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I grieved for two days once I surrendered to the truth that I am Type 1.
When I read the description of Enneagram Type 1s, it was as if I had landed in the deepest pit of my stomach for the first timesomething Id always floated slightly above without knowing it. This knowledge didnt hurt, didnt shimmer, didnt part the clouds, or turn on the lightsbut somehow it felt like I was seeing wholly for the first time. I was afraid of my brokenness.
Maybe the whispers in the dark were true. Do you know the ones? The ones of the accuser, who points out every flaw, every mistake, every error. The Enneagram named this for me: the inner critic. And as I read the description of the inner critic, tears poured down my cheeks. Not everyone has this? Others arent constantly berated? Told to sit straighter, do better, make wiser choices? To remain always above reproof, with a bar that is constantly being raisedperfection continually out of reach? If this voice sounds familiar to you, then you may also be Type 1. But my beautiful, beloved friend, the wonderful news is that your journey is just beginning.
The voice of the Holy Spirit is louder than the voice of the inner critic. He turned on the light in the room the Enneagram revealed. I reflexively covered my eyes, afraid of the festering evil that must live in the center of my being. But when I gained the courage to peek past my fingers, I saw an empty space, freshly cleaned and tidied. I remembered the truth: my life is hidden with Christ. When God looks at me, by some rich, unfathomable grace, He sees the holiness of His Son, His beloved. And He invites me to fill this room with love and light.
The room can still echo with my fears. My motivations to be right, do right, and remain above reproach: they still anxiously check in to make sure nothing is out of place. I still get those telltale knots in my shoulders that reveal Im holding myself together and against standards that are way too high. But with the vocabulary given to me by the Enneagram, with the new eyes through which I now see, I only need to be reminded of truth and grace. I dont have to be enough. I can be perfectly flawed and beautifully loved. I can give grace freely because of the grace that has been given me. I can breathe deeply and let go. I can belly laugh. I can be a voice of peace and serenity for others.
The Holy Spirit could have brought me here without the Enneagram, but how much longer would it have been? How much more would I have lost to my fears, believing I was alone in my flaws? Im glad He didnt waste that time. Im glad He used the Enneagram as a tool for growth. And I hope youll allow the Lord to wield this tool in your life as well. There is nothing to lose.
And what will you gain? Ill let you discover that for yourself in the pages to come. Youre in for a beautiful journey, with a good Father who gives only the best gifts.
Kyra Hinton , Enneagram-Inspired Fine Artist, www.kyrahinton.com
Im so glad youre here! As an Enneagram teacher and coach, I have seen so many lives changed by the Enneagram. This is a perfect place for you to start your own journey of growth. Ill explain how this interactive book works, but first Id like to share a little of my story.
Before I learned about the Enneagram, I often unknowingly committed assumicide, which is my word for damaging a relationship by assuming I know someones thoughts, feelings, and motivations. I incorrectly surmise why someone is behaving a particular way and respond (sometimes with disastrous results) without asking clarifying questions to confirm my assumptions or to find out what actually is going on. Ive made many wrong and hurtful assumptions about people I dearly love, as well as destructive presumptions about myself.
When my husband, Jeff, and I were in the early years of our marriage, it was a difficult season in our relationship. For the life of me, I couldnt figure out Jeff, or myself. I had been a Christian since I was young and desired to live like Christ, but I kept running into the same stumbling blocks over and over again. I was constantly frustrated, and I longed to understand my hearts motivesWhy do I do what I do? I figured understanding that might help jolt me out of my rut, but I didnt know where to start.
Then I learned about the insightful tool of the Enneagram, and it was exactly what I needed.
This personality typology (ennea for nine; gram for diagram) goes beyond what we do (our behaviors) and gets at why we do what we do (our hearts motives). And though there are just nine basic personality Types, each Type has multiple layers, allowing for numerous variations of any given personality Type.
The purpose of the Enneagram is to awaken self-awareness and provide hope for growth. Once we learn why each Type thinks, feels, and acts in specific ways, we can look at ourselves with new understanding. Then we can depend on God in new ways to reshape us. The Enneagram makes us aware of when our hearts motives are good and we are on the best path for our personality Type, and when our heart is struggling and veering off course. The Enneagram is an insightful tool, but Gods truth is what sets us free and brings transformation.
When I first learned about the Enneagram, I resonated with the Type 9and had a good laugh when I discovered that 9s know themselves the least! But I finally had wisdom that cleared away the fog and illuminated my inner world. I kept thinking,