as they fell, ready to fight. Now he saw squalling kids and husbands and wives bickering over where to have dinner. The hotels had once offered hourly rates, now half-a-dozen national chains were staked in Canal Park. There were bookshops, ice-cream parlors, wilderness outfitters, toy stores, even a popcorn and cotton-candy cart, all lining the street like a Vermont ski town.

There did remain two stalwarts: the Tallahassee and the Freighter. The former, though it advertised JAZZ! ON SATURDAYS, was a topless bar with filthy taffeta curtains bunched in the windows. The latter was where Noah had ordered his first beer more than twenty years ago. It had also been his fathers hideaway of choice. They were next door to each other, laggards from a vanished time.

For all its squalor, the Freighter was a landmark, a bare-knuckle place that had not given way to slumming conventioneers or fraternity brothers down from the colleges. Dark, greasy air thick with smoke and blue neon hung like the fog as Noah stepped in for a draft and something to eat. A gauzy linoleum floor curled up from rotten floorboards, and a cobwebbed fishing net hung from the ceiling. Behind the bar, above the bottles of cheap booze, a series of photographs of ore boats in teakwood frames were nailed into the wall. A few tipplers sat at the bar, and behind the pull-tab counter a silver-haired churchgoer did a crossword puzzle. The sign above her head announced a meat raffle on Wednesdays.

Noah took a seat at the bar and swiveled around. Other than the murmuring of the drinkers and tinkling of pint glasses, the only sound came from an ancient television on the end of the bar broadcasting the local news.

You look familiar, the barman said, but you arent from around here. An old man with a ruddy face and drooping eyes, he looked familiar to Noah, too.

I havent been here in years, Noah said. But my old man used to call this place home.

Who was your old man?

Olaf Torr.

Oh, Christ, the man said, wiping his hands on a rag before reaching under the counter for a bottle of Wisers. If youre Torrs boy, this is on me.

Before Noah could decline, two shots of whiskey sat on the bar.

I cant drink this, Noah said.

The barman drained the shot hed poured for himself and smacked his lips. You aint Torrs boy if thats true. He poured another drink for himself. Your pops dead?

Jesus, no, Noah said. Then added, Not yet.

He still living up around Misquah?

Unbelievably, he is.

The barkeeper had not taken his eyes from Noah. He shook his head thoughtfully. We used to fall on over to the Tallahassee every odd day of the week, your pops and me. Watch them girls shake tail.

You corrupted him, then.

Sure, he needed corrupting. His fathers old crony sipped the second ounce of Wisers. What brings you home?

Im headed up to see him.

You tell that son of a bitch Mel says hello.

Ill do that, Noah said.

You hungry? Mel asked.

Noah ordered a burger basket and a pint of beer to help with the whiskey.

. .

THE LAST TIME he had been in the Freighter was almost six years ago, on the morning after the wedding of a childhood friend. Before heading back to Boston hed met his father for breakfast. On the mismatched barstools half-a-dozen gray-haired men sat like barnacles. When the door creaked shut behind Noah they turned in unison to sneer at the schoolteacher in pressed khaki trousers standing in the doorway. Olaf stood up, last in line and farthest from the door, looked down at Noah over the top of his glasses, and pulled out the barstool next to his own. Hello, boy, he said across the room as he pushed two empty Bloody Mary glasses into the bar gutter and crushed out a cigarette. Come here. Have a seat. What do you know?