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Testimonials
A young mother diagnosed with a mental disorder, shortly after leaving an abusive marriage, is determined to harness her remaining energies into caring for her children. In her journey of raising her young sons to be responsible, independent and well-balanced adults, who become caring and contributing members of society, she also finds personal healing. She documents her views on a variety of meaningful life topics in a series of letters written over several decades in a style reminiscent of Kahlil Gibrans The Prophet. You get a strong sense of her struggles, which she faced and resolved by choosing to live her life by her personal code of love, respect and compassion and with God at the centre. She relates the answers she has found and invites her sons to find their own answers, according to their personal codes, to which she has contributed as mother, friend, spiritual advisor, social director, teacher, mother-in-law and, finally, grandmother.
LAM, B. Eng.
We all need a mother like A. J. Drewie to counsel us! These letters by the author to her sons are replete with nuggets of timeless wisdom, drawn from personal experience and offered in a down-to-earth language, covering a gamut of topics from sexuality to dementia to worship. Throughout, Mom is open about her regrets and flaws as a parent, but what really shines through is her love for and devotion to her boys as they grow into adulthoodsometimes seen through a filter of wistfulness for their earlier years and sometimes lit with a radiant joy such as the kind that comes to her as she enters into grandparenthood. The collection is a treasury of advice not only for the intended recipients, but for all of us, and peering figuratively over Trevor and Tylers shoulders to peruse these letters can only enrich our perspectives on various aspects of life.
AB
Youre on Your Own by author A. J. Drewie is a collection of letters written as a gift to her sons, Trevor and Tyler. In these, Drewie shares her challenges, transformations, values, insights and most importantly, her affection for them. As Drewie writes, Love is the motivator that pushes us beyond our human frailties and imperfections and wants to become more alive, creating loving relationships with other people. Genuine and endearing. A celebration of a life lived.
Karen Vanscoy, RN, BScN
Founder, Mental health Consultant
Mental Health Solutions
Many journeys through life are fraught with pain and challenge to the human spirit. In Youre on Your Own, A. J. Drewie shares her experiences in meeting the challenges of an abusive marriage and a diagnosis of bipolar disorder while trying to raise her two sons. Through a series of intimate letters written to the boys, she imparts her hard-won lessons on life, values, faith and family. Drewie demonstrates the resilience of the human spirit in overcoming overwhelming obstacles as she raises her sons to become loving parents in their own right. She offers guidance to us all in these troubled times.
Marty Zelenietz
Introduction
It was essential for me to capture the years of growth and development, leading me out of the darkness, coming out of an abusive marriage and seven months later being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. The pain was extreme, excruciating, and emotional. I wanted to die, yet I had two young children who were dependent on me. I strongly believed I was the more stable parent, as I had an unshakeable faith in God; so I prayed and prayed for guidance for an intelligent friend who would help carve away the layers of fear, shame, guilt and marital scars. This friend would also have to be able to give without a financial charge as I was working in a part-time job and did not have funds to pay for counselling; this person would also have to understand the ups and downs of bipolar illness.
One night when all was quiet in the house, the boys were asleep, after I said my bedtime prayers and crawled into bed for the night, I had a dream about a local educator. I had not met this man but his face woke me up at 4:00 a.m. I knew this was the person I had to meet. God chose him while I slept. Early that morning, I phoned his office and made arrangements to meet with him the following week.
The day we met, he asked me why I had come to see him. I said God sent me. That was the beginning of a long friendship lasting over twenty years. He was a candle, lighting my way. He showed me what care was all about. I hadnt had that kind of care from someone who would listen deeply as I emptied my soul.
This book contains many heart-felt letters for my sons, stemming from the twenty years of friendship I had with this man. Now after counselling with my psychiatrist and conversations with my friend, I am a very peace-filled woman, happily remarried and living a life of love and respect. The boys are grown, married and embarking on new territories. This is my gift I give to you with love and adoration, Youre on Your Own.
On Life
Dear Trevor and Tyler,
What will life out there in the real world, alone and making decisions for myself be like? you ask.
Truly living, being fully alive, requires a lot of work. Saying youre happy is one thing; yet feeling happiness and peace within yourself requires daily stock-taking of your mental health, physical health, spiritual health and social health. This includes your need of fun, nutrition, exercise, creativity, balancing relationships and family demands. It also includes your work life and finding time to pray or meditate, having solitude, juggling the ups and downs, joys and sorrows of a normal life. Then ask what do you have? You are a happy, loving, caring person. End of story! Isnt there more to life than that?
Life is a journey through time. It is a never-until-death-ending process. Learning to be flexible, accepting disappointments, the pains, the unexpected inevitable happenings in stride, and not turning to crutches such as alcohol or drugs when things get really tough, is hard. Follow your dreams, aspirations and heart. The doors to the world wait. Wisdom develops with age and experience. I hope I have offered you a worthy example to calm some of the stormy times ahead.