John McGahern - Creatures of the Earth: New and Selected Stories

These stories grew in the mind and in the many workings of the material, but often began from as little as the sound of a chainsaw working in the evening, an overheard conversation about the price of cattle, thistledown floating by the open doors of bars on Grafton Street on a warm autumn day, an old gold watch spilling out of a sheet where it had been hidden and forgotten about for years. Others began as different stories, only to be replaced by something completely unforeseen at the beginning of the work. The most difficult were drawn directly from life. Unless they were reinvented, re-imagined and somehow dislocated from their origins, they never seemed to work. The imagination demands that life be told slant because of its need of distance.

Over the years there were two particular stories I rewrote several times, but I was never satisfied with them, and yet I would not let them go. I was too attached to the material. I stubbornly refused to obey the primary rule that if the writer finds himself too fond of a rhythm or an image or phrase, or even a long passage, he should get rid of it. When I came to write Memoir, I saw immediately that the central parts of both these stories were essential to the description of the life we lived with my father in the barracks, from which they should never have been lifted. No matter what violences or dislocations were attempted, they continued to remain firmly grounded, obdurately what they were.

Among its many other obligations, fiction always has to be believable. Life does not have to suffer such constraint, and much of what takes place is believable only because it happens. The god of life is accident. Fiction has to be true to a central idea or vision of life.

Creatures of the Earth and Love of the World are new stories.

John McGahern

March 2006

Grey concrete and steel and glass in the slow raindrip of the morning station, three porters pushing an empty trolley up the platform to a stack of grey mail-bags, the loose wheels rattling, and nothing but wait and watch and listen, and I listened to the story they were telling.

Seven-eighths of his grave hed dug in that place down the country when they went and transferred him up on promotion.

Took to fishing out beyond Islandbridge, bicycle and ham sandwiches and a flask of tea, till he tried to hang himself from a branch out over the river, but the branch went and broke and in he fell roaring for help.

No use drowning naturally if youd meant to hang yourself in the first place.

Think theres any chance theyll have him up for attempted whateveritis?

Not nowadays theyll give him a six-month rest-cure in the Gorman on full pay.

Theyd filled the trolley, the smile dying in the eyes as they went past, the loose wheels rattling less under the load, the story too close to the likeness of my own life for comfort though itd do to please Lightfoot in the pub when I got back.

Looked at with the mind, lifes a joke; and felt, its a tragedy and we know cursed nothing, hed said last night over pints of Guinness.

Flush of tiredness in my face after the drinking, the jug of water by the bed had been no use, rough tongue, dry roof of mouth, dull ache and throb of the poison along the forehead and on all the nerves, celebrating this excursion home; and always desire in the hot tiredness, the dull search about the platform for vacancy between well-fleshed thighs: may I in my relax-sirs slacks (Hackney, London) plunge into your roomy ripeness and forget present difficulties?

The train drew in. I got a table in the restaurant car facing a priest and a man in his fifties, a weathered face under a hat, the blue Sunday suit limp and creased.

A black woollen scarf inside the priests gaberdine almost completely concealed the Roman collar. The waiter brought us tea and toast on trays and the priest broke the silence.

Have you come far? he asked the hatted man at his side.

From London, on the nightboat.

You must work there, then, the priest continued in an interested politeness.

I do and fukken all, for the last twenty-eight years, on the buildings.

The man hadnt seen the collar and was unaware of the shock of the swear-word. The priest looked anxiously about the carriage but asked, Is it tough on the buildings? more to prove he could master the unsocial than out of any politeness now.

Not if you use your fukken loaf like. You soon get wised-up that nobodyll thank you for making a fukken name for yourself by working. Im a teaboy. The man was relaxed, ready to hold forth.

And are you going home on holiday? the priest changed.

Not effin likely. Im going home to bury the brother, he announced importantly.

Im sorry. May he rest in peace, the priest said.

A release to himself and everybody else; been good for nothing for years.

The priest rose. Hed risked enough.

If youre ever in London, the man held out his hand, youll find me any Sunday morning in the Archway Tavern, in the door of the Public Bar facing the Gents.

The priest thanked him, anxious to be gone, and as he turned to the door the man saw the round collar.

That was a priest, he murmured as if waiting for the certainty to sink in. Why didnt you tell me?

I got no chance.

Well Ill be fukken blowed. He slumped.

He didnt seem to mind too much. I wouldnt worry.

Still, hes a priest, isnt he? You have to draw the line fukken somewhere. Ill go and tell him Im sorry.

I wouldnt worry, I said, but he shambled to the door.

He was all right about it, he said he understood, he informed when he returned after minutes, relief of confession on the old face as he pondered, Tidy how a body can put his fukken foot in it.

The train had crossed the Shannon. The fields were slowing. I took the suitcase and shook hands with the man.

The front door was open when I got to the house. She was on her knees in the hall, scrubbing the brown flagstones. She must have heard the iron gate under the yew at the road and the footsteps up the unweeded gravel but she did not stop or look up until I was feet away. All she said was my name, but all the tense emotion of the face, the tears just held back, went into the name, and it was an accusation. Rose, I answered with her name.

I thought she was going to break, and there was the embarrassment of the waiting silence, the still brush in her hand beside her knees on the wet stone.

Did you get the letter that I was coming?

Your father got a letter. Her face hardened, and it was already a hard greying face, the skin stretched tight over the bones, under the grey hair.

Was it all right to come?

She still didnt rise or make any sign for me to enter, and when she dipped the brush in the water and started to scrub the stone again I put the suitcase down close to the wall of the house and said, Ill fool around till he comes. She didnt answer and I could hear the rasp of the scrubbing brush on the stone till Id gone the other side of the house.

Theyd net-wired a corner of the orchard off for her hens, the wild nettles growing coarse and tall out of the bare scratched earth; henshit enriches the clay, Id heard them say.

Be quiet, trembling between timidity and the edges of violence as the rest of your race, and wait for him to come: life has many hours, itll end.

The bell without rope or tongue hung from the stone archway where the pear tree leaned; it used to call the workmen to their meals.

Why dont you go to night lectures and try for promotion? Lightfoot had asked, pints on the marble of the Stags Head.

I dont want to.

Wouldnt it be better for you to have some say in the world than to have jumped-up jacks ordering you around all the time?