John Galsworthy - Over the River

Clare, who for seventeen months had been the wife of Sir Gerald Corven of the Colonial Service, stood on the boat deck of an Orient liner in the River Thames, waiting for it to dock. It was ten oclock of a mild day in October, but she wore a thick tweed coat, for the voyage had been hot. She looked paleindeed, a little sallowbut her clear brown eyes were fixed eagerly on the land and her slightly touched-up lips were parted, so that her face had the vividness to which it was accustomed. She stood alone, until a voice said:

Oh! HERE you are! and a young man, appearing from behind a boat, stood beside her. Without turning, she said:

Absolutely perfect day! It ought to be lovely at home.

I thought youd be staying in Town for a night at least; and we could have had a dinner and theatre. Wont you?

My dear young man, I shall be met.

Perfectly damnable, things coming to an end!

Often more damnable, things beginning.

He gave her a long look, and said suddenly:

Clare, you realise, of course, that I love you?

She nodded. Yes.

But you dont love me?

Wholly without prejudice.

I wishI wish you could catch fire for a moment.

I am a respectable married woman, Tony.

Coming back to England because

Of the climate of Ceylon.

He kicked at the rail. Just as its getting perfect. Ive not said anything, but I know that yourthat Corven

Clare lifted her eyebrows, and he was silent; then both looked at the shore, becoming momentarily more and more a consideration.

When two young people have been nearly three weeks together on board a ship, they do not know each other half so well as they think they do. In the abiding inanity of a life when everything has stopped except the engines, the water slipping along the ships sides, and the curving of the sun in the sky, their daily chair-to-chair intimacy gathers a queer momentum and a sort of lazy warmth. They know that they are getting talked about, and do not care. After all, they cannot get off the ship, and there is nothing else to do. They dance together, and the sway of the ship, however slight, favours the closeness of their contacts. After ten days or so they settle down to a life together, more continuous than that of marriage, except that they still spend their nights apart. And then, all of a sudden, the ship stops, and they stop, and there is a feeling, at least on one side, perhaps on both, that stocktaking has been left till too late. A hurried vexed excitement, not unpleasurable, because suspended animation is at an end, invades their faculties; they are faced with the real equation of land animals who have been at sea.

Clare broke the silence.

Youve never told me why youre called Tony when your name is James.

That IS why. I WISH youd be serious, Clare; we havent much time before the darned ship docks. I simply cant bear the thought of not seeing you every day.

Clare gave him a swift look, and withdrew her eyes to the shore again. How clean! she was thinking. He had, indeed, a clean oval-shaped brown face, determined, but liable to good humour, with dark grey eyes inclined to narrow with his thoughts, and darkish hair; and he was thin and active.

He took hold of a button of her coat.

You havent said a word about yourself out there, but you arent happy, I know.

I dislike people who talk about their private lives.

Look! he put a card into her hand: That club always finds me.

She read:

MR. JAMES BERNARD CROOM,

The Coffee House,

St. James Street.

Isnt the Coffee House very out of date?

Yes, but its still rather the thing. My Dad put me down when I was born.

I have an uncle by marriage who belongsSir Lawrence Mont, tall and twisty and thin; youll know him by a tortoiseshell-rimmed eyeglass.

Ill look out for him.

What are you going to do with yourself in England?

Hunt a job. Thats more than one mans work, it seems.

What sort of job?

Anything except schoolmastering and selling things on commission.

But does anybody ever get anything else nowadays?

No. Its a bad look-out. What Id like would be an estate agency, or something to do with horses.

Estates and horses are both dying out.

I know one or two racing men rather well. But I expect I shall end as a chauffeur. Where are you going to stay?

With my people. At first, anyway. If you still want to see me when youve been home a week, Condaford Grange, Oxfordshire, will find me.

Why did I ever meet you? said the young man, with sudden gloom.

Thank you.

Oh! you know what I mean. God! shes casting anchor. Heres the tender! Oh! Clare!

Sir?

Hasnt it meant anything to you?

Clare looked at him steadily before answering.

Yes. But I dont know if it will ever mean any more. If it doesnt, thank you for helping me over a bad three weeks.

The young man stood silent, as only those can be silent whose feelings are raging for expression

The beginnings and endings of all human undertakings are untidy: the building of a house, the writing of a novel, the demolition of a bridge, and, eminently, the finish of a voyage. Clare landed from the tender in the usual hurly-burly, and, still attended by young Croom, came to rest in the arms of her sister.

Dinny! How sweet of you to face this bally-hooley! My sister, Dinny CherrellTony Croom. I shall be all right now, Tony. Go and look after your own things.

Ive got Fleurs car, said Dinny. What about your trunks?

Theyre booked through to Condaford.

Then we can go straight off.

The young man, going with them to the car, said Good-bye with a jauntiness which deceived no one; and the car slid away from the dock.

Side by side the sisters looked at each other, a long and affectionate scrutiny; and their hands lay, squeezed together, on the rug.

Well, ducky! said Dinny, at last. Lovely to see you! Am I wrong to read between the lines?

No. Im not going back to him, Dinny.

No, never, non?

No, never, non!

Oh! dear! Poor darling!

I wont go into it, but it became impossible. Clare was silent, then added suddenly, with a toss back of her head: Quite impossible!

Did he consent to your coming?

Clare shook her head. I slipped off. He was away. I wirelessed him, and wrote from Suez.

There was another silence. Then Dinny squeezed her hand and said:

I was always afraid of it.

The worst of it is I havent a penny. Is there anything in hats now, Dinny?

All British hatsI wonder.

Or, perhaps, I could breed dogsbull terriers; what dyou think?

I dont at present. Well enquire.

How are things at Condaford?

We rub on. Jean has gone out to Hubert again, but the babys therejust a year old now. Cuthbert Conway Cherrell. I suppose we shall call him Cuffs. Hes rather a duck.

Thank God I havent that complication! Certain things have their advantages. Her face had the hardness of a face on a coin.

Have you had any word from him?

No, but I shall, when he realises that I mean it.

Was there another woman?

Clare shrugged.

Again Dinnys hand closed on hers.

Im not going to make a song of my affairs, Dinny.

Is he likely to come home about it?

I dont know. I wont see him if he does.

But, darling, youll be hopelessly hung up.

Oh! dont lets bother about me. How have you been? And she looked critically at her sister: You look more Botticellian than ever.

Ive become an adept at skimping. Also, Ive gone in for bees.

Do they pay?

Not at present. But on a ton of honey we could make about seventy pounds.

How much honey did you have this year?

About two hundredweight.

Are there any horses still?

Yes, weve saved the horses, so far. Ive got a scheme for a Condaford Grange bakery. The home farm is growing wheat at double what we sell it at. I want to mill and bake our own and supply the neighbourhood. The old mill could be set going for a few pounds, and theres a building for the bakery. It wants about three hundred to start it. Weve nearly decided to cut enough timber.