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To the North Korean people I know and to
those I have never met. I will never forget you.
First published in 2021 by September Publishing
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cover images:
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) 70th anniversary of the founding of the country parade. Pyongyang, September 2018
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) Upstairs and downstairs. Pyongyang, September 2018
endpaper images:
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) The 2018 Mass Games. Pyongyang, October 2018
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) The 2019 Mass Games. Pyongyang, August 2019
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TWO YEARS OF LIVING IN THE
WORLDS MOST SECRETIVE STATE
NORTH KOREA
LINDSEY MILLER
We must envelop our environment
in a dense fog, to prevent our enemies
from learning anything about us.
Kim Jong Il
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A wooden bridge leads to a pier. Wonsan, October 2018
A bridge takes hikers over a trickling stream. Mount Myohyang, October 2018
The Chungsong Bridge. Pyongyang, August 2019
INTRODUCTION
How much can you really know a place?
Many of us try to learn about foreign countries and people by trusting
what we see in front of us. We learn from our experiences, what we can sense,
what we feel: our most basic instincts. We also consider the opinions of others,
using them to inform our own. From something unknown we feel like we start
to understand.
But what happens when you go somewhere where even basic truths are
ambiguous; where sometimes you cant trust your own eyes or even what you
feel; where the divide between real and imagined is never clear? Are some
places simply condemned to be beyond our understanding?
I found myself tormented by these questions for two years when I moved
to North Korea in 2017 to accompany my husband on a diplomatic posting to
the British Embassy in Pyongyang. Before I arrived I knew that North Korea was
a place where foreigners were routinely arrested for relatively minor crimes,
occasionally with dire consequences. I knew that a pervasive cult of personality
subsisted on air-lifted lobster and caviar, while most of the population was
condemned to beggary and misery. Depending on who I asked, there were
100,000 to 250,000 people languishing in prison camps. And, yes, Id seen
the footage of goose-stepping soldiers, Cold War-style military parades, ballistic
missile and nuclear tests, and the almost comedic, profound yet ultimately
inconsequential, otherworldliness of the place. But I had no idea what to expect,
and no sense of how North Korea would change my life forever. Moving to
North Korea turned out to be the biggest leap Id ever taken. If I live for a
hundred years, its unlikely anything will surpass it.
Four months after I had decided to go, I stepped into North Koreas hot and
muggy summer air for the first time. I stood at the top of the small and rickety
airplane stairs and breathed in my surroundings, accented with the smell of
pine trees, plane fuel and the cigarette smoke emanating from the cockpit. As
I took in the desolate concrete runway and listened to several soldiers berating
the baggage handlers for something I couldnt understand, I had no idea that,
over the next two years, what Id always considered to be the clear line between
truth and fiction would disintegrate entirely.
We lived in a compound in eastern Pyongyangs Munsu Dong district,
where most of Pyongyangs tiny foreign community lived and worked. Within the
larger Munsu Dong international compound, smaller compounds housed the
accommodation blocks, embassies and offices that lined several streets. There
were a couple of hard-currency shops, a handful of bars and a school attended
by the children of foreign residents. We lived in the old German Democratic
Republic compound, home to a mini-community of German, British, French and
Swedish diplomats. The streets of the international compound were overlooked
on all sides by the crumbling high-rise apartment buildings of East Pyongyang.
At the entrance to the compound was an armed soldier who stood on the
corner watching every car coming in and out. Beside him was a conspicuous
red telephone. Beyond, manned roadside guard posts appeared every hundred