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Matt McAllester lost his mother, Ann, long before she died, as mental illness snatched the once-elegant woman away and destroyed his childhood. In this beautifully written memoir, the Pulitzer Prizewinning journalist chronicles the journey he took to forgiveness, which brought him straight to the place that evoked his happiest memories of his mother: the kitchen. Recounting the pleasures of his early days, culinary and otherwise, McAllester weaves an unforgettable tale of family, food, and love. BITTERSWEET: LESSONS FROM MY MOTHERS KITCHEN At first, Matt McAllesters childhood was idyllic, a time when his mother placed heavenly, delicious food at the center of a family life brimming with fun and laughter. Then came the terrible years, years when he had to watch helplessly as his warm, quick-witted mother succumbed to an illness that was never properly diagnosed or understood. Desperate to escape, he eventually found work as a foreign correspondent, hiding in the terrors and tragedies of other people as he traveled to the most dangerous places in the world, from Beirut to Baghdad. But nothing he saw on the battlefield prepared him for his mothers deathand his own overwhelming grief. In the weeks and months that followed, Matt found himself poring over old family photos and letters, trying to reach out for the beautiful, caring woman who had now vanished for the second time. But as he looked anew at her long-cherished collection of cookbooks, it occurred to him that the best way to find her was through something they both loved: the food she had once lovingly prepared for him, food that introduced him to a thousand sources of joyfrom spare ribs to the homemade strawberry ice cream that seemed in memory the very essence of happy times. With a reporters precision and a storytellers grace, McAllester guides us through a long season of griefcooking, eating, and rememberingat the same time describing his and his wifes efforts to conceive and nourish a child of their own. Complete with recipes to delight body and soul, Bittersweet is a memoir of extraordinary power, at once a moving tribute to his mother and a dazzling feast for the senses. From the Hardcover edition.

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Also by Matt McAllester
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Beyond the Mountains of the Damned: The War Inside Kosovo
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Picture 5 MY MOTHER SAT IN HER ARMCHAIR BY THE WINDOW AND asked me if I thought I was a good cook.

Yeah, I said. Not bad.

Do you always leave the book open?

Yes, I said.

Then you can't cook. She laughed, but she wasn't joking. If you need to keep the book open, you're not really cooking.

We had had this conversation before. It had a companion piece that went like this:

Have you read Elizabeth David yet?

No, Mum.

If you want to know how to cook, read Elizabeth David. She'll tell you everything. Read French Provincial Cooking. They're marvelous books. We all learned to cook from Elizabeth David.

This conversation I had with my mother was our shared doorway into talking about food. There was so little we could share, so few topics I could introduce without risking her anger and delusionsmy father, certain former friends, certain relatives, places we had lived, most of the past, politics, foreign affairsor without wading into the oceans of forgetfulness and obliviousness that had built up around things she once cared about and I still didbooks, movies, the news. But if I told her what I was cooking for friends over the weekend, we would fall into a safe place together, one where past, present, and future were full of afternoons in the kitchen with the radio on and with chocolate-smeared mixing bowls in the sink, desserts cooling in the refrigerator, sauces simmering on the stove, a slowly crisping, caramelizing roast in the oven, and the house full of mingling, delicious smells.

It was the lovely afternoon of May 4, 2005. The pink bunched flowers of the horse-chestnut tree outside her window in Swiss Cottage swayed gently in a spring breeze. She had not cooked for a long time, having moved from a studio apartment where she would at best fry some bacon, to a locked mental ward in an industrial corner of Northwest London, and then to this charming, sunlit room on the top floor of an old folks' home (called Rathmore House), where she was a teenager compared to the dying bodies who sat immobile in the hallway. She was closer in age to some of the staff than to the other residents, and she didn't socialize with the bent-over old ladies who stared into their ever-dimming memories. Unlike them, she would walk along the street to the local stores and cafs, sitting with a cup of coffee and making friends with the local misfits who also spent their days over coffee. She kept to her room when in the home. She read the occasional novel, watched television, and waited for phone calls and visits from my sister and me.

She hated the food there, that was the only thing, and loved to be taken out. A few days earlier, on a walk to the shops of nearby Primrose Hill with my sister, she had bought me a present. It was a zester, and she handed it to me now without wrapping paper or reason. She knew I would like it. I had another zester already, but immediately I liked this one more. It had a solid ball of steel for a handle. She had bought an identical one for my sister.

She stood up from her armchair and we kissed and I hugged her, smiling. It was an unplanned visit, an hour snatched because I happened to be at home in London rather than in a war zone and I was passing by. It had been an hour without my getting irritated, one in which I asked for and received rare maternal advice about things I have already forgotten because it was the unwonted feeling of being looked after by my mother that mattered. The zester, bought by chance in a shop on the same street as the apartment where a young Elizabeth David, my mother's cooking guru, first began to cook for herself, was in my hand as I hugged her.

I put it into my pocket and left.

She died two days later, in the morning, in that room. She fell forward onto the floor in front of her armchair, her heart stopping without warning.

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Picture 6 BY THE TIME I WAS EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD, I WANTED MY mother, who had brought me into the world and deluged me with love, to die. And I said so, out loud.

I stood in the kitchen of my aunt's apartment in Newport, Rhode Island, where I was staying for the summer, saving my tips and paychecks from the job I'd gotten as a busboy so that I could spend the fall and winter traveling around the United States on Greyhound buses. It was the summer of 1988. My aunt Jennifer was two years older than my mother. They were the oldest of four siblings and had been extremely close when they were children. My aunt emigrated from Scotland to the United States, to Boston, the year John Kennedy was assassinated. I had just graduated from high school in Scotland, and when I joined my aunt in this fresh, exciting country, I found in her something that I had not known for years. She was like my mother in so many waysher voice, her eyes, her sporadic disdain for decorum. When she had met me fresh off the bus in Providence on my first day in the States, she had parked illegally, and when we rushed back to her car she began an argument with the meek-looking uniformed attendant who must have been pulling in just over minimum wage in his middle years and whom my lovely aunt loudly called a Nazi. My mother would have done that. But they were different in other ways. Unlike my mother, Jennifer did actually come to pick me up from the bus station; she would do my laundry, watch movies with me, make me coffee, share my jokes, treat me to dinner out. She did not fight with me. I could talk with her without constantly censoring myself. When my cousin Christian pierced my ear with a needle and thread and a block of ice, my aunt handed me a brandy from her freezer.

And now, in the afternoon before my evening shift at the wharfside restaurant in Newport where I worked, as illegal as my Salvadoran buddies, we were talking about my mother.

I don't think I've ever told anyone this, I said, but I think she'd be better off dead.

So do I, she said.

There was a moment of quiet.

Matthew, she said, reaching for the freezer, would you like a brandy?

I think she'd be happier dead, I said, taking the glass. She's never going to get better. She just suffers. Her life is worthless.

And it was unspoken, but understood, that it would be easier and better for me, and for everyone else in the family.

You shouldn't feel guilty for feeling that, you know, Jennifer said.

I don't, I said.

My mother did not die then. But many years later she said to me: I'm ready to die now, Matty. I've been married, I've had my children. I'm ready to die.

She was not depressed when she said this. She wasn't drunk or ranting. We were having a cup of tea in her small basement studio flat in Kilburn, in Northwest London, a five-minute amble from my sister's place, the last place she would live without full-time caregivers on hand. She repeated it to me at other times, in moments of calm and relative serenity. My sister, Jane, told me she had heard the same. I've read enough books, she said. I've planted enough flowers and cooked enough meals. I'm not interested in that stuff anymore.

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