Little John Randolph - Secrets - outcast

Secrets

By

John R. Little

Outcast

By

Mark Allan Gunnells

JournalStone

San Francisco

JournalStones DoubleDown Series, Book V

By

John R. Little

JournalStone

San Francisco

Copyright 2014 by John R. Little

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ISBN: 978-1-940161-60-0 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-940161-61-7 (ebook)

ISBN: 978-1-940161-62-4 (hc limited edition)

JournalStone rev. date: August 22, 2014

Library of Congress Control Number: 2014942804

Printed in the United States of America

Cover Design: Denise Danial

Cover Art: M. Wayne Miller

Cover Photograph Shutterstock.com and iStock.com

Edited by: Dr. Michael R. Collings

"John R. Little, author of Miranda and The Memory Tree , has penned yet another seminal masterpiece of altered time. Secrets runs the emotional gamut, from suspenseful and wondrous, to poignant and bittersweet; an enduring tale that embeds itself, not in the psyche, but in the soul, and remains." Ronald Kelly , author of Undertaker's Moon, Fear, and Restless Shadows

"Little returns with a vengeance. A twisted, voyeuristic tale of dark secrets, sex, and violence, that stays with you long after the final page. You simply can't look away." Nate Kenyon , award-winning author of Diablo: The Order and Day One

"John R. Little has gained a deserved following for his dark fiction dealing with time, and now Secrets joins Miranda , The Gray Zone , and Dreams in Black and White as the latest of his mind-blowing time trips. Secrets is also the darkest and most unnerving of the stories as it examines both the small crimes we all hide and the larger ones that only villains like Secrets Bobby Jersey are capable of. Secrets is startling, thoughtful, and riveting throughout." Lisa Morton , Bram Stoker Award-winning author of Summers End and Malediction

This story is dedicated to the girl of my dreams, Fatima Monteiro.

I want to thank my pre-readers, every one of whom told me the ending to this story sucked and made me work to come up with a much better one: Tod Clark, Dave Solow, Debbie Pfeiffer, and Glenna Gavigan.

Thanks to Chris Payne at JournalStone for the opportunity to be part of this amazing series of books, and to Mark Allan Gunnells for writing the wonderful story to be a companion to my own.

Karen looked down at the closest tombstone. Shed been walking for almost an hour and still hadnt found what shed been looking for.

For that matter, she wasnt sure she even knew for herself exactly what she was seeking. The one she was looking at now had a womans name followed by:

Born July 4, 1960, Died December 10, 1999

Beloved Mother and Artist

She Brought Life to Those Close to Her

A gust of wind blew some loose strands of Karens long blonde hair so they covered her view. She pushed them back behind her ears.

Is that the one?

The voice behind her was gentle but insistent.

Are you getting tired of looking?

Karen smiled as she turned to face Bobby. He stood a respectful two feet behind her, as if he were trying to give her all the privacy she might need while still being there to offer any emotional support.

Not bloody likely, she thought.

Bobby was nineteen years old, just like she was. Somehow, though, he looked older. If she didnt know better, shed peg him at about twenty-five. He was tall, rugged, and handsome, exactly the kind of guy who would turn girls heads wherever he went. His deep voice made her wonder if he could have had a future in radio.

Karen, on the other hand, knew she barely looked seventeen, let alone nineteen. She was slim and short and never seemed to fill out like other girls her age.

Sorry, I didnt intend to sound impatient, he said. Take all the time you want. Time is the one thing both of us have lots of.

Karen nodded. I just need to find the right one.

Bobby smiled. I know. Really, its okay.

Im not sure anything will be okay ever again.

Bobby didnt answer. What could he say to that?

Karen looked at him with the hint of emotion in her eyes, but she was determined not to let a single tear drop. She tried to detach herself and just concentrate on Bobbys facethe dark brown eyes; the pitch-black, curly hair; the dimples she knew would appear when he smiled.

She exhaled a long breath and turned back to the headstone. I wonder what kind of art she practiced.

Do you want to check? You can Google it on your iPhone. Shouldnt be hard to find if she really accomplished anything.

Karen shook her head. In a way Id rather imagine my own truth. I think she loved to put together collages from nature, picking up stray oak and maple leaves wherever she went and then spending hours rearranging them to tell a story.

She knelt and touched the granite stone, feeling the etchings of some of the letters.

This isnt the one, she said finally.

Bobby joined her as she walked past a few more tombstones. None of them interested her. Only a few had called to her so far.

The sun was starting to set behind them, casting a long shadow through the graveyard. Karen knew Bobby just wanted her to find the right damned stone so they could leave, but it wasnt that easy. It had to be the right one.

If she couldnt find it, shed come back tomorrow, and the day after that.

Did you know therere two thousand people buried here? asked Bobby.

She ignored him. A cool breeze blew, and she felt goose bumps rise on her arms. All of a sudden she moved to her right and fell to her knees in front of an old weathered stone.

This is the one, she said. I found her.

She exhaled a long breath and turned back to the headstone. I wonder what kind of art she practiced.

Do you want to check? You can Google it on your iPhone. Shouldnt be hard to find if she really accomplished anything.

Karen shook her head. In a way Id rather imagine my own truth. I think she loved to put together collages from nature, picking up stray oak and maple leaves wherever she went and then spending hours rearranging them to tell a story.

She knelt and touched the granite stone, feeling the etchings of some of the letters.

This isnt the one, she said finally.

Bobby joined her as she walked past a few more tombstones. None of them interested her. Only a few had called to her so far.