Dooner - The f*ck it diet: eating should be easy

If youve read as many diet books as I have, maybe youve noticed how similar the introductions are. Its normally a sensationalized promise that this is the diet youve been waiting for. And it goes a little something like this:

INTRODUCTION TO THE DIET YOUVE BEEN WAITING FOR

Youve been going from diet to diet, and nothing has worked, youre still worthless and ugly fat and unhealthy. But now with this groundbreakingandancient way of eating, you finally have a proven, scientific, and simple plan to unlock all of your dreams of being beautiful and loved fit and healthy.

The best part is this: if you follow the plan exactly the way we have laid it out in this book, you will never crave food ever again!Ever! No more food cravings.

Take it from me, craving food should not have to be a part of your life.

All of those other diets youve tried in the past didnt work because you werent eating therightkinds of foods in therightamounts.Of coursethey didnt work.

Well, with our program, your body will begin to workso wellthat youll never think about food again.

This isnt a diet, its away of life. Its alifestyle change.I know that thoseotherdiets you went on said the same thing, but they were lying. Those weretotallydiets. This isnt.This diet is totally NOT a diet,it is a way of life.

Are you ready? Lets turn the page to the first chapter, whereIll tell you why everything you are currently eating is bad for you.

You read this and think, THIS IS IT! Finally, a way to get rid of my cravings. Im so sick of being hungry. You get rid of everything in your kitchen, you stock up on the allowed foods, and you start devotedly eating exactly what they prescribe, getting a little adrenaline high every day that you successfully stick to the rules. Youre so excited to have finally found this scientific and ancient diet that will take away your weak, human desire for food. You have been so frustrated with your hungry humanity that you are willing to do anything to be less of a burden to society with the space you take up.

You devote three extremely committed months to this scientifically proven way of eliminating your body fat and your cravings and... voil! It goes so well! You are toned, energetic, and as happy as ever, eating your perfectly portioned, perfect food. You start forgetting to eat and consider becoming a robot who only needs to take pellets occasionally.

The best part is that all your relationships flourish because, now that you dont need food, you are so personable. Everyone loves you even more than they did before, and they all want you in their lives. You go out to lunch with friends and just smile at them while they eat and you think about how great your life is. Everyone thinks you are funny and beautiful and perfect and they wish they could be more like you.

You also become rich and youre never, ever bored.

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Dont you worry. This book will be nothing like that. Because The Fuck It Diet is not really a diet.

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I used to be an extremely devoted dieter (when I wasnt bingeing), and those diet book introductions were always sooo exciting to me. I will DO this. I will do this right. And I will finally make my life AMAZING.

And I would do it. Until I eventually failed and started the binge/repent yo-yo, or until I went on a bender, or replaced it all with another, better diet.

My dieting started at fourteen, when I realized my shorts were really tight and my face was becoming oilier and puffier by the day, and I had to go to Nordstroms to buy bras in a size E in the brand that Oprah recommended because Victorias Secret bras were too small.

Ihaveto fix this.... I guess my days of eating are behind me. So for the next ten years I was either on a dietobsessed with following the rules perfectlyor off a diet, because I was bingeing and feeling out of control and horrible about myself.

I tried the Atkins diet, the South Beach diet, the insulin resistance diet, the pH diet, the blood type diet, the Rosedale diet, the raw vegan diet, many versions of the Pray to God to Be Skinny diet, The Secret (not a diet but you can make anything into a diet, especially new age self-help), the Im Going to Listen to My Body SOOOO WELLLL diet (also known as the obsessive version of intuitive or mindful eating), the French Women Dont Get Fat diet (which is a hybrid of the intuitive eating diet and the coffee and wine diet), the paleo diet, the GAPS diet, andddddddd...

Boom. Epiphany. It hit me, on my twenty-fourth birthday, after I ate nine squash pancakes and twelve sugarless almond flour cupcakes that I made for myself and that nobody else would eat. I had a legit spiritual epiphany, with my stomach distended and my heart palpitating. I stared at myself in the mirror of my crumbly little bathroom on the Upper West Side of Manhattan, and as if I was in some sort of not-that-funny romantic comedy, I spoke to myself out loud. What are you doing? Are you going to do this for the rest of your life?

Id spent the past ten years truly hating my body, constantly disgusted with myself, and wanting to be skinny more than anything else. I spent years obsessing over diet rules, planning what and when I could eat next, and counting up calories and carbs. I spent all of my energy trying to control my weight and salvage my health, but still, no matter how hard I tried, or how important dieting was to me, I was bingeing. I felt completely out of control for years on end.

I was petrified of carbs and sugar, and being full, and absolutely everything I did was for the purpose of trying to weigh less. Every day was good or bad based on the number on my scale and what I had eaten. And I truly believed I was doing it all in the name of health, because in my understanding, health and weight were synonymous.

Also, every fantasy I had was basically just me being skinny and pretty and maybe dating Prince Harry, I dont know. But definitely skinny and pretty, as if those were my actual dreams and as if that was my actual purpose. As if being skinny and pretty was the thing that would make me happy.

As for my actual distant buried dreams? Well, if I can be skinnier, then theyllfinallywork out. Once I am skinny for good, I can finally take myself seriously.

But even the times when dieting worked and I was actually skinny, it was never, ever enough. I didnt feel skinny, or worthy, or confident. And the moments that I did feel skinny? I was mostly panicked that the skinniness wouldnt last, and that made me even more obsessed with dieting.

Id spent ten years thinking that skinniness would make me like myself. I thought that skinniness would make me happy. And that is a method for happiness that doesnt last