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From Publishers Weekly Starred Review. McCracken tells her own story in this touching and often unexpectedly funny memoir about her life before and after losing her first child in the ninth month of pregnancy. As difficult as it must have been to read aloud, McCrackens delivery is courageous and never self-pitying. McCracken is forthright about the tragedy, telling the listener early on that a baby dies in this book, but that another one is born. McCrackens reading is enthralling and deeply moving, as if she is relating this intimate journey directly to each listener individually from a dark, candle-lit room, in an unforgettable performance. *A Little, Brown hardcover (reviewed online). (Sept.)* Copyright Reed Business Information, a division of Reed Elsevier Inc. All rights reserved. From Bookmarks Magazine In Elizabeth McCrackens heartrending memoira love letter to the child she lost and the devoted husband who suffered alongside herMcCracken displays her many talents. Her warmth, candor, crystalline prose, lovely imagery, and attention to detail bring her painful story to life. McCrackens dark sense of humor ensnares unwitting readers, belying the sadness with which she writes, and she shows very little patience for self-pity and sentimentality. Critics praised her clear-eyed account in a genre replete with syrupy, self-aggrandizing books, though some expressed doubts that its subject matter would have wide appeal. Im not ready for my first child to fade into history, explains McCracken. With this heartbreaking account of his life, theres little chance of that. Copyright 2008 Bookmarks Publishing LLC

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Copyright 2008 by Elizabeth McCracken

All rights reserved. Except as permitted under the U.S. Copyright Act of 1976, no part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, or stored in a database or retrieval system, without the prior written permission of the publisher.

Little, Brown and Company
Hachette Book Group, USA
237 Park Avenue, New York, NY 10017
Visit our Web site at www.HachetteBookGroupUSA.com.

First eBook Edition: September 2008

ISBN: 978-0-316-03980-2

Contents

The Giants House

Heres Your Hat Whats Your Hurry

Niagara Falls All Over Again

O nce upon a time, before I knew anything about the subject, a woman told me that I should write a book about the lighter side of losing a child.

(This is not that book.)

I was giving a badly attended fiction reading at a public library in Florida. The woman wore enormous denim shorts, a plaid shirt, a black ponytail, and thumbprint-blurred glasses; her husbands nervous smile showed off his sand-colored teeth. They latched on to me, the way the sad and aimless sometimes do: I havent been a public librarian myself for more than ten years now, but I retain what I like to think of as an air of civic acceptance. When the reading was over and the rest of the audience had dispersed (if five people can be said to disperse) she gave her suggestion. She really did say it, in a voice that seemed as thumbworn as her glasses: You should write a book about the lighter side of losing a child. Youre very funny.

I couldnt imagine what she was getting at. A joke book for the bereaved? A comic strip guide to outliving your children?

For instance, she explained, her son was dead. Just recently she and Al her husband, who smiled apologetically with those appalling choppers had been on the beach, and Al had been eating a tuna sub, and a seagull came and stole part of the sandwich. And so she knew that the bird was the soul of her teenage son. Al nodded in agreement.

And I laughed and laughed, the woman said flatly. I was sitting at a table, having signed three books, one for a cheerful old lady whod called my short stories pointless during the Q & A. Als wife had taken my place at the podium. She looked out at the empty chairs. You should write a book with stories like that, she said. It would be a big hit.

She was a childish, unnerving person. I imagined that shed been trying peoples patience for some time. At first they would have been sympathetic, but after her son had been dead for a while, theyd grow weary of her bringing him up as though the calamity had just happened. Well-meaning friends would look uncomfortable at the very mention of his name. So she had to devise new and sneaky ways to work him into conversations with strangers, at book readings, at the grocery store, at train station information desks, to telemarketers. You have to move on, beige-toothed Al might have said, you cant mourn forever . Then she could say, See? Im not mourning: Im laughing. Im looking on the lighter side.

And now she wanted an instruction book.

It seemed like the saddest thing Id ever heard, back before I knew how sad things could get.

A child dies in this book: a baby. A baby is stillborn. You dont have to tell me how sad that is: it happened to me and my husband, our baby, a son.

Still, Im coming around to understanding what that woman in Florida wanted.

