J. F. Bolles - I Died?: The Personal Testimony of a Survivor

I Died?

J.F. Bolles

To Be Determined by J. F. Bolles

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Dedication

To Dave

Chapter 1

My Story Begins

M y story begins on a day in July when I started texting with my now husband, Dave. I noticed him a year earlier, but he was married and to me that was off limits. I found out he was now divorced so I sent him a text telling him I was interested in getting to know him better. We texted back and forth for a couple of weeks then I heard nothing else from him.

I put all my concentration into my work by going in early or working for whoever called off. I spent my nights praying that whatever the Lord had in store for me I was willing to accept, even if that meant being alone. The Lord had other plans for me.

In August, Dave called me and said he would very much like to get to know me better, so I started going to his house to visit and spend time together. Soon it was apparent we were falling in love. He told me not to be surprised if he one day he proposed.

October came and together we started planning the Christmas holiday for our children and grandchildren. We shopped together and had everything bought, which is a good thing because honestly I do not remember much, just what Dave has since shared with me.

As Thanksgiving approached, I was working long hours and then driving to see him after work. The Tuesday before, I just was not feeling well, so I decided I had better go to the hospital. As I got up to drive myself to the hospital, I felt very dizzy, which is something I have felt only a few times in my life, so I knew something just was not right. I called the EMS Squad. As soon as they arrived, they c-packed me.

I had been diagnosed with C.O.P.D. years earlier because I was a smoker for many years. I had recently quit cold turkey. When I arrived at the hospital, they gave me medicine and another breathing treatment. They said since I was not feeling myself they would keep me just overnight for observation.

Dave had arrived earlier, and I sent him to do a few errands: feed my cat, get me clothes, the usual things for an overnight stay at the hospital.

The last thing I remember was looking at the sandwich that they gave me in the emergency room.

Chapter 2

I Dont Recall

M y next recollection was very terrifying for me, because I do not like being in closed-in spaces. It is really hard to remember this part, because of my fear of being closed in small places.

I was in this yellow tube up to my neck in water. I do not swim, but in the distance, I could see a Pirate. Why a Pirate, I really do not know. I was never afraid of them as a child or anything, but I saw him. He saw me.

He was chatting with a very attractive blonde woman with very large breasts. He suddenly knocked her down and I was so scared, because as soon as he did this, I was in his presence.

He kept asking, Are you scared? Are you afraid of me?

I was petrified. I honestly have never felt much fear until that moment, but as fast as I was there with him, the scene changed again. I suddenly felt at peace. I saw a young man; clean cut, very attractive. Just as before with the Pirate, I noticed him and he noticed me.

I was there beside him. He told me he had been shot down over Japan in his plane when he was very young. The peace I felt was so calming and we talked for a very long time it seemed. He kept telling me I could stay there with him if I wanted because he was lonely. We could talk and be together, but I kept telling him I had to get back and make sure Dave had gotten all the things done I needed him to do.

Chapter 3

Awakening

M y next memory is of Dave telling me, Jill, if you could cough or just stay awake long enough, they would take the tube out.

I was confused I had no idea what he was talking about a tube. I was placed on a ventilator and I had been in a coma for 9 days. Dave had called my family. The doctors did not think I was going to wake up long enough to be taken off the ventilator. My family had been making arrangements to come and say goodbye to me.

I was so confused and upset. Then Dave told me that my sons grandma on their fathers side had passed away on Sunday. I was even more confused. Had she accepted death so I could stay here ?

I did not know yet that I had died and come back. It was not until later that I found out. I just kept telling Dave, Please dont let them put me back in the tube, I dont like it. He kept telling me that I was not in a tube. I had been in ICU the whole time. He did not know what I had experienced.

I did not want to be there in the hospital. He was by my side the entire time whenever he was not at work, I found out later. My best friend Rob, and my boss had visited me. My pastor and his wife had also visited. I do not remember any of them coming to see me. I was so confused by everything that was going on. I could not communicate my thoughts, my fears, and my confusion.

Chapter 4

I Prayed

I kept praying, Dear Lord what is going here? What happened in the days that followed was so confusing. I did not understand why I was in the hospital or what had happened to me. Dave kept telling me that I had stopped breathing. They had to put me on a ventilator and they had kept me in a coma until they thought I could breathe on my own. If I could breathe on my own.

I was when I finally came around enough that some things were making sense. I could not move and I could not talk very well. I could not move my hands, my feet, nothing! All I knew was that I was just sick.

One night after everyone had left, I was alone with my thoughts and my nurse she came to me. She whispered in my ear, You are a God-fearing woman arent you?

I nodded that I was I tried to tell her that my relationship with God was all that had gotten me through this.