Glidden - If I Told You the Whole Story

If I
Told You the
Whole
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Gina L. Glidden iUniverse, Inc. Bloomington If I Told You the Whole Story Copyright 2012 by Gina L. Glidden. All rights reserved. iUniverse books may be ordered through booksellers or by contacting: iUniverse 1663 Liberty Drive Bloomington, IN 47403 www.iuniverse.com 1-800-Authors (1-800-288-4677) Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid. iUniverse books may be ordered through booksellers or by contacting: iUniverse 1663 Liberty Drive Bloomington, IN 47403 www.iuniverse.com 1-800-Authors (1-800-288-4677) Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid.

The views expressed in this work are solely those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them. Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Thinkstock are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only. Certain stock imagery Thinkstock. ISBN: 978-1-4759-3606-3 (sc) ISBN: 978-1-4759-3608-7 (hc) ISBN: 978-1-4759-3607-0 (ebk) Contents Many people keep a journal to remember past events. Personally, I am far too secretive to do so. My journal is kept in poetic form so that I can look back and reflect on my feelings.

I do this first to avoid a tell-all journal and second because of my love for poetry. Growing up, I would never have wanted my mother reading my private journal. Even into adulthood, I wouldnt want to be so invaded. Poetry is a great outlet for me. It is easy to tap into my emotions without giving specific details of my personal life. The poetry within these pages is derived mostly from my personal journal.

Because these poems are written in such an abstract way, I am not afraid to share them with others. In doing so, people are able to relate their own experiences to what I have written. The responses I get from sharing these poems give me a sense of pride. Often, it is said that I have a very complex personality, so by sharing, it is possible for people to come to know me better. As I have grown from my experiences over the years, I feel that I am able to reach out to others with wisdom and caring. Poetry is enlightening, and it has enriched my life and allowed me to express myself in such a way.

It is my hope that you will also get the same sense from reading this. To begin, I would like to thank all of the teachers who have influenced my life in so many different ways. My children and grandchildren, in all the beauty that they are, have enriched my life greatly. Out of a respect and adoration for my elders, I would also like to thank them for the countless words of wisdom and life lessons learned. There are far too many people to mention them all by name. They have all helped to inspire my writing.

How do I follow on to where thy lead, Having put foot forth unbeknownst to thee? Holding of heart, and keeping of soul, For the price of promise is that which is known. When come a time of wait, Awaited time do I for thee. In truth and trust there forth I go, Gaining in shadowed path there where I grow. Where time to promise be closer to me, And beauty be greater, where closer Thy be! Eyes of charm to look upon, The gentle ways I have. A heart of gold brazening The love that keeps me glad. A time with you, for which I pray; To see the ways of love, And time for me eternally, Which then would be quite enough.

The battles have been won and fought, For thou has come today, The Holy Lord of loving thought, To whisk my soul away. The riches lie within your eyes, The sparkle of diamond dust. The wealth is well within your soul That cares so very much. You are a treasure to all the world, And poor you cannot be, For the light that shines within your soul Is worth more than gold can be! Time does not pass Without you in my heart. Though we may not be together, We shall never be apart. My prayers always with you.

My love always yours. Time will bring our haven. Forever be loves force. Though the sky may darken With every passing day, There will always be sunshine Every morning as you wake. In every dream, remember That you are warm and safe And not without the love of those Who cannot be replaced. As the sunshine surely comes Every morning when you wake, So will love return to you.

The love they cannot take! A sleepless night of endless prayer, For your heart, your soul, your love to share. A lonely night without you there, Of sadness, regrets, and overwhelming despair. A morning to come, with much to do: The chores, the errands, the mountains to move. A day to face alone again, Of hope that we can make amends. I know there must be more to this Than just the passion in your kiss. Tell me its me you cant resist And then tell me that you love me.

Havent I been the one you trust? Darling, this must be more than lust. Theres something between the two of us. Tell me, isnt it love? Why wont you say that you love me? Say youre only thinking of me. Say that you place no one above me. Honey, tell me its love. I know there must be more to this Than just the passion in your kiss.

Please say that its me you cant resist. Although I love you in the morning, And though I love you through the day, I spend them alone without you, To sleep within the bed that I have made. Oh, if you only knew The love I have inside for you, I think that you would finally see The only one you really need is me. I mean to love you. I mean to hold you. I mean to be your fantasy.

I mean to hold on to you. I mean to show you The only one for you is me. Did you think Id let you walk away, Without begging you, begging you to stay? Did you think Id let you close the door, Without saying that I love you once more? Oh, if you decide to stay, I swear that I will love you Until your dying day. Stitches from my heart unravel. It has been mended many times. For once I cast away my hopes And left my dreams behind.

Without your love, theres only pain. More than words can say. A life with you is all I want, And yet you turn me away. How can I pick up the pieces And mend them once again When Im never free from my love for you But yours has come to an end? Youll always carry my heart with you. A truer love youll never find, And yet you cast my love away, Leaving only heartache behind. I g ot in my car about eleven oclock.

Turned the headlights on, and I had one last thought. Will he hold me closely and kiss my tears away, Or will he say its been too long and send me back To the world I left today? Well, after all these years, what right do I still have To spill out my heart at the end of the path? The headlights were on, the car was already in gear, So I pulled the car out anyway. You know, the closer I get to him, The farther I am from here. I drove down the E-way; it was all that I could do To get a little closer to the love that I once knew. As I pulled up in the drive, I had one last thought. This looks so much closer to the world that I once lost.

So I turned off the headlights, and I said a little prayer. Oh, Lord, open up this heart for me. Please just let him hear me out. I know that Ive been gone some time, And you probably have your doubts. Please dont turn me around. Dont send me back that way.

I dont want the world I left behind. I want the world Im with today. What youve never heard before, You will never hear again, Because I will only tell you once Of the predicament youre in. Im in love! Yeah, youre carrying my heart, And Im just here to warn you That you might not want to start Taking me for granted. So dont you drag my heart around Like it doesnt mean a thing. You might be thinking of a kiss When Im thinking of a ring.

If this just dont work out, Theres only one thing I can say, Well, it wasnt that l left you, And it wasnt that we fought. I wasnt my deception. It was the ring you never bought. Oh, honey, please! Duty is plentiful. Of obligation, theres no lack. Where is there fulfillment? When does happiness impact? Will I find peace when I close my eyes, Or will I long for the love that I feel denied? For me, there is promise of life beyond.