Robert K. Dubiel - Body Signals: Healing through Physical Intuition

1995 Robert K. Dubiel
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third printing 2000

Printed in the United States of America.

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Many thanks for this book are due: To Fassil and Pam at Nyala Publishing for their fine publishing support and design work; to Guy Spiro and staff of The Monthly Aspectarian magazine, who included several chapters of Body Signals in seminal form; to Mary Louise Stefanic, Elyse Ebright, Jay Budai and Judy Galford, for editorial, design and photo support; to Alex Poroshin for pushing me to write my ideas down on paper; and last, but certainly not least, to my Spirit Guides, for their continuing inspiration!

When I was growing up, spirituality meant religion, and religion for mewas the antithesis of the flesh. I was raised Catholic from the age of seven, Baptist before that. My father taught me many rituals of denying the flesh through prayer and fasting. It seemed as though whenever I was having too much fun on my own, he would announce, Lets say the rosary. That meant a solid hour of prayer on my knees. I learned to accept the suffering of the Catholic saints as holy and spiritual. One of my favorite prayers during my childhood was one to the Blessed Virgin Mary that asked for deliverance from this vale of tears called earth. Suffering and denial of earthly pleasures were what physical life was all about, if one wanted to be holy.

I came into my adolescence during the cultural revolution of the 1960s, but spent the years 1963-1970 in the sheltered environment of a Catholic seminary. By 1968, the year of Humane Vitae, the Popes message against birth control, I had fervently rejected a fundamentalist view of the Bible and of Christianity Instead, I favored simple rituals such as the early Christians had practiced to attune themselves to the Holy Spirit in unconditional love.

Soon afterwards, reaction to all spirituality set in. I turned my back on all organized religion and embraced the pleasures of the flesh with a vengeancenot without guilt, of course. I doubted the existence of an organizing principle called God, focusing my idealism on social and political concerns, and trying to put the religious asceticism of my upbringing behind me.

At this time I considered myself a rational agnostic, using my conscious mind to make sense of the world. Aware of currents of mysticism sweeping the world, I did not identify with any particular brand. Occasionally I would be shown that a Higher Power exists, through synchronicities, epiphanies and rescues. Gradually, unconsciously, I opened my mind to the possibility of Extra Sensory Perception (ESP).

ESP can be one of the first glimmers of opening to the spiritual self. I had often had psychic experiences in times of crisis or stress as I was growing up, such as exams at school; I did not think much about my abilities at other times. I had neither a rational framework nor a support system where I could integrate my psychic abilities into daily life.

When I was twenty-three, I had the first of two hernia operations. During the surgery, I was quite surprised to find myself floating near the ceiling, looking down at my body on the operating table! This was very interestingto be removed from my body with no loss of conscious awareness, watching the doctors gathered around the operating table. I seemed to be pure light, but I felt that I could change form at will. I made tentative attempts at creating a human light body, elongating my legs and arms. At some point I decided to float away to explore other parts of the hospital while the surgery continued. For the moment, I was glad to be free of my body. I remember thinking, That body on the table is not me. My consciousness is here in this form of light.

While floating at the ceiling I continued examining the non-physical body that my consciousness was inhabiting. Essentially, I seemed to be made up of interlocking strands of light. It was easy to project myself by directing my attention to a specific spot in the room. I remember wondering whether I could move through walls, and was just on the verge of attempting it when my attention was captured by a particularly good joke from one of the doctors. (Since this was my first surgery, I was surprised that the surgeons entertained each other with jokes while workingI have since found out that this is actually quite commonit helps them relax.) As the jokes became funnier and funnier, I drew closer and closer to the operating table, to hear better. Finally, after a really hilarious story, I slid back into my body and started laughing. Tell that one again, I said, it was really funny! The doctors were aghast; one yelled, Give him more gas! This knocked me out for awhile, until I came back into my body later in the surgery and felt the painI then required another shot.

During my convalescence, when I had time to reflect on my out-of-body experience, I realized that I no longer felt identified with my physical body. I knew I was really Light energy, for I had been outside my body with no loss of consciousness. One of the surgeons remarked that the hernia had been horrendous. I inferred that I could have easily died because of it and began to consider why this had not happened, why death had spared me. Intuitively, the inner conviction arose that I was here on earth to help people develop their ESP. This conviction took hold of me and propelled me to search for a system that would enable me to develop my own psychic skills, so that I could teach others to do the same.

During my search I remembered my common trance state during school exams when I would intuitively read the mind of the teacher and know exactly what kind of answer he or she wanted. At the time I was sure that everyone had this type of intuition and wondered why they didnt use it. My attempts to discuss intuitive exam-taking with my classmates provoked only raised eyebrows, so I had learned to keep my intuition to myself and shut it off from my everyday life. Now, determined to re-integrate it, I first considered witchcraft, but rejected it as too controlling of others. I now understand that I was tuning into other lifetimes in which Id worked with the negative side of Magic. I decided that my purpose in this lifetime was to free people, not enslave them, and so I left magic behind until I could have more trust in the purity of my motives.

About six months after my near-death experience, my psychic education began. A friend pointed out a newspaper article which reported that a group called The Inner Peace Movement was in town to lecture on and provide demonstrations of ESP. In the interview the lecturer gave examples of the unconscious use of psychic sensitivity, such as picking up on other peoples thoughts when shopping in the supermarket. As a result one walked out of the market with many more purchases than intended. This had happened to me many timesI was intrigued. However, there was a small fee for the class, which made me skeptical about the motives of the presenters. The thought came to me that they were just out for our money. I had opened my mouth to argue this point with my friend, when a voice boomed inside my head, Say youll go to the lecture! This was not my usual thinking voice; it spoke with such authority that I blurted out to my friend, Lets go Friday! My life has not been the same since.