Susan Ee - World After

EVERYONE THINKS Im dead.

I lie with my head on my mothers lap in the open bed of a large truck. The dawn light etches the grief lines on my moms face while the rumble of the engines vibrates through my limp body. Were part of the Resistance caravan. Half a dozen military trucks, vans, and SUVs weave through dead cars away from San Francisco. On the horizon behind us, the angels aerie still smolders in flames after the Resistance strike.

Newspapers cover shop windows along the road, making a corridor of reminders of the Great Attack. I dont need to read the papers to know what they say. Everyone was plastered to the news during the early days when reporters were still reporting.

PARIS IN FLAMES, NEW YORK FLOODED, MOSCOW DESTROYED

WHO SHOT GABRIEL, THE MESSENGER OF GOD?

ANGELS TOO AGILE FOR MISSILES

NATIONAL LEADERS SCATTERED AND LOST

THE END OF DAYS

We drive by three bald people wrapped in gray sheets. Theyre taping up the stained and crumpled fliers of one of the apocalypse cults. Between the street gangs, the cults, and the Resistance, I wonder how long it will be before everyone is part of one group or another. Even the end of the world cant keep us from wanting to belong, I guess.

The cult members pause on the sidewalk to watch us pass in our crowded truck.

As a family, we must look tinyjust a scared mom, a dark-haired teenager, and a seven-year-old girl sitting in a truck bed full of armed men. At any other time, we would have been sheep in the company of wolves. But now, we have what people might call presence.

Some of the men in our caravan wear camouflage and hold rifles. Some man machine guns still aimed at the sky. Some are fresh off the streets with homemade gang tattoos made of self-inflicted burns that mark their kills.

Yet these men huddle away from us to keep a safe distance.

My mom continues to rock back and forth as she has for the last hour since we left the exploding aerie, chanting in her own version of speaking in tongues. Her voice rises and falls as if shes having a fierce argument with God. Or maybe the devil.

A tear drops off her chin and lands on my forehead, and I know her heart is breaking. Its breaking for me, her seventeen-year-old daughter, whose job was to look out for the family.

As far as she knows, Im just a lifeless body brought to her by the devil. Shell probably never be able to blot out the image of me lying limp in Raffes arms with his demon wings backlit by flames.

I wonder what shed think if someone told her that Raffe was actually an angel whos been tricked into having demon wings. Would that be any stranger than being told that Im not actually dead but just stung into a weird paralysis by a scorpion-angel monster? Shed probably think that person was as crazy as she is.

My baby sister sits at my feet seemingly frozen. Her eyes stare blankly and her back is perfectly straight despite the weaving of the truck. Its as if Paige has shut herself off.

The tough men in the truck keep stealing glances at her like little boys peeking over their blankets. She looks like a bruised, stitched-up doll from a nightmare. I hate to think about what might have happened to her to make her like this. A part of me wishes I knew more but a part of me is glad I dont.

I take a big breath. Ill have to get up sooner or later. I dont have a choice but to face the world. Im fully thawed now. I doubt if I could fight or anything, but as far as I can tell, I should be able to move.

I sit up.

I guess if Id really thought things through, I would have been prepared for the screams.

Chief among the screamers is my mother. Her muscles stiffen in sheer terror, her eyes impossibly wide.

Its okay, I say. Its all right. My words are slurred, but Im grateful I dont sound like a zombie.

It would be funny except for a sobering thought that pops into my head: We now live in a world where someone like me could be killed for being a freak.

I put my hands out in a calming gesture. I say something to try to reassure them, but it gets lost in the screams. Panic in a small area like a truck bed is contagious, apparently.

The other refugees crush against each other as they press toward the rear of the truck. Some of them look prepared to jump out of the moving vehicle.

A soldier with greasy pimples aims his rifle at me, gripping it like hes about to make his first, horrifying kill.

I totally underestimated the level of primal fear swirling around us. Theyve lost everything: their families, their security, their God.

And now, a reanimated corpse is reaching for them.

I am okay, I say slowly with as much clarity as I can. I hold the soldiers gaze, intent on convincing him theres nothing supernatural going on. Im alive.

Theres a moment when Im not sure if theyll relax or toss me out of the truck with a blaze of gunfire. I still have Raffes sword strapped to my back, mostly hidden under my jacket. That gives me some comfort, even though it obviously cant stop bullets.

Come on. I keep my voice gentle and my movements very slow. I was just knocked out. Thats all.

You were dead, says the pale soldier, who doesnt look a day older than me.

Someone bangs on the trucks roof.

We all jump, and Im lucky the soldier doesnt accidentally pull his trigger.

The rear window slides open and Dees head sticks through. Hed look stern except that its hard to take him too seriously with his red hair and little-boy freckles. Hey! Back off from the dead girl. Shes Resistance property.

Yeah, says his twin brother Dum from inside the cab. We need her for autopsies and stuff. You think girls killed by demon princes are easy to find? As usual, I cant tell the twins apart, so I randomly assign Dee for one and Dum for the other.

No killing the dead girl, says Dee. Im talking to you, Soldier. He points to the guy with the rifle and glares at him. Youd think that looking like a set of strung-out Ronald McDonalds with nicknames like Tweedledee and Tweedledum would strip them of all authority. But somehow, these guys seem to have a talent for going from joking to deadly in a heartbeat.

At least, I hope theyre joking about the autopsy.

The truck stops in a parking lot. That takes the attention off me as we all look around.

The adobe-style building in front of us is familiar. Its not my school but it is a school that Ive seen lots of times. Its Palo Altos high school, affectionately known as Paly High.

Half a dozen trucks and SUVs stop in the parking lot. The soldier still keeps an eye on me, but he lowers his rifle to a 45-degree angle.

A lot of people stare at us as the rest of the small caravan stops in the parking lot. They all saw me in the arms of the demon-winged creature that was actually Raffe, and they all thought I was dead. I feel self-conscious so I sit down on the bench beside my sister.

One of the men reaches to touch my arm. Maybe he wants to see if Im warm like the living or cold like the dead.

My sisters face changes instantly from a blank slate to a growling animal as she snaps at the man. Her razor-grafted teeth flash as she moves, emphasizing the threat.

As soon as the man backs off, she goes back to her blank expression and doll-like stance.

The man stares, looking back and forth between us for clues to questions I cant answer. Everyone in the parking lot saw what just happened, and they all stare at us too.

Welcome to the freak show.

PAIGE AND I are used to being stared at. I would just ignore it while Paige always smiled at the gawkers from her wheelchair. They almost always smiled back. Paiges charm was hard to resist.