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Abstract: Suppose I were to begin by saying that I had fallen in love with a color.
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MAGGIE NELSON | BLUETS |
BLUETS
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MAGGIE NELSON | BLUETS |
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NELSON, MAGGIE, 1973
BLUETS / MAGGIE NELSON. 1ST ED.
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BLUETS
And were it true, we do not think all philosophy
is worth one hour of pain. PASCAL, Penses
Contents
1. Suppose I were to begin by saying that I had fallen in love with a color. Suppose I were to speak this as though it were a confession; suppose I shredded my napkin as we spoke. It began slowly. An appreciation, an affinity. Then, one day, it became more serious. Then (looking into an empty teacup, its bottom stained with thin brown excrement coiled into the shape of a sea horse) it became somehow personal.
2. And so I fell in love with a colorin this case, the color blueas if falling under a spell, a spell I fought to stay under and get out from under, in turns.
3. Well, and what of it? A voluntary delusion, you might say. That each blue object could be a kind of burning bush, a secret code meant for a single agent, an X on a map too diffuse ever to be unfolded in entirety but that contains the knowable universe. How could all the shreds of blue garbage bags stuck in brambles, or the bright blue tarps flapping over every shanty and fish stand in the world, be, in essence, the fingerprints of God? I will try to explain this.
4. I admit that I may have been lonely. I know that loneliness can produce bolts of hot pain, a pain which, if it stays hot enough for long enough, can begin to simulate, or to provoketake your pickan apprehension of the divine. (This ought to arouse our suspicions.)
5. But first, let us consider a sort of case in reverse. In 1867, after a long bout of solitude, the French poet Stphane Mallarm wrote to his friend Henri Cazalis: These last months have been terrifying. My Thought has thought itself through and reached a Pure Idea. What the rest of me has suffered during that long agony, is indescribable. Mallarm described this agony as a battle that took place on Gods boney wing. I struggled with that creature of ancient and evil plumageGodwhom I fortunately defeated and threw to earth, he told Cazalis with exhausted satisfaction. Eventually Mallarm began replacing le ciel with lAzur in his poems, in an effort to rinse references to the sky of religious connotations. Fortunately, he wrote Cazalis, I am quite dead now.
6. The half-circle of blinding turquoise ocean is this loves primal scene. That this blue exists makes my life a remarkable one, just to have seen it. To have seen such beautiful things. To find oneself placed in their midst. Choiceless. I returned there yesterday and stood again upon the mountain.
7. But what kind of love is it, really? Dont fool yourself and call it sublimity. Admit that you have stood in front of a little pile of powdered ultramarine pigment in a glass cup at a museum and felt a stinging desire. But to do what? Liberate it? Purchase it? Ingest it? There is so little blue food in naturein fact blue in the wild tends to mark food to avoid (mold, poisonous berries)that culinary advisers generally recommend against blue light, blue paint, and blue plates when and where serving food. But while the color may sap appetite in the most literal sense, it feeds it in others. You might want to reach out and disturb the pile of pigment, for example, first staining your fingers with it, then staining the world. You might want to dilute it and swim in it, you might want to rouge your nipples with it, you might want to paint a virgins robe with it. But still you wouldnt be accessing the blue of it. Not exactly.
8. Do not, however, make the mistake of thinking that all desire is yearning. We love to contemplate blue, not because it advances to us, but because it draws us after it, wrote Goethe, and perhaps he is right. But I am not interested in longing to live in a world in which I already live. I dont want to yearn for blue things, and God forbid for any blueness. Above all, I want to stop missing you.
9. So please do not write to tell me about any more beautiful blue things. To be fair, this book will not tell you about any, either. It will not say, Isnt X beautiful? Such demands are murderous to beauty.
10. The most I want to do is show you the end of my index finger. Its muteness.
11. That is to say: I dont care if its colorless.
12. And please dont talk to me about things as they are being changed upon any blue guitar. What can be changed upon a blue guitar is not of interest here.
13. At a job interview at a university, three men sitting across from me at a table. On my cv it says that I am currently working on a book about the color blue. I have been saying this for years without writing a word. It is, perhaps, my way of making my life feel in progress rather than a sleeve of ash falling off a lit cigarette. One of the men asks, Why blue? People ask me this question often. I never know how to respond. We dont get to choose what or whom we love, I want to say. We just dont get to choose.
14. I have enjoyed telling people that I am writing a book about blue without actually doing it. Mostly what happens in such cases is that people give you stories or leads or gifts, and then you can play with these things instead of with words. Over the past decade I have been given blue inks, paintings, postcards, dyes, bracelets, rocks, precious stones, watercolors, pigments, paperweights, goblets, and candies. I have been introduced to a man who had one of his front teeth replaced with lapis lazuli, solely because he loved the stone, and to another who worships blue so devoutly that he refuses to eat blue food and grows only blue and white flowers in his garden, which surrounds the blue ex-cathedral in which he lives. I have met a man who is the primary grower of organic indigo in the world, and another who sings Joni Mitchells Blue in heartbreaking drag, and another with the face of a derelict whose eyes literally leaked blue, and I called this one the prince of blue, which was, in fact, his name.
15. I think of these people as my blue correspondents, whose job it is to send me blue reports from the field.
16. But you talk of all this jauntily, when really it is more like you have been mortally ill, and these correspondents send pieces of blue news as if last-ditch hopes for a cure.
17. But what goes on in you when you talk about color as if it were a cure, when you have not yet stated your disease.
18. A warm afternoon in early spring, New York City. We went to the Chelsea Hotel to fuck. Afterward, from the window of our room, I watched a blue tarp on a roof across the way flap in the wind. You slept, so it was my secret. It was a smear of the quotidian, a bright blue flake amidst all the dank providence. It was the only time I came. It was essentially our lives. It was shaking.
19. Months before this afternoon I had a dream, and in this dream an angel came and said: You must spend more time thinking about the divine, and less time imagining unbuttoning the prince of blues pants at the Chelsea Hotel
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