Endorsements
This is a quiet memoir, more friendship than history, more companionship than autobiography. Sarah is vulnerable with her story, showing beauty to be the heroine and truth, the bulwark. We need more stories like this in the world, more humans willing to carry their readers with them on their own journey through the dark nights we all live and sometimes love and will someday leave.
Lore Ferguson Wilbert , author of Handle with Care: How Jesus Redeems the Power of Touch in Life and Ministry
From inside the darkness, Sarah Clarkson writes of a light that shines. She pulls the curtain back on her struggle with a particular kind of mental illness, offering not simply a theology of suffering and hope but a portrait of Gods grace in the midst of our brokenness. Beautiful in its prose and in the love it reveals, this book is a balm to a world weary of evil.
Glenn Packiam , associate senior pastor, New Life Church; author of Blessed Broken Given
I read Sarah Clarksons book through grateful tears. When we are weighed down by painful questions, it is stories we need most, not answers. Sarah bravely and generously shares her own particular story in a book that is filled to the brim with truth, goodness, and beauty. Sarah has a gift for making abstract ideas real and tangible. I didnt read about hope in these pages. Instead, I was offered it.
Christie Purifoy , author of Placemaker and Roots and Sky
Sarah Clarkson has risked a great deal in writing this book. She has loved her reader enough to tell the unvarnished, complicated truth about a tormented life. In exploring her dark battles with OCD, she lays down her life so that others might live. The space she creates here is so intimate, so honest, that I found myself barely breathing as I read. The power of pure authenticity sits in these pages, and God met me in that bareness. Clarkson does not offer a shallow, escapist treatise on beauty but a raw glimpse into the cosmic battle between goodness and evilthrough the lens of a single trembling mortal soul, learning to hope and believe while living dead center in the war zone.
Rebecca K. Reynolds , author of Courage, Dear Heart
Few of us can return from the edge of the abyss in our own selves; fewer still are those who are able to recount at all what we have seen there. But rarer still is the one who can retell it truthfully while casting the shadows there into light. Sarah Clarkson has written that tale with courage, grace, and defiant hope. If you have ever needed to hear why beauty heals the brokenhearted, here is the telling. This is the book I have been waiting for my whole life. It may be for you too.
Lancia E. Smith , founder and executive director of the Cultivating Project
This Beautiful Truth is not only a beautifully written book; it is also an incredibly brave bookbrave in its determination to stare down the darkness and bear witness to the light that tells a truer story, and brave also in its raw vulnerability. By chronicling her harrowing private battle with mental illness and its attendant feelings of guilt, shame, confusion, and doubt, Sarah Clarkson has cracked open her heart on paper so that others with broken hearts might find echoes of their own pain and know they are not alone.
Jennifer Trafton , author of Henry and the Chalk Dragon and The Rise and Fall of Mount Majestic
Here is theology grounded in experience. In her beautiful and fluent prose, Sarah weaves a message of hope amidst brokenness that lifts our horizons. This book will open your eyes to beauty in myriad ways that are both breathtaking and mysterious in their power to heal.
Rev . Dr . Liz Hoare , director of welfare, pastoral care, and spirituality at Wycliffe Hall, Oxford
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2021 by Sarah Clarkson
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Dedication
For Thomas,
my eucatastrophe.
Contents
Cover
Endorsements
Half Title Page
Title Page
Copyright Page
Dedication
Foreword by Michael Lloyd
Beautiful or Broken: The Rival Stories of the World
Part One: The Truth Beauty Tells
1. This Is the Broken Place: A Shattered and Beautiful Mind
2. To Wrestle Is Righteous: The Third Gallery
3. Beauty Is Truth: Love Sets Us a Feast
4. We Are Not Alone: Mapping the Night
5. Love Is at Work in Our Broken World: Expecting Good
Incarnational Interlude
Part Two: The World It Calls Us to Create
6. Refuge: Transformed by Belonging
7. Cadence and Celebration: Eternity in Time
9. Image: Listening for the Lark
10. Saint: A Hidden Life
Notes
About the Author
Back Ads
Back Cover
Foreword
I had a bit of a sense of dj vu while reading this book. Every year at Wycliffe, we hold a creative writing competition, named after Frederick Buechner and funded by the Frederick Buechner Center. And every year that Sarah was a student at Wycliffe, one entry would jump out at me as of an outstandingly impressive quality and depth.
I had the same experience when marking academic papers. We have a policy of double-blind marking at Oxford, which is meant to ensure that the markers never know whose script they are marking. The sheer quality of writing that confronted the marker of Sarahs papers made that well nigh impossible!
The same quality of writing and depth of feeling pulsate from the pages of this book. It is a beautifully written book about the power (and ultimate source and goal) of beauty. There are few more importantor urgenttopics. The church has rightly proclaimed God as Lovethe understanding of God as Trinity has enabled and compelled it to see the giving and receiving of love as essential to Gods very being. The church has rightly proclaimed Christ as the Truththe one whose utter freedom from the distorting effects of self-promotion enables him to see things as they truly are and, indeed, enables all things to be what they are. (All self-promotion warps both the self and all those with whom the self comes into contact, squeezing them out of their proper shape; that which is free from all self-promotion does the opposite.)