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Praise for Lost in Ghost Town
This is a great read. I was deeply moved and inspired by the story. The writing is rich and poignant. I highly recommend it.
Gwyneth Paltrow, Academy Awardwinning actress, founder of goop
Carder Stouts Lost in Ghost Town is a stark reminder that addiction knows no socio economic bounds. His easy writing style, that seamlessly slips the reader between his childhood and his raging addiction to crack cocaine, reads like a cautionary tale with an emotional index of how to build an addict. It had me at the first hit.
Will Arnett, five-time Emmy Awardnominated actor (Arrested Development)
With his storytelling Carder brings clarity, humor, and compassion to a harrowing personal chapter. Its a book that many will relate to and all will find difficult to read and remain unmoved. This book is outstanding.
Billy Crudup, Tony Awardwinning actor (Almost Famous, Alien: Covenant)
Lost in Ghost Town is equal parts memoir and thrilling true crime story. Beautifully written, I could not put it down. The interactions with the Shoreline Crips and LAPD set my heart racing. For a descent into hell, it gives Dantes Infernoa run for its money. The most shocking part of Lost in Ghost Town is that Carder lived to write it all down. What a truly amazing story. I give it 5 stars.
Thomas Lennon, actor and creator of Reno 911!, New York Times bestselling author of Ronan Boyle
This is a compelling story that provides a unique lens into the dark world of addiction. It is well-written, captivating, and full of surprises. I believe it will have broad appeal.
Jason Blum, Academy Awardnominated producer (Whiplash, Get Out, BlacKkKlansman)
I was blown away by this memoir. Carder breathlessly navigates his journey from a posh DC childhood to the Crips and crack subculture of a pre-gentrified Venice. This is a beautiful story about a young man trying to heal the wounds of a childhood born largely without guidance. I was particularly moved by his newfound family in California, tragically linked to a violent gang as well as the prostitute he falls in love with. Unpredictable, exciting, a true peek at a hardscrabble life lived on the streets day to day. I could not put this book down.
Sam Trammell, Tony Awardnominated actor (True Blood, Homeland)
I couldnt put it down. I loved the juxtaposition between Carders desolate but privileged childhood and the dark despair of his life in the hood. The writing is powerful, direct, and filled with color. This is a book that will touch so many.
Craig Borten, Academy Awardnominated screenwriter (Dallas Buyers Club)
A blistering read and a powerful cautionary tale, Carder Stout has written an unforgettable memoir. It is intensely emotional and brilliantly written.
Jeffrey Clifford, Academy Awardnominated producer (Up in the Air)
Lost in Ghost Town is a gripping, haunting portrait of addiction thats impossible to put down. Carder Stout lays bare his soul as he recounts the privilege he was born into, and the pain that led him into the bowels of hell once crack and heroin had him in its vice grip. The triumph of the book is Carders ever-present humanity. Its an addictive, heart-rending read. This is an astonishing story.
Jessica Queller, executive producer and writer of Supergirl, bestselling author of Pretty Is What Changes
This incredible memoir is a powerful and heartbreaking look into addiction and everything that comes with it. Dr. Carder Stout crafts a harrowing yet beautiful story and deserves all of the praise its received.
Jennifer Todd, producer of the Academy Awards, executive producer of City on a Hill (Showtime)
Lost in Ghost Town is a terrifying, hilarious, and ultimately moving cautionary tale. Like a modern-day Icarus, Carder Stout was born privileged, had to escape from a labyrinth, and flew too close to the sun. However, unlike Icarus, the labyrinth Stout escaped from was one of his own creation, and he miraculously survived to share his tale with the rest of us. He covers the distance from the top to the bottom unsparingly in this gripping, upsetting, beautifully written memoir.
Jonathan Marc Sherman, award-winning playwright (Things We Want)
This book is a must-read for anyone doubting the possibility of personal redemption. Full of psychological insight and expertly told with an entertainers instinct for a riveting crazier-than-fiction story.
Alessandro Nivola, Tony Awardnominated actor (Laurel Canyon, The Many Saints of Newark)
AUTHORS NOTE
I wrote this book from memory and attempted to be as factual and accurate as possible. Due to my substance use during this period, there may be situations that are distorted. Certain names and places have been altered to protect the identities of those involved.
For My Brother Craig Who has always been my hero
FOREWORD
H ows Carder doing?
I got asked that question about Carder Stout a lot from various mutual friends, circa 2003.
Id usually say something like, I think hes doing okay, but who could say for sure? I mean, he was living thousands of miles away, and I wasnt with him 24/7, so I could only make a semi-educated guess.
There was a vintage ceramic liquor decanter that used to sit proudly on the bookshelf in Carders old apartment at 29 King Street in New York City. It said The Jolly Twosome on its base, on top of which were a couple of pickled drunks with their arms around one another and their eyes closed, sauced smiles on their faces. One of them was dressed to the nines in a formal white dinner jacket, while his unshaven pal was clad in patched blue jeans. Their common denominator was the elixir that altered their states.
For years, mostly in the mid-to-late 1990s in Manhattan, I was Carders partner-in-crime. We were The Jolly Twosome.
We both came from privilege, but I was of the Jersey Jewish variety, with my big nose and big ears and aversion to shaving on a daily basis, whereas Carder came from prep schools and family drinking songs passed down from his Swedish ancestors. He looked like the antonym of a Jewish guy. What we bonded on from the start was our dark sense of humor, and the fact that we recognized kindred spirits who were then enjoying figuring out where the edge between life and death was, and toying with it. We were both in our twenties. That we lived through them still astonishes me.
So many of our old New York City haunts have closed: Roses Turn, Wax, Spy, Moomba, Fez, Mondo Cane, and so on. My surprise that Carder outlived these bars is enormous, as is my gratitude.
Ive probably laughed as much with Carder as I have with anybody on this planet. Some of that can be attributed to the fact that hes whip-smart, with a wickedly great sense of humor. Some must also be attributed to the fact that we kept longer hours than the sane people in our crowd.
I finally got clean and sober after I peered over the edge and decided it was time to make some changes in my life, back in May of 2001. (As of this writing, Ive got eighteen years, three months, two weeks, and four days. Not that Im keeping track or anything. One day at a time.)
In July of 2002, late on a Tuesday night which stretched into the wee hours of a Wednesday morning, a small band of friendssix of uswent from The Slipper Room, one of our go-to haunts on the Lower East Side, over to Miladys, a now-shuttered bar in SoHo. I was the only one of our group who was clean and sober. When our group had dwindled down to just three people, Carderwho had moved out to Los Angeles but was back on the East Coast for a visitrevealed to a mutual dear friend and me that he had been smoking crack and heroin for over six months back in Los Angeles. Tears were shed, and we begged him to change his upcoming travel plans, telling him in no uncertain terms that he should not go back to California. He looked unquestionably terrible. Hed lost his luster. The good looks and charm that could bypass any velvet rope in town were gone, replaced with a desperate, skeletal, scary frame, housing somebody who seemed not to have much longer to live.