Michelle Borquez - Abortion to Mercy

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Abortion to Mercy
Copyright 2013 God Crazy/Bella Publishing
Aspire Press, a division of Rose Publishing, Inc.
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Abortion

to

Mercy

Marcie Schneider

Michelle Borquez

Sharon Kay Ball

The Freedom Series

Created by Michelle Borquez

• Gives practical and biblical advice on how to heal, forgive yourself, and ultimately overcome the emotional, spiritual, and psychological effects of having an abortion.
• Shares the true story of Marcie Schneider, a woman who hid the dark secret of an abortion, a pain she had to endure alone. Marcie offers counseling that will bring healing to you as she shares her story of redemption.
• Includes a Bible study by Paige Henderson that focuses on the mercy that Christ has on us. Contains questions and Scripture passages on wisdom and hope for Gods plan for your life along with space to journal.

Marcie Schneider knows what its like to hide the deep, dark secret of abortion. God slowly and tenderly led her to a place of healing and freedom as he turned her mess into her message. Marcie desires to share with others who know this secret pain that allowing God to help heal them will set them free.

Michelle Borquez is a sought-after speaker and writer whose passion is to equip hurting women to break free from their pain, finding their freedom in Christ. As the spokesperson for Beth Moores national TV special, Living Well, Michelle knows the challenges Christian women face. She has worked as a consultant for the American Association of Christian Counselors and as a counselor at a crisis pregnancy center. Her books include God Crazy , Overcoming the Seven Deadly Emotions , and The YOU Plan: The Christian Womans Guide to a Happy, Healthy Life after Divorce .

Sharon Kay Ball is a licensed professional counselor and a mother to three children. In addition to her private practice, Sharon is a staff counselor at her church. Her own personal experience with suffering, the daily grind of single parenting, and counseling her clients has given Sharon tremendous compassion and insight for those dealing with lifes tragedies and trials.

Chapter 1

By Marcie Schneider

My best friend Sonja went with me to confirm what I already knew. Hearing the words, Its positive, stirred feelings inside of me that Ill never forget.

I was sixteen and so scared. I worked up the courage to tell my parents, and the decision was made for me to have an abortion. It wasnt really my idea, but I sure didnt argue with it. The only person I really remember showing me any mercy or trying to discuss other options was my stepdad Jim. Its interesting now to look back at how I didnt think he cared at all about me. Nothing could have been further from the truth.

I wouldnt say I was neglected as a child, but I dont remember a lot of family time either. My parents divorced when I was four and my sister Michele was three. Mom and Dad both remarried and added half-siblings to the mix. Michele and I lived with my mom, stepdad, and half-sister Melinda. We went to my dads house every other weekend until my stepdad was transferred to Colorado. I was nine years old when we moved, and until then my happy place was wherever my grandfather was. I loved spending time with him. When I was eleven, he died of a sudden heart attack. It was the saddest day of my life. Soon after his death, my mom moved us back to Texas so we could be closer to our family.

Sex made me feel loved and wanted.

Thats when the trouble began. In seventh grade, I started hanging out with a group of friends who liked to party. We drank alcohol when we could, and we definitely werent concerned with sexual purity. We werent actually having sex, but we were doing everything else. By the time I was fifteen, I lost my virginity at a party to a good friend who was also a virgin. Believe it or not, it was just a game. Everyone was cheering us on to do it, so we did. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I got attention for it. Sex made me feel loved and wanted.

At sixteen, I was facing the consequences of my choices, leaving an abortion clinic literally empty inside.

Still, even the abortion didnt stop me from seeking love in the wrong ways. I continued to have sex and became pregnant for the second time, less than six months after my first abortion. This time I had a friend who was also pregnant, so we went to the abortion clinic together. This experience was very different from the first one. I remember everything about that day. I remember looking at the doctors face, and I remember that he never spoke a word. I remember how it felt looking around the cold, impersonal recovery room and seeing the rows of beds occupied by girls and women like me. I remember the nurse who went from bed to bed, making insensitive comments and jokes.

By this point, I had convinced myself that I was pretty much a loser. I wanted the good life, and I wanted to start making the right choices, but in my mind I was so far gone that it was just too late. I knew the good kids would reject me, and even if some didnt, I would never fit into their group. I felt I was forever marked as a slut who had no chance of ever being accepted by the good people again. I felt dirty and worthless. I had become a Christian early in my life, and I knew that God loved me and could forgive me, but I also knew how other Christians my age treated people like me. I was not about to put myself through that humiliation. I decided to stay bad and learn to deal with it.

I felt dirty and worthless.

When I became a senior in high school, I reconnected with a guy who had graduated early, gotten a job, and now lived in his own apartment. I hated life at my house because I was grounded all the time and couldnt get through a day without fighting with my family. So I packed some clothes and moved in with him. When I didnt come home the first night, my mother called his apartment looking for me. I did not talk to her. I almost felt good about making her suffer. I wanted her to be sorry I was gone.

I finally called my mom several days later to tell her that I wasnt coming home because I had gotten married. This marriage wasnt about love, but it did feel like a fresh start.

Once I was married, it was okay to get pregnant. So I did, and gave birth to my beautiful daughter Britni when I was eighteen. I wouldnt trade that day for anything in the world; however, my dream of creating the perfect little family was far from the reality I was living. After only a year of marriage, my parents paid for my divorce.