Cynthia Hand - Unearthly

In the beginning, theres a boy standing in the trees. Hes around my age, in that space between child and man, maybe all of seventeen years old. Im not sure how I know this. I can only see the back of his head, his dark hair curling damply against his neck. I feel the dry heat of the sun, so intense, drawing the life from everything.

Theres a strange orange light filling the eastern sky. Theres the heavy smell of smoke. For a moment Im filled with such a smothering grief that its hard to breathe.

I dont know why. I take a step toward the boy, open my mouth to call his name, only I dont know it. The ground crunches under my feet. He hears me. He starts to turn.

One more second and I will see his face.

Thats when the vision leaves me. I blink, and its gone.

The first time, November 6 to be exact, I wake up at two a.m. with a tingling in my head like tiny fireflies dancing behind my eyes. I smell smoke. I get up and wander from room to room to make sure no part of the house is on fire. Everythings fine, everybody sleeping, tranquil. Its more of a campfire smoke, anyway, sharp and woodsy. I chalk it up to the usual weirdness that is my life. I try, but cant get back to sleep. So I go downstairs. And Im drinking a glass of water at the kitchen sink, when, with no other warning, Im in the middle of the burning forest. Its not like a dream. Its like Im physically there. I dont stay long, maybe all of thirty seconds, and then Im back in the kitchen, standing in a puddle of water because the glass has fallen from my hand.

Right away I run to wake Mom. I sit at the foot of her bed and try not to hyperventilate as I go over every detail of the vision I can remember. Its so little, really, just the fire, the boy.

Too much at once would be overwhelming, she says. Thats why it will come to you this way, in pieces.

Is that how it was when you received your purpose?

Thats how it is for most of us, she says, neatly dodging my question.

She wont tell me about her purpose. Its one of those off-limits topics. This bugs me, because were close, weve always been close, but theres this big part of her that she refuses to share.

Tell me about the trees in your vision, she says. What did they look like?

Pine, I think. Needles, not leaves.

She nods thoughtfully, like this is an important clue. But me, Im not thinking about the trees. Im thinking about the boy.

I wish I could have seen his face.

You will.

I wonder if Im supposed to protect him.

I like the idea of being his rescuer. All angel-bloods have purposes of different types some are messengers, some witnesses, some meant to comfort, some just doing things that cause other things to happen but guardian has a nice ring to it. It feels particularly angelic.

I cant believe youre old enough to have your purpose, Mom says with a sigh.

Makes me feel old.

You are old.

She cant argue with that, being that shes over a hundred and all, even though she doesnt look a day over forty. I, on the other hand, feel exactly like what I am: a clueless (if not exactly ordinary) sixteen-year-old who still has school in the morning.

At the moment I dont feel like theres any angel blood in me. I look at my beautiful, vibrant mother, and I know that whatever her purpose was, she must have faced it with courage and humor and skill.

Do you think., I say after a minute, and its tough to get the question out because I dont want her to think Im a total coward. Do you think its possible for me to be killed by fire?

Clara.

Seriously.

Why would you say that?

Its just that when I was standing there behind him, I felt so sad. I dont know why.

Moms arms come around me, pull me close so I can hear the strong, steady beating of her heart.

Maybe the reason Im so sad is that Im going to die, I whisper.

Her arms tighten.

Its rare, she says quietly.

But it does happen.

Well figure it out together. She hugs me closer and smoothes the hair away from my face the way she used to when I had nightmares as a kid.

Right now you should rest.

Ive never felt more awake in my life, but I stretch out on her bed and let her pull the covers over us. She puts her arm around me. Shes warm, radiating heat like shes been standing in sunshine, even in the middle of the night. I inhale her smell: rosewater and vanilla, an old ladys perfume. It always makes me feel safe.

When I close my eyes, I can still see the boy. Standing there waiting. For me. Which seems more important than the sadness or the possibility of dying some gruesome fiery death. Hes waiting for me.

I wake to the sound of rain and a soft gray light seeping through the blinds. I find Mom standing at the kitchen stove scraping scrambled eggs into a serving bowl, already dressed and ready for work like any other day, her long, auburn hair still wet from the shower. Shes humming to herself. She seems happy.

Morning, I announce.

She turns, puts down the spatula, and crosses the linoleum to give me a quick hug.

Her smile is proud, like that time I won the district spelling bee in third grade: proud, but like she never expected anything less.

How are you doing this morning? Hanging in there?

Yeah, Im fine.

Whats going on? my brother, Jeffrey, says from the doorway.

We turn to look at him. Hes leaning against the doorjamb, still rumpled with sleep and smelly and grumpy as usual. Hes never been what you might call a morning person. He stares at us. A flicker of fear crosses his face, like hes bracing for horrible news, like someone we know has died.

Your sister has received her purpose. Mom smiles again, but its less jubilant than before. A cautious smile.

He looks me up and down like hell be able to find evidence of the divine somewhere on my body. You had a vision?

Yeah. About a forest fire. I shut my eyes and see it all again: the hillside crowded with pine trees, the orange sky, the smoke rolling past. And a boy.

How do you know it wasnt just a dream?

Because I wasnt asleep.

So what does it mean? he asks. All this angel-related information is new to him.

Hes still in that time when the supernatural stuff can be exciting and cool. I envy him that.

I dont know, I tell him. Thats what Ive got to find out.

I have the vision again two days later. Im in the middle of jogging laps around the outside edge of the Mountain View High School gymnasium, and suddenly it hits me, just like that. The world as I know it California, Mountain View, the gym promptly vanishes. Im in the forest. I can actually taste the fire. This time I see the flames cresting the ridge.

And then I almost crash into a cheerleader.

Watch it, dorkina! she says.

I stagger to one side to let her pass. Breathing hard, I lean against the folded-up bleachers and try to get the vision back. But its like trying to return to a dream after youre fully awake. Its gone.

Crap. No ones ever called me a dorkina before. Derivative of dork. Not good.

No stopping, calls Mrs. Schwartz, the PE teacher. We want to get an accurate record of how fast you can run a mile. That means you, Clara.

She must have been a drill sergeant in another life.

If you dont make it in less than ten minutes youll have to run it again next week,

she hollers.

I start running. I try to focus on the task at hand as I swoop around the next corner, keeping my pace quick to make up some of the time Ive lost. But my mind wanders back to the vision. The shapes of the trees. The forest floor under my feet strewn with rocks and pine needles. The boy standing there with his back to me as he watches the fire approach. My suddenly so-very-rapidly-beating heart.