Davidson - Cataract City: A Novel

CATARACT

CITY

a Novel

GRAYWOLF PRESS

COPYRIGHT 2013 BY CRAIG DAVIDSON

First published in Canada by Doubleday Canada, a division of Random House of Canada Limited

This publication is made possible, in part, by the voters of Minnesota through a Minnesota State Arts Board Operating Support grant, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund, and through a grant from the Wells Fargo Foundation Minnesota. Significant support has also been provided by Target, the McKnight Foundation, Amazon.com, and other generous contributions from foundations, corporations, and individuals.

To these organizations and individuals we offer our heartfelt thanks.

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ISBN 978-1-55597-674-3
Ebook ISBN 978-1-55597-089-5

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First Graywolf Printing, 2014

Library of Congress Control Number: 2013958012

Cover design: Kapo Ng

For Colleen

My citys still breathing (but barely, its true)

through buildings gone missing like teeth.

The sidewalks are watching me think about you,

sparkled with broken glass.

Im back with scars to show,

Back with the streets I know

Will never take me anywhere but here.

The Weakerthans, from Left and Leaving

CATARACT

CITY

PROLOGUE

DUNCAN DIGGS

O f the 2,912 nights I spent in prison, two were the longest: the first and the last. But then, most cons would tell you the same.

That first was endless, even more so than those long-ago nights in the woods with Owen when the wind hissed along the earth and the darkness was full of howling. In the woods an animal might rip you to shreds, sure, but it had no goal other than to protect itself and its offspring. The Kingston Pen housed animals whod flatline you for looking at them cockeyed or breathing their air.

My cot felt no thicker than a communion wafer, coils cork-screwing into my spine. Penitentiary darkness was different than the outside-the-walls variety. A prison never achieves full black: security lamps forever burning behind mesh screens in the high corners of the cellblock, hourly flashlight sweeps. Your eyes become starved for true nightanything is better than granular, gummy semi-dark where shapes shift, half glimpsed, at the edges of your sight.

Still, you get used to it, in time. You get used to everything. Then comes that last night. Wed talk all about it, you know? Some guys had been in and out a few times; it didnt mean as much to them. But for most of us it waslisten, its like my buddy Silas Garrow says: We all owe, and were all paying. What else is prison but the repayment? Then they set you loose. But some part of you figures you havent quite paid enough. Youve paid what the law demands, sure, but some debts exist beyond that. Blood dues, you could say. And those arent collected in the usual way, are they? Those ones tiptoe up behind you like a sneak-thief.

That last night I lay in my cota new one, still pricklythinking Id die. The dread certainty entombed itself in my skull. It wouldnt be anything crazy, nobody was going to stab me in the neck with a sharpened toothbrush or anything like that. No, itd be a boring and commonplace kind of death. An itty-bitty shred of plaque might detach from an artery wall, surf through my bloodstream, lodge in a ventricle and kill me dead. That would be fair and right, too, because Id killed a man myself. A fair one-to-one transaction, blood cancelling blood. Fairer still that it should happen in the hours before my release. Youve got to figure thats just the way such debts get repaid: with a gotcha.

I mustve sweated off half my body weight that night. You couldve wrung my cot like a sponge. When the first wave of sunlight washed across the cell floorto be honest, I didnt know what to make of it. I could still die two steps outside the gates, I guess. Thatd meet the accepted terms just as well.

And so it happened that one afternoon, nearly eight years after Id scrubbed with delousing powder and donned an orange jumpsuit, my prison term ended. I collected the items Id been admitted with: $2.32 in change, half a roll of cherry Life Savers stuck with pocket lint. I shook a few quarters out of the manila envelope and slid them into the prisons pay phone.

It was a surprise to everyone who I called. Truth? I surprised myself.

Exiting the penitentiary was a shocking experience. Maybe its meant to be.

Two guards led me down a tight hallway, hands cuffed. A steel door emptied into a small yard, its clipped grass shadowed by the high wall. Jesus, grass.

One guard removed the cuffs while the other stood with a shotgun at port arms. I rubbed my wristsnot because the cuffs were tight but because Id seen it done in films when the jailers took the cuffs off a criminal. Which I was. The fact cold-cocked me. For the past eight years Id been a red fish swimming in a tank with other red fish. But Id be freed into a sea of blue fish, law-abiding fish, and I was fearful Id stick outthe prison bars permanently shadowing my face, even in clean sunshine.

The guards opened another door set into the grey wall. I walked between them. No tearful goodbyes. The door locked softly behind me. I stood in an archway ten feet from a main road. The Saint Lawrence Seaway was a strip of endless blue to the south. Cars motored up and down the hill, entering and exiting my sightline with strange suddenness. I hadnt seen anything move so fast in eight years; my eyes needed to adjust.

I took a few tentative steps. A tight group of onlookers clustered on the far sidewalk, gawking at me. Id heard about these people; they hung around the gates hoping for this exact sightthe first fumbling steps of a long con as he squinted into the new sunlight, his legs trembling like a newborn foals.

Ghouls. I ought to flip them the bird! But the idea of doing so filled me with shapeless fearI pictured one of them making a call, then the prison doors opening to swallow me up again. What charge? A red fish failing to swim submissively amongst the blue fish?

Owen leaned on the hood of his Lincoln, his right kneethe bad oneslightly bent to take the weight off.

Thanks for coming, I said.

His face tilted upwards, smiling at the sun. Hop in, man.

The Kingston Pen stood atop a hill, a monstrosity of conical turrets and razorwire. Id forgotten how beastly it looked from the outside. I unrolled the car window. Wind curled over the earth, pulling up the smell of springtime grass. I inhaled deep, dizzying breaths.

Owen drove down a switchback and hit the highway. My breath came in a shallow rushI was nearly hyperventilating. Stands of Jack pine blurred into a green wall topped by a limitless sky. I hadnt seen unbroken sky in so long. Its too easy to forget the sheer size of the world. We didnt speak at all until we hit Cataract City limits. It wasnt uncomfortable.

So, Owen said, do I need to watch my ass?

Well, old buddy, its like this. Every night for the past eight years Ive lain in bed with a three-hundred-pound schizo squealing in his sleep underneath me. You figure Id want to wrongfoot you if it meant winding up back with all that?