Torres Veronica - Discovering YOU

Eloheim: Hello! Where do you wish to begin?

Kay: I wrote a couple of things down.

Eloheim: Were going to interrupt you because were looking at your soon enough. We suggest people set boundaries early and often and you are not setting boundaries anywhere soon enough to keep your energy level high. This is why youre tired. This is why youve had weight gain. This is why you feel this midlife crisis kind of energy. Youve let yourself run down so far that youre on fumes and then, when youre on fumes, because youre trying to fix it, you fix it by trying to do the things that ran you down in the first place only more, better, faster. This idea of, Ill just do three plays instead of one and thatll make me feel better because Ill be doing stuff. Right?

Kay: Right.

Eloheim: Were looking at your energy field right now and instead of your have its claws in you? What is the big, bad, boogie man thats telling you to stay small?

Kay: I dont know.

Eloheim: You dont know. We know you dont know. Thats why this has happened to you, because you dont know. What we see happening is that over time youve given with your performances, youve given with your abilities, youve given with your massage work, youve given with your vibrant personality, that sense of giving, giving, giving, giving as a way to feel connected to the world. So when you give, give, give to be connected to the world, you , you give away your essence. The option that we suggest for you and for everybody else is to emanate.

Theres a huge difference between giving and emanating. Emanating is knowing what your truth is and letting that shine out of you. Giving is trying to figure out what other people want and trying to figure out a way to offer it to them. All youre required to offer to the world is your truth experienced. Not looking around in other peoples energy to see what it is they want and then trying to give it to them. Heres an example from your acting career: You dont poll the audience to hear what play they want to see. Who wants Hamlet, who wants this one, who wants that one? Okay, everybody, it seems like were going to have to do a mishmash because no one can agree. You dont do that. You say, This is the play. Come and see it if you want to. You want to connect to the audience and you want to give them a powerful experience, but the truth of the matter is youre having your truth being presented. Take it or leave it, like it or dont. I dont give a shit because I know Im coming from the authentic version of me.

Instead of emanating your truth, what youre doing in your life is asking everybody what play they want to see. If you dont know the lines to the play they request, you say, I dont know the lines to that play, oh well, Ill just try anyway. Then, you dont feel success, you dont feel confident, youre always what we call on your to think all the old thoughts over and over again, which is what youve been doing. And you dont just hamster wheel thoughts; you also hamster wheel the behavior of giving instead of emanating.

Youre always looking for ways to give to others, but youre not giving from your like: Oh, what are they thinking? Am I letting them down? Blah, blah, blah. Say instead, I dont give a shit. Because right now my number one focus has to be rejuvenating my reservoir, by emanating my truth and not giving away myself.

You deserve this. If you dont do it for yourself, no one is going to do it for you. We know that you wish to have a positive impact in the world; however, you wont be available to have any impact on anyone because you wont be healthy enough. You just cant fuck around with this. Your energy is so low. Normally people we see like this, we think something is wrong with their thyroid. We dont think something is wrong with your thyroid right now. We think youre just at 10%. You know like when you drive your car and that light comes on because you know you need gas and you keep driving and youre wondering, Will I make it?youre in that place. Right?