To my children, India and Ahsiah.
As youve grown, Ive grown.
As Ive grown, youve grown.
Weve grown into the closest of spiritual friends.
Thanks for thinking Im a cool parent.
music every time I came over.
from my own.
and grace come from.
has been ours.
All said and done, I bow to you.
chocolate-covered strawberries every holiday.
I miss them. And havent had the interest yet to
try anyone elses.
Ive sent love to you daily. Confident youve received it,
sent your love back.
greatest teachers.
saying peace Im out during the toughest times.
You and Mother are alchemists.
And to you.
and in future moments to come.
She remembered who she was, and the game changed.
How do you thrive in a world that does not honor who and what you areat the most real level? And how is it okay that we have come to this?
In a world that is ever evolving, expanding, and creating newer and more advanced versions of just about everything, we are still unfulfilled as a species. We are still longing. We are still warring. We are still not at peace. And we are still searching for the meaning of life, for the key to a better life, and for higher purpose.
Until we live from a place of connection to who and what we areand what all things around us arewe are living out of harmony and beneath our inherent higher potential. A world living beneath its potential is what we have allowed planet Earth to become, hence, why we see so much chaos, imbalance, and dis-ease. The good news is, there is another way of being in the world. There is a better way to exist, rise, move beyond, and take our power back.
There is a deeper part of each of us beyond our race, ethnicity, gender, class, and appearancea vital part. This is our vibration: a whole-body energy, always vibrating in response to the communicative connections between the mind, body, spirit, and all things. No matter where youre from, what your social class, or the color of your skin, vibration is vibration. We all feel it. And were all affected by it in the same way. Its a universal thing. Everybody feels the effect of vibrations, and everyone is vibration.
Theres a pathway of higher potential and power that, when honored, transforms your realityand you. When it becomes the way you relate to all things in life, you are empowered. So instead of living a life of inducing, or being continually affected by, stress and negativity, I invite you to enter a life that reduces, overcomes, and transcends it.
This book is here to encourage and support you while challenging you to expand your way of thinking, living, and being. In essence, its a sacred disruption, to the programming and consciousness you may have been living life from, up to now, retrospectively-speaking.
If you are outgrowing who youve been, you are right on schedule.
Keep evolving.
MY STORY
Today, I no longer live in the consciousness that I used to; one where I identified as a victim who is stuck, powerless, and purposeless. The process I share in this book led to the reconfiguration of my entire life, my physical health, even reconfiguring my appearance.
As I reflect on my journey and the experiences Ive had with trauma, despair, domestic violence, emotional pain, heartbreak, a limited mindset, toxic relationships, and the sticky places Ive been in and out of, I send myself love, not judgment. I do so because, at the time of those experiences, I didnt know about vibration. It was there all along, as it is in us all, but I wasnt at a place where I could yet recognize it within myself. I was living and experiencing life through a lower vibration and a limited mindset. And as with vibrations, came the life experiences to match.
When I was a young girl, I lived in the heart of South Central Los Angeless war zone neighborhoodSouth Central as we called it. In our community, gang life, liquor stores, hustlers, broken dreams, flashy street styles, and beautiful people with unrealized higher potential existed on every street corner and stared back at you in passing. On a vibrational level, much was low, from the food quality to the education quality to the lack of wellness and self-development resources. The culture of lack within inner cities such as where I grew up has a direct adverse effect on the cultural tone and overall quality of life for masses of people and their personal and shared experiences. South Central Los Angeles in the 1980s and 1990s was a new kind of struggle and negative vortex for pretty much everyone there. And, so much was contributing to it. It was a time when crime was at an all-time high. A world where we were fed low vibrations, masked as the norm, and where the culture was, as I came to realize, being underserved vibrationally. And as with most urban communities still, it was common for us youth growing up in that environment to create peer bonds through our pain. We were all seeking affirmation and validation of some kind from one another.
I am grateful, through it all, that I had an advocate. I spent most of my childhood with my father, a man who was many things: an entrepreneur full of dreams, a transplant from New Mexico, and a practicing Buddhist, here and there. My fathers ability to keep a positive mindset and his pursuit of happiness while in the midst of such an environment as South Central had a deep foundational impact on me. No matter what went on in the war zone neighborhood surrounding us, my father always created good vibrations and a positive atmosphere in our home. He had a way of energetically turning our home into a sanctuary and a safe haven.
My strongest memories about our home environment are of dancing in front of the television to Soul Train on beautiful Saturday afternoons, hearing lots of 70s and 80s soul records playing, laughing, the burning of incense, and feeling pure love. He knew how to turn up the vibes in this way and shift our atmosphere into something higher, lighter, and better for the soul. And sure enough, to this day, dancing around at home, music, laughter, incense, and love are some of the essential go-to medicines for my soul. Powerfully, they bring me back to myself, every time.
My father did the best he could with what we had to work with. Using his Buddhist mindset and his joy for life, he taught me the skills for navigating our surroundings, and its potential traps. With a deep inner peace, a compassionate mindset, and a passion for progress, he instilled in me how to rise above our environment and the ability to see our situation and time there as temporary. Yet in spite of his most necessary, intentional, and urgent efforts to shelter me, including eventually moving out of South Central, I was, on many levels, still affected by the negative elements around us. The various effects felt close to unavoidable.
What I didnt yet know was how to respond to high and low vibrations in my environment. At times, Id find myself swaying, adapting, and conforming to both energies. Many of us feel this tension. We are all empathic to some degree, and not knowing how to listen to our inner power when outside forces are strong creates imbalance and strains our progress.