Hollander Xaviera - The happy hooker: my own story

The Happy Hooker,
My Own Story

Xaviera Hollander

with Robin Moore and Yvonne Dunleavy

Dedicated to Larry and Takis

Contents

AUTHORS NOTE : The events in this book actually happened. The people actually exist. Only the names have been changed, and we genuinely regret any inadvertent similarity between these fictitious names and the names of real persons.

One
Rubber Souls

A lmost from the moment we were herded into the crowded cattle pen of a prison cell in New Yorks infamous Tombs, the jail-toughened black hookers gave us nothing but misery.

Hey, bigshit madambitch, bet you aint got no black cunt turnin tricks in your high-class fuckin house!

Yeah, bet your midget-dick rich white johns cant buy no licorice from your candy store!

This queen bee of the hookers here, she afraid the black stuff gonna rub off all over her beeyootiful white sheets, aint ya, honey?

The hassling began bawdy, became ugly, then menacing.

You there in the red-white-and-blue Saks fuckin Fifth Avenue dress: Dont bend forward so far, otherwise ahm gonna tear it off and eat you up! Five minutes more and there could of us, twenty of them, and common contempt of these street hookers for us, the expensive call girls, united them. In the hooker hierarchy, we were the aristocrats, they were the serfs, and jail, by God, was the great leveler.

I stood with my girls huddled rightly together against the cell bars, putting as much distance as possible between us and the black streetwalkers. Even if we wanted to sit down among the others, we had no chance. Those that had places on the few uncomfortable benches hung jealously on to them. If anyone got up for a drink of water or a pee, a fast ass would cancel the space. Some girls, exhausted from a nights sidewalk cruising, lay on the concrete floor, their heads in someone elses lap. They slept despite the anguished sounds of junkies in neighboring cells coughing, retching, and howling for relief. The stench of vomit, urine, and stale human body odor was suffocating.

The ranks oozed and abated like an oil slick as one group of girls, summoned by the big bull-dyke matron, was led to the courtroom and replaced with another. Get over here, judge gonna see ya now.

Each new paddy wagon full of hookers fell in with the cat-calling. Hey, muthafuckin madam, can you tell us now why you dont have a little color in your high-class establishment? a vicious-looking hooker in a neon-orange wig said menacingly.

Caution on my part gave way to exasperation, then anger. Listen, I said, I want you to know I do have black girls working for me. Several of them ... I even have a black roommate. There she is over there.

I pointed to Aurora, a willowy light-skinned girl who was sitting apart from us. A prostitute since her teens, and the veteran of many arrests, the same experience that taught her how to grab a seat for herself also taught her to assume a low profile in this kind of a scene. Aurora sat in a corner, wearing a blond wig and dark glasses, her collar pulled high under her chin, trying to blend in with the walls. She squirmed as twenty pairs of eyes riveted on her.

The hookers stopped teasing their wigs and painting their nails with varnish that had mysteriously appeared despite all the handbags having been confiscated outside. Sheeyit, man, a mean-looking coal-black girl finally rasped, that mixed rat aint black, she half-white.

The scumbag dunno what the fuck she is, a girl with the face of a sepia madonna and the voice of a carnival barker said. Both she and her friend left their seats to walk toward Aurora for a better look and maybe take a swing at her. All of us were watching them. This had to be the moment of detonation.

Just then the cell gate cranked open, and the big black matron escorted in a fat white girl who was hobbling on crutches. The girl was all marked up with ulcers on her arms and legs and seemed to be dope-crazed. As the matron, in a kindly way, tried to ease her into one of the vacant seats, the girl yelled, Take ya hands off me, ya big black dyke! and hauled off, her crutch savagely ripping across the matrons head.

That was all we needed in this charged atmosphere, a racial explosion touched off by the handicapped whore. Girls started screaming and yelling; fists, arms, legs, and the crutches flew all over the place. My girls and I quickly moved for cover behind the urinal wall and waited to see what would happen next.

Three hefty matrons marched into the cell and efficiently subdued the hysterical white girl. What would happen next? Thank God we didnt have to hang around to find out. Get over here, you girls behind the wall over there. Judge gonna see ya now. The cattle were led to the courtroom.

Inside the courtroom, full of journalists, quick-sketch artists, and curious onlookers, were my houseguests of the night before. The nice john from the Midwest I called Calvin was probably going to lose his job and marriage because his name and position had been blasted all over the New York papers. There was my sweet Greek lover, Takis, and beside him the couple whose only concession to convention was their last name. Otherwise they lived a life of free love and had been swinging with Takis and me in my house, for love, not money, only minutes before the cops arrived.

The judge listened with what seemed to me obvious hostility as the charges against us were read. One by one I paid the bail for my girls from the envelope of money I had stuffed into my panties before accompanying the cops to the station house. But the one person I wanted in the courtroom wasnt there: my boyfriend, Larry. I hadnt been able to contact him, and he had the key to the safe-deposit box where my main cash supply is kept. Now I was left without enough cash to pay the sky-high bail of $3,500 they put on New Yorks most notorious madamas I heard myself described. So it was off to Rikers Island for me.

Rikers Island is the new womens prison, cleaner and more modern than the Tombs, but still the nesting place of the dregs of humanity. I was thrown into a big room full of junkies, pushers, ten-dollar harlots, the general hustlers of life, and victims of other peoples crimes.

A scrawny white hooker who had been the victim of a freak tricka customer who gets his kicks from brutally beating girlswas nursing her wounds. Three other hookers had been beaten by him on Eighth Avenue over the past two weeks, and this poor girl had bruises and cuts all over her, plus a broken arm and a lip which was cut to her nostril. Her eyes were swollen slits.

A sixteen-year-old Puerto Rican girl was crying for her three-week-old baby left unattended at home. Mi marido try to kill me, she wailed in fractured English.

I tried to help the Spanish-speaking girls fill out their forms, but when I did, they would move away from me as though I had leprosy. So did the other prisoners. My expensive clothes and appearance made them suspicious and resentful.

They all stared, but nobody spoke to me except a cute little brown girl with freckles on a face like an acorn. I have already been picked up eight times in two weeks, she said. So now the judge decided to send me away for a months rest.

She was agitated because her pimp did not know where she was. She wanted me to phone him when I got out.

When I got out? When would that be? It was 4:00 P.M. Friday, sixteen hours since my house was busted by three phony johns.

It is now daytime, so where is Larry with my bail money? Where is my lawyer? Why am I, a woman of class, happy in my profession and basically doing a necessary service, in this horrible place? I thought back on the bust, trying to understand where I had made my mistake.