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Written with a searing honesty and published for the tenth anniversary of Amy Winehouses death, My Amy is an evocative portrait of unbreakable lifelong friendship and a devastating study into fame, addiction and self-sabotage. Only one person knows what really happened to Amy, other than Amy herself. He is Tyler James, Amys best friend from the age of thirteen. They met at stage school as two insecure outsiders, formed an instant connection and lived together from their late teenage years right up until the day she died, aged just twenty-seven. Tyler was there by her side through it all. From their carefree early years touring together to the creation of the multiple Grammy-winning Back To Black, which she wrote on their kitchen floor. From her volatile marriage to Blake Fielder-Civil through her escalating addictions, self-harm and eating disorders as the toxic nature of fame warped Amys reality. For the last three years of her life, Tyler was with her every day when shed beaten drugs and was close to beating alcoholism too. He also knew better than anyone the real Amy Winehouse who the tabloid-reading public rarely saw the hilarious, uncompromising force-of-nature busy taking care of everyone else. We all think we know what happened to Amy Winehouse, but we dont. This definitive insiders story tells us all, finally, the truth.

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MY AMY Tyler James grew up in the East End of London and met Amy Winehouse at - photo 1
MY AMY

Tyler James grew up in the East End of London and met Amy Winehouse at the Sylvia Young Theatre School. He became a singer/songwriter and was signed to Island Records in 2003. By early 2009, after many chaotic years for both himself and Amy, he successfully overcame severe addiction problems of his own. Today, he lives and farms in Ireland, having swapped gigging for lambing. My Amy is his first book.

CHAPTER 1

F riday, 22 July 2011, 1 p.m. The phone rang and her name came up.

AMY.

Her voice said, like it always did: You alright darlin?

I wasnt alright. Because she wasnt alright. Nothing was alright. Last night Id walked out of our home in Camden Square, the last of countless homes wed lived in together since Amy was eighteen years old. Wed been best mates since she was twelve and I was thirteen, inseparable soulmates forever. Walking out was a new tactic for me. Id tried everything else. After years of trauma, of trying to save Amy, I was running out of ideas. So now, every time she relapsed, Id leave because I wouldnt support her drinking.

If youre drinking, I wont be here.

Sometimes I was there but she wouldnt know it. Id sleep under a blanket on the treadmill in the gym downstairs to get away from the noise: shed scream my name, blare music, play the zombie film Planet Terror on a loop all night long, blasting it out of her speakers.

But mostly Id go to my mums in Essex for two, three, four days. Then Amy would ring.

T, please come home.

And wed make a deal.

Ill come home. Well start the process again, withdrawal, stopping drinking tomorrow.

And it worked. It was working. She was getting better. She went three weeks without a drink, four days back on it, three weeks off again. Every day she was sober she was in the gym, on the treadmill, rebuilding herself. It was a pattern but she was close. So close. She was even writing music again. She hadnt touched hard drugs, despite what the tabloids said, for three years.

So Id walked out of Camden Square, again, at ten at night. I sat, exhausted, outside a local pub and was about to call an Addison Lee taxi to my mums. But this particular time I had a feeling that I shouldnt just leave like I usually did. Something in that moment was different; there was some awareness that wasnt on the surface. I was usually calm with Amy, I never wanted to make her feel bad because I knew that didnt work with alcoholics back in the day, if someone screamed at me when I relapsed, it would only make me want to drink more. But this time? I thought fuck it. I need to be something else: hardcore.

I opened the door with my keys, went upstairs to her bedroom on the top floor and she was doing all the stuff she normally did when she relapsed: listening to music really, really loudly from speakers linked to her laptop. It was usually Mos Def; right now it was The Specials Ghost Town blaring out. I stood at her open door; she was pottering around, drinking wine, going in and out of her en suite bathroom, singing, obviously feeling normal and good again because thats what alcohol does when youve been craving it. I just lost it. I flipped.

None of this is normal, none of this is good, none of this is funny, its all bollocks!

I knew Id piss her off. I was never really angry with Amy, I always supported her, helped her, loved her but Id had enough. I went over to her laptop and slammed the top down, shut everything off.

What the fuck are you doing? she yelled. I was listening to my music!

I sat on the end of her bed and this time I was screaming.

You cant drink, this cant happen anymore! We cant just keep going through this process! Relapsing, relapsing, relapsing, weve been in and out of hospital so many times, the doctors have said you cant drink anymore or youll die. Theyve sent you letters telling you that. This is no longer an option! Do you realize what youre doing to me?

I was the only friend she had left by then, the only person around her all the time who wasnt paid to be around her. Everyone else in her life had bailed out. However much they loved her they couldnt deal with her. No one else was there every day supporting her. I went to a level Id never been to before.

Forget you for a minute, do you ever contemplate what will happen to me and my head and my life if youre not here anymore? If you die? You love me, your best friend in the world. But youll blow me to pieces. You may as well get a fucking shotgun.

She had a little living room off her bedroom where I was pacing round, pulling my own hair out the back of my head.

I dunno what to do with you anymore! Im out of ideas, you dont seem to get it!

She tried to convince me everything was alright.

But T, Im in the studio downstairs, Im doing music again.

She was always trying to be the person she thought she had to be: this character called Amy Winehouse. And by now I had a mantra: Its better to be alive being Amy than to die trying to be Amy Winehouse. Fuck Amy Winehouse, its a character, fuck that persona!

And then she said what she always said: T, Im not going anywhere.

All I had left was my new tactic: Unless you stop drinking right now, Im going.

Well, she snapped, fuck off then.

Well, fuck you.

It was all so routine. I just picked up my case and left. I had to. I couldnt let her think any of this was OK or just put up with it and do nothing. Like some people around her often seemed to.

The next day there was the call. You alright darlin? I knew it would be a long conversation, so I walked down to the end of the road at my mums where theres an enclosed field surrounded by bushes. There was no one there but me. I could tell shed only had a couple of drinks. It was lunchtime.

It was a weird conversation. She talked to me about me. I think she was trying to say sorry. She knew how much I gave to her. I gave her my life. She was grateful and part of her felt guilty. She was telling me again, Im not going anywhere T, Im gonna be alright. But this time she was also saying, But this is what I want for you. She wanted me to make music again and I wasnt interested. Id no desire to be famous after everything Id seen. Shed said herself for years, anyone who wants to be famous must be mad. She always used to say: Fame is like terminal cancer; I wouldnt wish it on anyone.

Amy had never wanted to be famous. She wanted to be a jazz singer. More than anything else she wanted a family, to be a wife and have kids. All Amy ever wanted was normality.

And she wanted that for me too. She wanted someone to love me. She said, T, I want you to fall in love. Shed never seen that happen for me because I was always looking after her. I was twenty-nine and Id never had a proper relationship when would I have had time to meet anyone? I barely had any other friends because Amy always came first.

T, she said. Come home.

Well Im not coming home now. Ill come home tomorrow.

There was no point going back that night I could tell she was just going to carry on drinking. She rang me again much later very drunk, maybe eleven oclock, chatting nonsense. I fell asleep on my mums couch.

Around 2.30 a.m. she rang again. I was exhausted and just didnt answer. Pointless, she wouldnt even remember it. I went back to sleep.

The next day, I went home to Camden Square. Before I went in, I sat on a bench in the square for ages, preparing myself for the days ahead. I rang my friend Chantelle and all we talked about was Amy. I was exhausted and she was trying to help me. You need to start looking after yourself, she kept saying, I love Amy to bits too but you cant do this anymore. But this was what I

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