In a Perfect World
A Novel
Laura Kasischke
for Bill
with love to Jack & Lucy Abernethy
and with vast eternities of gratitude to Lisa Bankoff
But I must go back again to the Beginning of this Surprizing Time
D ANIEL D EFOE, A Journal of the Plague Year
and the branches, full of blossoms, closed over them
H ANS C HRISTIAN A NDERSEN
Contents
CHAPTER ONE
If you are READING THIS you are going to DIE!
J iselle put the diary back on the couch where she found it and went outside with the watering can. It was already eighty-five degrees, but a morning breeze was blowing out of the west, sifting fragrantly through the ravine. She breathed it in, knelt down, and peered beneath the stones that separated the garden from the lawn.
She had been married, and a stepmother, for a month.
In a bit of shade there, a tangled circle of violets was hiddenpale blue and purple. Small, tender, silky, blinking. If they had voices, she thought, they would be giggling.
Shed first noticed them a few days earlier, while raking dead vegetation out of the garden. That splash of color among the washed-out fallen leaves and other summer debris had caught her eye, and she knelt down and counted them (twenty-three, twenty-four, twenty-five) before covering them up again.
Somehow those violets had managed to stay perfectly alive through the scorching summer weather and all through the drought. The hottest, driest summer in a century. Maybe ever. They deserved special consideration, didnt they? If God wasnt going to give it to them, she would have to.
Now, every day, Jiselle took the watering can outside, and was always surprised to find those violets alive and tucked away in their shady crack.
Still, she knew they couldnt last much longereven hotter, drier weather had been predictedso that morning, after watering them, she plucked just one. She covered the others up and brought the plucked one into the house, set it in a little souvenir shot glass from Las Vegas, with some cold water, placed it on the kitchen counter, and stepped back to admire it, deciding that she liked the little feminine gesture it made in the kitchen (Mark would be home in a day, and he would appreciate such a thing, as if she were settling in, getting comfortable, starting to decorate the place as if it were her own), until she turned her back on it, headed out of the kitchen to the bedroom to make the bed, and heard it scream.
A high, piercing, horrible, girlish scream that made all the little hairs on Jiselles arms rise and a cool film of sweat break out on the back of her neck. She whipped around, heart pounding, and hurried back into the kitchen, a hand covering her own mouth, to see.
Of course the violet hadnt screamed. It rested quietly where she had placed it, drooping over the side of the shot glass. If anything, it looked more defeated than it had a few seconds beforehead bowed in acceptance over the shot glass, as if waiting patiently for the ax.
It would never have been capable of screaming.
That had been Sara, howling at the news that Britney Spears was dead.
No one had said the word epidemic yet, or the word pandemic. No one was calling it a plague.
The first outbreak had swept through a nursing home in Phoenix, Arizona, over a year ago, leaving the elderly miraculously untouched but killing seven nurses and aides. Some people fled Phoenix after thattaking their vacations early, boarding up their houses, staying in cabins in the mountains, visiting relativesbut they did not evacuate in droves. The Phoenix flu seemed contained, explainable. The new carpeting in the nursing home was blamed, and then the contaminated air ducts, in which a dead bat had been found.
It was mummified. It was ashes. The biohazard men came in their orange jumpsuits and took what was left of it away in a plastic bag.
Then, a few celebrities nowhere near Phoenix died of what seemed to be the Phoenix flua soap opera star, Shane McDermott, Gena Lee Nolan, and the daughter of an actress whod had a small role on The Sopranos years beforeand although the non-celebrity deaths werent made public, it was said that the nations florists could not keep up with the demand for flowers. FTD changed its one-day delivery service to Only two full days for most arrangements! and it was reported that people were buying antibiotics and Tamiflu in bulk off the Internet, which resulted in shortages. But only the hysterical pulled their children out of school or left the country.
When a passenger fell ill after flying in a plane in which the body of a flu victim was being transported in cargo, a law was passed requiring airline passengers to be informed when human remains were aboard their planes. But, with the war on, this was such a common occurrence that it had no noticeable effect on travel habits. Flight attendants were encouraged to time their safety instructions to serve as a distraction while baggage-handlers loaded caskets, but on that side of the plane, the passengers, who had never been interested in safety instructions anyway, watched the procedures solemnly from their seats, sometimes pressing their faces to the windows for a closer look.
No one had, to Jiselles knowledge, ever demanded to be booked on another flight because of a corpse in cargo, and, in general, there was very little talk, public or private, about the Phoenix flu, although there was endless excited talk about what a strange year it had been.
Full of curious weather, meteor showers, and the discovery in rain forests and oceans of species thought to be extinct, it was the kind of year you might associate with an apocalypse if you were prone to making those kinds of associations, which more and more people seemed to be.
Sunspots. Earthquakes. Hurricanes. Tornadoes.
More than a year before, in what would come to seem to her to have been another life, lived by a different womanJiselle had been in a bar in a hotel in Atlanta, watching a Weather Channel meteorologist (bleached blonde, hot-pink suit) on the television. The meteorologist held a spinning Earth in the palm of her hand and predicted more crazy weather everywhere.
All across the globe!
It was March, which had come in that year, they were saying, like a lion being chased by a lamb.
When Captain Dorn spoke to her, Jiselle turned from the television to him, holding a glass of wine in her handsipping from it, stem dangling between her fingers, the way the blond meteorologist held the world.
Can I buy you another glass of wine? the pilot asked.
Jiselle was in her uniformthe pressed blue pencil skirt, silk hose, light-blue blouseand the little brass wings were spread over her heart, as if her heart might have the gift of flight. She was wearing, too, a pair of beautiful shoes shed bought weeks earlier in Madrid, at an old-fashioned shoe store in the heart of the city. A salesman with a thin black mustache and goatee had said, watching her walk across the wooden floorboards wearing them, Perfecto!
Sitting on the barstool, she had one long leg crossed over the other and was swinging the crossed leg slowly, trying to calm herself down after that terrible evening spent stuck on the runway in a driving rainstorm only to be turned back at the gate. It was nearly midnight. As Captain Dorn waited on the barstool beside her for an answer from her, one of the beautiful shoes, the one dangling from the swinging foot, slid right off her foot, and onto the floor.
In less than a second, he was on his knees below Jiselle, holding up the shoe as if considering it in the bars dim light, and then he slid it with a swift whisper back onto her foot, while a group of businessmen at a table nearby laughed and clapped, and she blushed, and Captain Dorn stood, smoothing down his pants, and gave her a courtly little bow before he sat back down.