ALSO BY WILL SCHWALBE
The End of Your Life Book Club
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(with David Shipley)
THIS IS A BORZOI BOOK PUBLISHED BY ALFRED A. KNOPF
Copyright 2016 by Will Schwalbe
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Schwalbe, Will, author.
Title: Books for living / by Will Schwalbe.
Description: New York : Alfred A. Knopf, 2016.
Identifiers: LCCN 2016026088 (print) | LCCN 2016050433 (ebook) | ISBN 9780385353540 (Hardback) | ISBN 9780385353557 (ebook)
Subjects: LCSH: Schwalbe, WillBooks and reading. | Books and readingPsychological aspects. | Books and readingUnited States. |
BISAC: BIOGRAPHY & AUTOBIOGRAPHY / Personal Memoirs. | FAMILY & RELATIONSHIPS / Death, Grief, Bereavement. | LITERARY CRITICISM / Books & Reading.
Classification: LCC Z1003.2.S39 2016 (print) | LCC Z1003.2 (ebook) | DCC 028/.9dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2016026088
Ebook ISBN9780385353557
Cover design by Carol Devine Carson and Chip Kidd
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Contents
The Importance of Living
Slowing Down
Stuart Little
Searching
The Girl on the Train
Trusting
The Odyssey
Embracing Mediocrity
What I Talk About When I Talk About Running
Napping
Giovannis Room
Connecting
David Copperfield
Remembering
Wonder
Choosing Kindness
Lateral Thinking
Solving Problems
Gift from the Sea
Recharging
The Taste of Country Cooking
Nourishing
Bartleby, the Scrivener
Quitting
The Gifts of the Body
Losing
The Little Prince
Finding Friends
1984
Disconnecting
Epitaph of a Small Winner
Overcoming Boredom
Zen in the Art of Archery
Mastering the Art of Reading
Song of Solomon
Admiring Greatness
A Little Life
Hugging
Bird by Bird
Feeling Sensitive
Rebecca
Betraying
Reading Lolita in Tehran
Choosing Your Life
More More More, Said the Baby
Staying Satisfied
A Journey Around My Room
Traveling
Death Be Not Proud
Praying
What the Living Do
Living
For David Cheng
And for Andy Brimmer and Tom Molner
A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies, said Jojen. The man who never reads lives only one.
GEORGE R. R. MARTIN , A Dance with Dragons
Introduction
FROM TIME TO TIME I have a terrifying dream. I call it the Readers Nightmare.
Im in a busy airport, and theyve announced my flight. There is an epic walk to the gate, and I know I have only a few minutes before they will close the door to the jetway and my plane will leave without me. Suddenly, I realize that I dont have a book to read on the flight. Not one single book. I spin around, my eyes searching frantically for a bookstore. I see none. I run through the airport, past the duty-free counters selling liquor and perfume, past the luggage stores and fashion boutiques, past the place that offers neck massage. Still, I cant find an airport bookstore. Now, over the loudspeakers, comes the final call for my flight. Flight ninety-seven to Perth is ready for departure. All passengers must be on board at this time. They even call me by name. Panic sets in as I realize that I am almost certainly going to miss my flight. But the idea of hours on a plane without a book? Intolerable. So I run and run, searching for that bookstoreor at least a newsstand with a rack of paperbacks. I cant find a single book anywhere in the airport. I start to scream.
Then I wake up.
I dont have this dream about food or television or movies or music. My unconscious is largely untroubled by the idea of spending hours in a metal tube hurtling through the sky without something to eat or a program to watch or tunes in my ears. Its the thought of being bookless for hours that jolts me awake in a cold sweat.
Throughout my life Ive looked to books for all sorts of reasons: to comfort me, to amuse me, to distract me, and to educate me. But just because you know that you can find anything you need in a book doesnt mean you can easily find your way to the right book at the right time, the one that tells you what you need to know or feel when you need to know or feel it.
A few years ago, I wrote a book about the books I read with my mother when she was dying of pancreatic cancer. During this time we read casually, promiscuously, and whimsically, allowing one book to lead us to the next. We read books we were given and books that had sat on our shelves for decades, waiting to be noticed; books we had stumbled across, and books we had chosen to reread simply because we felt like it. Were we looking for anything in particular? Usually not. At times, the books gave us something to talk about when we wanted to talk about anything rather than her illness. But they also gave us a way to talk about subjects that were too painful to address directly. They helped guide and prompt our conversations, so that I could learn as much as I could from my mother while she was still here to teach me.
At other times throughout my life, though, Ive felt a very specific need and have searched for a book to answer it. It hasnt always been easy to find the right book. Sure, when that burning need was to learn how to make a pineapple upside-down cake, I turned to The Cake Bible. Or when it was a need to find a place to eat in Chicago, the Zagat guide. Or when I wanted to self-diagnose that angry rash, to the Mayo Clinic Family Health Book. More and more, when I need this kind of information, my first line of attack isnt a book at allits the Internet, or social media, where I quiz the ubiquitous hive mind to find, say, good Malaysian food near Union Square.
There are, however, questions that the Internet and the hive mind are spectacularly unable to answer to my satisfaction. These are the big ones, the ones that writers have been tackling for thousands of years: the problem of pain, meaning, purpose, happiness. Questions about how to live your life. Yes, the Internet tries to helpinasmuch as any inanimate thing can be said to try to do anything. There are digital video channels devoted to streaming inspirational speeches from conferences in which people package insight into brief uplifting lecturesmany with a compelling hook and some memorable stories. But the best of these are often simply digests ofor advertisements fora book that the presenter has written or is currently working on. Authors have always given lectures: theres nothing new in that. And readers, after hearing such speeches, have craved the books that go with them, so that they could explore the topics in greater depth and engage with them more fullyworking through the arguments at their own pace, skipping, savoring, and pondering.