2014 by Antoinette Tuff
Published by Bethany House Publishers
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ISBN 978-1-4412-6467-1
This book recounts events in the life of Antoinette Tuff according to the authors recollection and from the authors perspective. While all the stories are true, some names, dialogue, and identifying details have been changed to protect the privacy of those involved.
Unless otherwise indicated, Scripture quotations are from the King James Version of the Bible.
Scripture quotations identified ESV are from The Holy Bible, English Standard Version (ESV), copyright 2001 by Crossway, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved. ESV Text Edition: 2007
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Cover design by Jennifer Parker with Paul Higdon
Cover photo of Antoinette Tuff by Mike Habermann Photography, LLC
Author is represented by Dupree/Miller & Associates
What Leading Voices Are Saying About Antoinette Tuff
Not only did she make Michelle and me very proud, but she probably saved a lot of lives.
President Barack Obama
She is a reminder of what Christian courage looks like: She didnt need a weapon, just her faith and a willingness to love the unlovable and to share her own pain, failures, and struggles, knowing that the rest was in Gods hands.
Eric Metaxas, BreakPoint
We should use her example to each our childrens leadersany of our leaders, really, and all of our childrenthe value of compassion and the power of empathy.
The Washington Post
She was a real hero in all of this. She just did a stellar job. She was cool, she was calm, very collected in all of this, maintained her wherewithal.
Fox News
... an amazing illustration of calm and brinkmanship...
The Guardian
The fascination at the heart of Tuffs tale, the reason its riveting, is the way she used compassion and empathy to disarm a mentally ill man intent on killing.
Salon.com
I dedicate this book to my best friend and love of my new lifethe almighty God. Thank You for being there for me and guiding me through all the pain, and thank You for giving me two wonderful children who have been the blessings of my life.
I also dedicate this book to my son,
Derrick .
You are a beautiful miracle, and I am so proud God is using you to His glory.
Chapter Eleven
I ts very strange to wake up one morning and find yourself being called a hero. On TV, in newspapers, on websites, you see your own name next to a word usually reserved for soldiers and police officers and firefighters. Antoinette Tuff Hailed as a Hero, read one headline a day or two after the standoff at McNair. Real-Life Superhero Stops a Shooting, read another. Hero School Clerk in Atlanta School Shooting Scare, someone else wrote. All these headlines are very, very humbling.
But they are also very, very wrong.
Hero is not the word I would use to describe myself on August 20. The word I would use is vessel .
As Ive said before, the words that came out of my mouth, and the steadiness of my nerves, were not my work or my achievementthey were Gods work and Gods achievement.
The victory earned that day was not my victoryit was Gods victory.
The one who was in control in that office was not me, or the shooter, or the police, or anyone elsethe one who was in control was God.
All I did was serve as Gods vessel.
There is nothing special about me that enabled me to be a vessel for God. The truth is, God uses us all to accomplish His work. He can turn any one of us into an instrument of good. What happened to me that day can happen to each and every one of us, at any moment, in any situation. We just never know when that moment is coming, or what that situation will be. But we are all capable of being Gods vesselof fulfilling the purpose God has chosen for us. If any one purifies himself from what is ignoble, then he will be a vessel for noble use, the Bible tells us in 2 Timothy 2:21, consecrated and useful to the master of the house, ready for any good work ( RSV ).
The story of the standoff at McNair Academy is not a story about heroism. It is a story about being a vessel for Gods noble use.
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