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This book is dedicated to the memory of Cheryl B., fierce poet, writer, performer, and community organizer. Your spirit continues to move us through your words.
FOREWORD
Tristan Taormino
What follows a multiorgasmic romp with the baddest butch in town? What comes before it?
There is no one formula for choosing the order of the stories in an erotica anthology. After doing this for seventeen years, Ive developed my own variety of techniques, like pairing stories that focus on a similar theme from different perspectives. Or arranging them by tone, from soft to hard, like a carefully orchestrated spanking, where you start with gentle strokes and build to stingy slaps. Sometimes I like to fly from one end of the spectrum to the other, switching from reality to fantasy, from girlfriend to one-night stand, from epic to snapshot, from flirtatious first time to all-night fisting. Its about seeing the similarities and differences, and deciding how to offset them just so.
What struck me about Eileens selections is how much territory they covered. They are full of love, loss, innocence, initiation, self-discovery, fear, revenge, enlightenmentand thats just for starters. As I put the stories together, I imagined each one as a step in an erotic journey. The journey begins with a long-term couple and the intense love and passion they share. Along the way, youll meet characters who feel adored, challenged, schooled, surprised, and satisfied. Some take us to the edge of sanity and the brink of breakup; one goes beyond it to the death of a lover. But with death comes rebirth, and what better way to represent that than a story about a virgin nun and one about a baptismal? Personally, I love when journeys end with new beginnings.
Butches and femmes are featured throughout the book, but several stories focus specifically on how these roles define us, confine us, or sometimes do both. In one, two butch buddies left at home together by their girlfriends explore their desire for each other as they face their own fears and hang-ups about their identities. Assumptions about butch/femme, its rigidity and fluidity also play a crucial part in two surprising, edgy tales of erotic revenge.
Other sexual dynamics are explored as well, all fueled by the roles we play in the worldroles like mother, daughter, teacher, student, employer, employeeand the power dynamics we enact both in and out of the bedroom. A danger of using such familiar, timeless archetypes in sex stories is that theyll dive right into pornoland, where all housewives are desperate and gardeners hot. Whats great about these explorations is that rather than being clich, they are full of quirky characters and clever twists. If you think you know the story of sex with the boss, sex with the truck stop waitress, sex with the delivery girl, or sex with the doctor, think again. Guys also pop up in unexpected places, as watchers and those being watched, as fodder for fantasies, and as objects of affection. And by guys, I mean those masculine-identified beings who may or may not have been born male, those who identify as trans, and some whose gender is purposely ambiguous.
Relationships are at the heart of the sex in all these stories. Since my work is known for its hard-core, raunchy fuck tales, I hesitated to even write that sentence because I was afraid it might be misunderstood. I dont mean just love or romantic relationships (although theyre in here, too), and I dont want to imply there isnt plenty of panty-soaking material here. There is. The relationships Im talking about may be established or brand new, committed or temporary, complex and layered or simple and straightforward. Theyre real and familiar. The writers in this collection explore what connects the people involved, what drives them to collide with one another for a moment of pleasure; they do it with honesty and compassion, sarcasm and wit. Its the relationships, however imagined, ambivalent, or intense, that makes the sex so hot.
Having a good fuck can be breezy and fun. But what makes sex transformative, what makes it possible to explore my outer limits or push my lovers boundaries is my ability to get under the skin. Similarly, what separates strokeable smut from smut that gets me off sexually, intellectually, and emotionally is the bond beyond the damp boxers and shaved pussies. I want to know whats underneath all that sweating and moaning. I want to see how our connections as much as our conflicts (with each other and ourselves) fuel our fucking. These stories do that for me. They strip down way past naked to show us what we can discover about ourselves through our sexual encounters. The folks in these stories fuck, yes, but when they fuck, they find that they are tougher than they thought, gentler than people expected, hungrier, hornier, and more flexible than theyve been given credit for. Here is love sex, revenge sex, stranger sex, and fucked-so-good-you-cant-think-straight sex in all its raw, sexy, messy glory.
So, what comes after the final story? Well, hopefully you.
Tristan Taormino
New York City
INTRODUCTION: THE REAL THING
Eileen Myles
What a bunch of horny bitches dykes are. What a bunch of dirty little men. Filthy girls. As I read these stories in manuscript I observed a trend in which Massachusetts and New Zealand are both producing lesbian erotic texts on a massive scale. Somebody mustve conducted special workshops in both those places cause it cant just be that this was a very hot year in Somerville or Auckland, or can it? Are there erotic writing sweatshops there? I once worked for an erotic writing sweatshop. There was an ad in the Voice for writers of adult fiction. The sweatshop in fact was a fairly hip loft in the thirtiesin Murray Hill to be exact (Hi, Murray!). To even get an interview you had to drop off two thousand words at their office and wait for a call. The call came and next I met with this older woman who was perhaps fifty and was white and her hair was curled and her face in my memory seemed huge in its pleasure at how good and talented I was at this. Her enthusiasm made me cringe. All I can remember about my sample (in which I believed I was writing for heterosexuals) was that some cops wound up fucking twin girls in the bushes of Central Park. I remember the girls blowing the cops and the story going into some detail about how the girls milked the cops dicks. I felt convinced I was insane and now it showed, yet I remember needing to allude to the girls innocence which was borne out by their mistaking the cops dicks for tits. The woman smiled and smiled. Youre hired, Eileen. And then she showed me the big machines. It was like you would be writing into something that made me think of Kafkas In the Penal Colony, the story that reminds everybody of everything. Because its a story about a writing machine which everyone feels like already a little bit when they pump out prose. I would go in daily to the loft on Murray Hill and I would have to write about three thousand words a day for three hundred dollars a week. This was 1979 so the money seemed good, but still the work seemed impossible. Word-processors didnt even exist then so I was being hired to pump my dirty thoughts into something I had never seen before. It was like a combination of a teleprompter and a conveyer belt. My words would go away. The woman kept smiling at how good I was at it.