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David Stuart MacLean - The answer to the riddle is me: a memoir of amnesia

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In 2002, at age twenty-eight, David MacLean woke up in a foreign land with his memory wiped clean. No money. No passport. No identity. Taken to a mental hospital by the police, MacLean then started to hallucinate so severely he had to be tied down. Soon he could remember song lyrics and scenes from television shows, but not his family, his friends, or the woman he loved. All of these symptoms, it turned out, were the result of the commonly prescribed malarial medication he was taking. Upon his return to the States, he struggled to piece together the fragments of his former life in a harrowing, absurd, and unforgettable journey back to himself. A deeply felt, closely researched, and intensely personal book, The Answer to the Riddle Is Me, drawn from MacLeans award-winning This American Life essay, confronts and celebrates the dark, mysterious depths of our psyches and the myriad ways we are all unknowable, especially to ourselves.--

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First Mariner Books edition 2015

Copyright 2014 by David Stuart MacLean

All rights reserved

For information about permission to reproduce selections from this book, write to Permissions, Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company, 215 Park Avenue South, New York, New York 10003.

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The Library of Congress has cataloged the print edition as follows:

MacLean, David, date.
The answer to the riddle is me: a memoir of amnesia/David MacLean.
pages cm

ISBN 978-0-547-51927-2 (hardback)

ISBN 978-0-544-22770-5 (pbk.)

1. MacLean, David, date. 2. AmnesiacsBiography. I. Title.

RC394.A5M34 2013
616.85'2320092dc23
[B] 2013026337

e ISBN 978-0-547-51993-7
v2.0215

Excerpt from Ego Trippin (Part Two): Words and Music by David Jolicoeur, Vincent Mason, Kelvin Mercer, and Paul E. Huston. 1993 Warner-Tamerlane Publishing Corp. (BMI), Daisy Age Music (BMI), and Prinse Pawl Musick (BMI). All Rights on behalf of itself and Daisy Age Music administered by Warner-Tamerlane Publishing Corp. All Rights Reserved.

Excerpt from My Story in a Late Style of Fire from Winter Stars, by Larry Levis, 1985. Reprinted by permission of the University of Pittsburgh Press.

Parts of this book have appeared in different forms in Ploughshares and on This American Life.

For my mom and dad

The answer to the riddle is me and heres the question:

De La Soul

PART 1 These then are some of my first memories But of course as an account of - photo 1

PART 1

These then are some of my first memories. But of course as an account of my life they are misleading, because the things one does not remember are as important; perhaps they are more important.

Virginia Woolf, Moments of Being

I WAS STANDING WHEN I came to. Not lying down. And it wasnt a gradual waking process. It was darkness darkness darkness, then snap. Me. Now awake.

It was hot. My thin shirt clung to my back and shoulders, and my underwear was bunched into a sweaty wad. The heat left the ground in wavy lines, and the air was tinged blue with diesel exhaust. A woman in a burqa pushed past me. A small man in a ragged red vest ducked around me. He was hunched under the massive steel trunk on his back; the corner of the trunk nicked my shoulder as he maneuvered by. I was in the center of a crowd, half surging for the train, half surging for the exits. I stood still. I had no idea who I was. This fact didnt panic me at first. I didnt know enough to panic.

In front of me was a train. A heaving, shuddering train, its engine, half-submerged in smoke, painted a deep red. It blasted its horns, then clanked and panted into motion. People waved to me from open windows as the train shook itself free of the station. I waved back and noticed the whiteness of my arm, covered in hairs the color of straw. I tracked the trains slow-motion progress. As I choked on the bursts of blue exhaust and stared at the receding last car, I wondered if I should have been on that train.

I checked my front pockets for a ticket. Nothing.

Not even a passport.

Now I began to worry. I had lost my passport. I was in a train station in a foreign country without my passport. Then I realized that I couldnt even think of what name would have been on a passport if I had one or what foreign country I was currently in. This is when I panicked.

A man in a small nearby stall clanked a pan against a propane burner. He banged and scraped a spatula against the pan that clanged against the metal burner. The sound was impossibly loud. Louder than the train had been. I wanted to ask the man for help. I didnt want the man to know I needed help. I wanted him to stop banging the pan.

I could feel a heavy absence in my brain, like a static cloud. I couldnt remember anything past waking up. There was a thick mass of nothing up there. My muscles were taut, caught in a constant flinch, waiting for someone, anyone to punch me. I was alone, alone with no idea how far I was from anyone who knew me. I was alone and empty and terrified. I wiped my face with both palms. I blacked out.

I WOKE UP, AND I was still standing there on the bustling concrete platform. Not knowing how long I had before Id black out again, I tried to formulate a plan. There were small monkeys scavenging among the train tracks. Pigeons pecked among the detritus, then flew what they found up to the peaked roof, where they nested in the gaps between the beams and corrugated metal.

A television monitor hung from one of the metal rafters, flickering with information. My neck craned, I watched as unfamiliar letters flashed on the screen. I couldnt read them. Did I forget how to read? I needed it to make sense. If I was going to get out of here, I needed the words to make sense. The screen was old, emitting a low buzz, and the columns frequently twisted from one side to the other, like there was a tug of war among the vacuum tubes inside the black box. The screen went blank, and I was surprised when it came on again that it was filled with something that I could understand. I experienced a moment of exhilaration fueled by the simple recognition of typed English.

The train names, though, were anything but clear. The Janma Bhoomi Express. The Bhubaneshwar Express. I watched the screen as a drowning man watches the arc of a thrown life preserver. I tried to will the words to make sense, to be useful, to pull me out of whatever I was sinking into. But the screen went blank and cycled to an unfamiliar language. Each time it came back to English I experienced the same adrenaline rush. The words continued to twist on the screen. I dont know how long I stared at it. Long enough to draw attention.

Someone tapped me on the shoulder. I reluctantly panned my gaze down from the monitor and saw a young man wearing a peaked cap. He carried a long wooden stick, and perched above his lip he had a slight mustache. The mustache looked unsure of whether it would last till the end of the week.

Is there something the matter here? he asked me.

He looked kind. He looked competent. I needed something now that the television wasnt cooperating. Anything resembling comfort or competence would do.

I have no idea who I am, I said.

SOME DAM BURST INSIDE OF me as soon as I said it. I started crying.

The man took a moment to consider his strategy. He finally decided on There. There. He patted me on my shoulder. I am a tourist police officer. He pointed to a complicated bureaucratic mandala sewn on his shoulder. I am here for you. I have seen this many times before. You foreigners come to my country and do your drugs and get confused. It will be all right, my friend.

I was relieved. I should have known. This was the kind of trouble drug addicts ended up in all the time. It was serious, but I was thankful that this police officer had let me know who I was and that I wasnt to be trusted. I knew who I was. He had given me a key to my identity. I didnt have a name, but I now knew the kind of person I was.

Do you have on your person anything like a passport?

I shook my big sobbing head, suddenly a puddle again. Prompted by the mans assessment of me, I started to remember doing drugs with an unattractive redhead in a dark apartment. Her ginger face was covered in acne and nickel-sized freckles. Images of her coming toward me twirling little baggies full of toxic stuff flickered in my brain. Cooking. Injecting. Snorting. Scoring. This is what drug addicts do. Then they get lost and end up on train platforms taxing the patience of good men.

Do you have anything like a wallet on your person?

I patted down my back pockets, afraid that I would have nothing to report. But out of my right back pocket I produced a brown leather lump stamped with a picture of a cowboy with guns drawn.

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