Maybe Someday
by
Colleen Hoover
For Carol Keith McWilliams
Dear Reader,
Maybe Someday is more than just a story. Its more than just a book. Its an experience, and one that we are excited and grateful to share with you.
I had the pleasure of collaborating with musician Griffin Peterson in order to provide an original sound track to accompany this novel. Griffin and I worked closely together to bring these characters and their lyrics to life so that you will be provided with the ultimate reading experience.
It is recommended these songs be heard in the order they appear throughout the novel. Please scan the QR code below to experience the Maybe Someday sound track. This gives you access to the songs and also to bonus material, should you wish to learn more behind the collaboration and implementation of this project.
Thank you for being a part of our project. It has been incredible for us to create, and we hope it will be just as incredible for you to enjoy.
Sydney
I just punched a girl in the face. Not just any girl. My best friend. My roommate.
Well, as of five minutes ago, I guess I should call her my ex-roommate.
Her nose began bleeding almost immediately, and for a second, I felt bad for hitting her. But then I remembered what a lying, betraying whore she is, and it made me want to punch her again. I would have if Hunter hadnt prevented it by stepping between us.
So instead, I punched him. I didnt do any damage to him, unfortunately. Not like the damage Id done to my hand.
Punching someone hurts a lot worse than I imagined it would. Not that I spend an excessive amount of time imagining how it would feel to punch people. Although I am having that urge again as I stare down at my phone at the incoming text from Ridge. Hes another one Id like to get even with. I know he technically has nothing to do with my current predicament, but he could have given me a heads-up a little sooner. Therefore, Id like to punch him, too.
Ridge: Are you OK? Do u want to come up until the rain stops?
Of course, I dont want to come up. My fist hurts enough as it is, and if I went up to Ridges apartment, it would hurt a whole lot worse after I finished with him.
I turn around and look up at his balcony. Hes leaning against his sliding-glass door; phone in hand, watching me. Its almost dark, but the lights from the courtyard illuminate his face. His dark eyes lock with mine and the way his mouth curls up into a soft, regretful smile makes it hard to remember why Im even upset with him in the first place. He runs a free hand through the hair hanging loosely over his forehead, revealing even more of the worry in his expression. Or maybe thats a look of regret. As it should be.
I decide not to reply and flip him off instead. He shakes his head and shrugs his shoulders, as if to say, I tried, and then he goes back inside his apartment and slides his door shut.
I put the phone back in my pocket before it gets wet, and I look around at the courtyard of the apartment complex where Ive lived for two whole months. When we first moved in, the hot Texas summer was swallowing up the last traces of spring, but this courtyard seemed to somehow still cling to life. Vibrant blue and purple hydrangeas lined the walkways leading up to the staircases and the fountain affixed in the center of the courtyard.
Now that summer has reached its most unattractive peak, the water in the fountain has long since evaporated. The hydrangeas are a sad, wilted reminder of the excitement I felt when Tori and I first moved in here. Looking at the courtyard now, defeated by the season, is an eerie parallel to how I feel at the moment. Defeated and sad.
Im sitting on the edge of the now empty cement fountain, my elbows propped up on the two suitcases that contain most of my belongings, waiting for a cab to pick me up. I have no idea where its going to take me, but I know Id rather be anywhere except where I am right now. Which is, well, homeless.
I could call my parents, but that would give them ammunition to start firing all the We told you sos at me.
We told you not to move so far away, Sydney.
We told you not to get serious with that guy.
We told you if you had chosen prelaw over music, we would have paid for it.
We told you to punch with your thumb on the outside of your fist.
Okay, maybe they never taught me the proper punching techniques, but if theyre so right all the damn time, they should have.
I clench my fist, then spread out my fingers, then clench it again. My hand is surprisingly sore, and Im pretty sure I should put ice on it. I feel sorry for guys. Punching sucks.
Know what else sucks? Rain. It always finds the most inappropriate time to fall, like right now, while Im homeless.
The cab finally pulls up, and I stand and grab my suitcases. I roll them behind me as the cab driver gets out and pops open the trunk. Before I even hand him the first suitcase, my heart sinks as I suddenly realize that I dont even have my purse on me.
Shit.
I look around, back to where I was sitting on the suitcases, then feel around my body as if my purse will magically appear across my shoulder. But I know exactly where my purse is. I pulled it off my shoulder and dropped it to the floor right before I punched Tori in her overpriced, Cameron Diaz nose.
I sigh. And I laugh. Of course, I left my purse. My first day of being homeless would have been way too easy if Id had a purse with me.
Im sorry, I say to the cab driver, who is now loading my second piece of luggage. I changed my mind. I dont need a cab right now.
I know theres a hotel about a half-mile from here. If I can just work up the courage to go back inside and get my purse, Ill walk there and get a room until I figure out what to do. Its not as if I can get any wetter.
The driver takes the suitcases back out of the cab, sets them on the curb in front of me, and walks back to the drivers side without ever making eye contact. He just gets into his car and drives away, as if my canceling is a relief.
Do I look that pathetic?
I take my suitcases and walk back to where I was seated before I realized I was purseless. I glance up to my apartment and wonder what would happen if I went back there to get my wallet. I sort of left things in a mess when I walked out the door. I guess Id rather be homeless in the rain than go back up there.
I take a seat on my luggage again and contemplate my situation. I could pay someone to go upstairs for me. But who? No ones outside, and whos to say Hunter or Tori would even give the person my purse?
This really sucks. I know Im going to have to end up calling one of my friends, but right now, Im too embarrassed to tell anyone how clueless Ive been for the last two years. Ive been completely blindsided.
I already hate being twenty-two, and I still have 364 more days to go.
It sucks so bad that Im . . . crying?
Great. Im crying now. Im a purseless, crying, violent, homeless girl. And as much as I dont want to admit it, I think I might also be heartbroken.
Yep. Sobbing now. Pretty sure this must be what it feels like to have your heart broken.
Its raining. Hurry up.
I glance up to see a girl hovering over me. Shes holding an umbrella over her head and looking down at me with agitation while she hops from one foot to the other, waiting for me to do something. Im getting soaked. Hurry.
Her voice is a little demanding, as if shes doing me some sort of favor and Im being ungrateful. I arch an eyebrow as I look up at her, shielding the rain from my eyes with my hand. I dont know why shes complaining about getting wet, when there isnt much clothing to