Heather Gudenkauf - These Things Hidden
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I stand when I see Devin Kineally walking toward me, dressed as usual in her lawyer-gray suit, her high heels clicking against the tiled floor. I take a big breath and pick up my small bag filled with my few possessions.
Devins here to take me to the court-ordered halfway house back in Linden Falls, where Ill be living for at least the next six months. I have to prove that I can take care of myself, hold down a job, stay out of trouble. After five years, Im free to leave Cravenville. I look hopefully over Devins shoulder, searching for my parents even though I know they wont be there. Hello, Allison, Devin says warmly. You all set to get out of here?
Yes, Im ready, I answer with more confidence than I feel. Im going to live in a place Ive never been before with people Ive never met. I have no money, no job, no friends and my family has disowned me, but Im ready. I have to be.
Devin reaches for my hand, squeezes it gently and looks me directly in the eyes. Its going to be okay, you know? I swallow hard and nod. For the first time, since I was sentenced to ten years in Cravenville, I feel tears burning behind my eyes.
Im not saying it will be easy, Devin says, reaching up and wrapping an arm around my shoulders. I tower over her. She is petite, soft-spoken, but tough as nails, one of the many things I love about Devin. She has always said she was going to do her best for me and she has. She made it clear all along that even though my mom and dad pay the bills, Im her client. Shes the only person who seems to be able to put my parents in their place. During our second meeting with Devin (the first being when I was in the hospital), the four of us sat around a table in a small conference room at the county jail. My mother tried to take over. She couldnt accept my arrest, thought it was all some huge mistake, wanted me to go to trial, plead not guilty, fight the charges. Clear the Glenn family name.
Listen, Devin told my mother in a quiet, cold voice. The evidence against Allison is overwhelming. If we go to trial, chances are she will be sent to jail for a very long time, maybe even forever.
It couldnt have happened the way they said it did. My mothers coldness matched Devins. We need to make this right. Allison is going to come home, graduate and go to college. Her perfectly made-up face trembled with anger and her hands shook.
My father, who had taken a rare afternoon away from his job as a financial adviser, stood suddenly, knocking over a glass of water. We hired you to get Allison out of here, he shouted. Do your job!
I shrank in my seat and expected Devin to do the same.
But she didnt. She calmly set her hands flat on the table, straightened her back, lifted her chin and spoke. My job is to examine all the information, look at all the options and help Allison choose the best one.
There is only one option. My fathers thick, long finger shot out, stopping inches from Devins nose. Allison needs to come home!
Richard, my mother said in that unruffled, irritating way she has.
Devin didnt flinch. If you dont remove that finger from my face, you might not get it back.
My father slowly lowered his hand, his barrel chest rising and falling rapidly.
My job, she repeated, looking my father dead in the eye, is to review the evidence and choose the best defense strategy. The prosecutor is planning to move Allison from juvenile to adult court and charge her with first-degree murder. If we go to trial, she will end up in jail for the rest of her life. Guaranteed.
My father lowered his face into his hands and started crying. My mother looked down into her lap, frowning with embarrassment.
When I stood in front of the judgea man who looked exactly like my physics teachereven though Devin prepared me for the hearing, told me what to expect, the only words I heard were ten years. To me that sounded like a lifetime. I would miss my senior year of high school, miss the volleyball, basketball, swimming and soccer seasons. I would lose my scholarship to the University of Iowa, would never be a lawyer. I remember looking over my shoulder at my parents, tears pouring down my face. My sister hadnt come to the hearing.
Mom, please, I whimpered as the bailiff began to lead me away. She stared straight ahead, no emotion on her face. My fathers eyes were closed tightly. He was taking big breaths, struggling for composure. They couldnt even look at me. I would be twenty-seven years old before I was free again. At the time, I wondered if they would miss me or miss the girl they wanted me to be. Because my case initially began in juvenile court, my name couldnt be released to the press. The same day it was waived into adult court, there was massive flash flooding just to the south of Linden Falls. Hundreds of homes and businesses lost. Four dead. Due to my fathers connections and a busy news day, my name never hit the papers. Needless to say, my parents were ecstatic that the good Glenn name wasnt completely tarnished.
I follow Devin as she leads me to her car, and for the first time in five years I feel the full weight of a sun that isnt blocked by a barbwire-topped fence. It is the end of August, and the air is heavy and hot. I breathe in deeply and realize jail air doesnt really smell any different than free air. What do you want to do first? Devin asks me. I think carefully before I answer. I dont know what to feel about leaving Cravenville. Ive missed being able to driveId had my license for less than a year when I was arrested. Finally, Ill have some privacy. Ill be able to go to the bathroom, take a shower, eat without dozens of people looking at me. And even though I have to stay at a halfway house, for all purposes Ill be free.
Its funny. Ive been at Cravenville five years and youd think Id be clawing at the door, desperate to get out. But its not quite like that. Ive made no friends here, I have no happy memories, but I do have something that I have never, ever had in my life: peace, which is a rare, precious thing. How I can be at peace for what Ive done? I dont know, but I am.
When I was younger, before I was in prison, my mind never stopped racing. It was constantly go, go, go. My grades were perfect. I was a five-sport athlete: volleyball, basketball, track, swimming and soccer. My friends thought I was pretty, I was popular and I never got in any trouble. But under the surface, beneath my skin, it was like my blood was boiling. I couldnt sit still, I could never rest. Id wake up at six every morning to go for a run or lift weights in the schools weight room, then Id take a quick shower, eat the granola bar and banana Id shove into my backpack and go to class all day. After school thered be practice or a game, then home to eat supper with my parents and Brynn, then three or four hours of homework and studying. Finally, finally, at around midnight, I would try to go to sleep. But nighttime was the worst. I would lie in bed and my mind couldnt slow down. I couldnt stop myself from worrying about what my parents thought of me, what others thought of me, about the next test, the next game, college, my future.
I had this thing I did to help calm myself at night. Id lie on my back, tuck the covers around me just so and imagine that I was in a small boat. I would conjure a lake so big that I couldnt see the shore and the sky would be an overturned bowl above me, black, moonless and full of winking fairy lights for stars. There would be no wind, but my boat would carry me across the smooth, dark waters. The only sound would be the lazy slap of water against the side of the boat. This calmed me somehow and I could close my eyes and rest. Because I was only sixteen when I got to prison, I was separated from the general population until I turned eighteen. After surviving the first terrible weeks, I suddenly realized that I didnt needed my boat anymore and I slept just fine.
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