A baby is born in this book, too. That is to say, a healthy baby, our second child. The first child died on April 27, 2006, in France. The second baby a biological fact lying across my lap asleep at this very moment as I type one-handed was born one year and five days later in Saratoga Springs, New York. Not a miracle, I insist on it. Isnt that the headline in womens magazines, about stories like ours? Our Miracle Baby? I wouldnt have used the word miracle even before fate and biology and the law of averages kicked us in the teeth, back when I believed in luck, when I was a wisher on stars and white horses and pennies dropped in fountains. Those were the pastimes of my first pregnancy. This dozing infant is no miracle, though more than we had the nerve to hope for, a nice everyday baby, snoring now, the best possible thing: dreamt of, fretted over, even prayed for. A ginger-haired baby who conducts symphonies while sleeping, sighing at the dream music. (Those hands! They underscore closing arguments in dream-baby court; they hail dream-baby taxis.) We ourselves didnt pray (our religion is worry; we performed decades of it), but some of our friends did, and the mothers of friends, and nuns on two continents, our nuns-in-law. Such a beautiful, funny-looking, monkeyish, longed-for baby, exactly who we wanted to meet.

Every day as I love this baby in my lap, I think of my other baby. Poor older brother, poor missing one. I see the infant before me, the glory of the soles of the feet, the lips fattened and glossy with nursing, the nose whose future Edward and I try to predict daily. The love for the first magnifies the love for the second, and vice versa.

Now what I think that woman in Florida meant is: lighter things will happen to you, birds will steal your husbands sandwich on the beach, and your child will still be dead, and your husbands shock will still be funny, and you will spend your life trying to resolve this.

As for me, I believe that if theres a God and I am as neutral on the subject as is possible then the most basic proof of His existence is black humor. What else explains it, that odd, reliable comfort that billows up at the worst moments, like a beautiful sunset woven out of the smoke over a bombed city.

For instance: in the hospital in Bordeaux one of the midwives looked at us and asked a question in French. Most of the calamity (that word again; I cant come up with a better one) happened in French, which both Edward and I spoke only passably. Used to. My ability to speak French is gone, removed by the blunt-force trauma of those days. Ive retained only occasional drifting words. Mostly I have to look things up. The French word for midwife is sage-femme, wise woman, I remember that. This particular wise woman was a teenager, checking items off a list. The room was like a hospital room anywhere, on a ward for the reproductively luckless, far away from babies and their exhausted mothers. Did we want to speak to

Excusez-moi? Edward said, and cocked an ear.

Une femme religieuse, the midwife clarified. A religious woman. Ah.

Heres what she said:

Voulez-vous parler une nonne?

Which means, Would you like to speak to a nun? More nuns: of course in Catholic France, it was assumed that we were Catholic.

But Edward heard:

Voulez-vous parler un nain?

Which means, Would you like to speak to a dwarf?

When he told this to his friend Claudia, she said, My God! You must have thought, Thats the last thing I need!

No, Edward told her. I thought Id really like to speak to a dwarf about then. I thought it might cheer me up.

We theorized that every French hospital kept a supply of dwarfs in the basement for the worst-off patients and their families. Or maybe it was just a Bordelaise tradition: the dwarfs of grief. We could see them in their apologetic smallness, shifting from foot to foot.

In the days afterward, I told this story to friends over the phone. We were still in Bordeaux. The hospital had wanted to keep me, but Edward explained that we would check into a nearby hotel we lived an hour away in an old farmhouse and come back for the follow-up examination. It will be better for our morale, he said in French, and the doctor nodded. Our terrible news had been relayed by my friends Wendy and Ann to the rest of my friends in America, and now I phoned to say to say what, I wasnt sure, but I didnt want to disappear into France and grief. I called on our cell phone from our hotel room or from sidewalk cafs in the woundingly lovely French spring. Everything hurt. We ordered carafe after carafe of ros, and I told my friends about the Dwarfs of Grief, and I listened to their loud, shocked, relieved laughter. I felt a strange responsibility to sound as though I were not going mad with sorrow. Maybe I managed it. At that moment I felt so ruined by life that I couldnt imagine it ever getting worse, which just shows that my sense of humor was slightly more durable than my imagination.

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