Sophie Jordan - Vanish: A Firelight Novel

SOPHIE JORDAN

Vanish

A Firelight Novel

Contents

S ometimes I dream of falling.

Of course, I start out flying in these dreams. Because thats what I do. What I am. What I love.

A few weeks ago, I would have said its what I love most in the world, but a lot has changed since then. Everything, really.

In these dreams, Im racing through the sky, free as Im supposed to be. And then something happens because suddenly Im descending in a tailspin. I clutch air, my screams eaten up by angry wind. I plummet. A human without wings. Just a girl, not a draki at all. Powerless. Lost.

I feel that way now: Im falling, and I can do nothing. I can stop none of it. Im caught up in the old nightmare.

I always wake before I hit ground. Thats been my salvation. Only tonight Im not dreaming. Tonight I hit the ground. And its every bit as painful as I expected.

I rest my cheek against the cool glass of the window and watch the night rush past me. As Cassian drives, my eyes strain through the motionless dark, skimming over rock yards and stucco houses, searching for an answer, a reason for everything thats happened.

The world seems to hold its breath as we slow for a stop sign. My gaze drifts to the dark sky above us. A deep, starless sea beckoning, promising sanctuary.

Moms voice drifts forward from the backseat, low and crooning as she talks to Tamra, trying to coax a response from her. I peel my cheek from the glass and glance over my shoulder. Tamra shivers in Moms arms. Her eyes stare vacantly ahead; her skin corpse pale.

Is she okay? I ask again, because I have to say something. I have to know. Did I do this to her? Is this, too, my fault? Whats wrong with her?

Mom frowns and shakes her head at me like I shouldnt speak. Ive let them both down. I broke the unbreakable rule. I revealed my true form to humansworse, huntersand we will all pay for the mistake. The knowledge presses on me, a crushing weight that sinks me deep into my seat. I face forward again, trembling uncontrollably. I cross my arms, pinning my hands at my sides as though that might still them.

Cassian warned me there would be a reckoning for this nights work, and I wonder whether its already begun. Ive lost Will. Tamra is sick or in shock or maybe something worse. Mom can hardly look at me. My every breath is misery, the events of the night burning inside my eyelids. Me, shedding my human skin and manifesting in front of Wills family. My desperate flight through crackling dry air to reach him. But if I hadnt manifestedhadnt flown to Wills sidehed be dead, and I couldnt bear that thought. Ill never see Will again, no matter his promise to find me, but at least hes alive.

Cassian says nothing beside me. He did all the talking he needed to do to get Mom in the car with us, to make her understand returning with him to the home we fled is the only viable option. His fingers hold tight to the steering wheel, his knuckles white. I doubt hell relax his grip until were free and clear of Chaparral. Probably not until were safely back in the pride. Safe. I strangle on a laughor it could be a sob. Will I ever feel safe again?

The town flies past, houses thinning out as we near the edge of town. Well be gone soon. Free of this desert and the hunters. Free of Will. This last thought claws fresh the already bleeding wound in my heart, but theres nothing to be done about it. Could there ever have been a future for us? A draki and a draki hunter? A draki hunter with the blood of my kind running through his veins.

That part of it all still stumbles through my head, refusing to penetrate. I cant close my eyes without seeing the flash of his shimmering purple blood in the night. Like my own. My head aches, struggling to accept this terrible truth. No matter how valid Wills explanation, no matter that I still love him, it doesnt change the fact that the stolen blood of my kind pumps through his veins.

Cassian exhales slowly as we leave the city limits.

Well, thats that, Mom murmurs as the distance grows between us and Chaparral.

I turn to find her looking back through the rear window. Shes leaving all her hopes for a better future in Chaparral. Its where we were making a fresh start, away from the pride. And now were headed back into their midst.

Im sorry, Mom, I say, not just because I should, but because I mean it.

Mom shakes her head, opening her mouth to speak, but gets nothing out.

Weve got trouble, Cassian announces. Straight ahead, several cars block the road, forcing us to slow.

Its them, I manage to utter past numb lips as Cassian pulls closer.

Them? Mom demands. Hunters?

I give a hard nod. Hunters. Wills family .

Glaring headlights pierce the dark and illuminate Cassians face. His gaze flicks to the rearview mirror and I can tell hes contemplating turning back around, running for it in the other direction. But its too late for thatone car moves to block our escape and several figures step in front of our car. Cassian slams on the brakes, his hands flexing on the steering wheel, and I know hes fighting the impulse to mow them down. I strain for a glimpse of Will, sensing him, knowing hes there, among them somewhere.

Hard, biting voices shout at us to get out of the car. I hold still, my fingers a hot singe on my bare legs, pressing so deeplyas though I were trying to reach my draki buried underneath.

A fist bangs down on our hood, and then I see itthe outline of a gun in the gloom.

Cassians gaze locks with mine, communicating what I already know. We have to survive. Even if it means doing only what our kind can do. That very thing I already did, that got us in this jam tonight in the first place. And why not? Its not like we can reveal our secret more .

Nodding, I move, climbing out of the car to face our enemies.

Wills cousin Xander steps ahead of the others thrusting his smug face toward me. Did you really think you could get away?

Crushing pain fills my chest, anger at what these monsters have cost me tonight. Ash gathers at the back of my throat, and I let the acrid burn build, preparing myself for whatever may come.

A hunter beats a fist on the back window, shouting at Mom and Tamra. Get out of the car!

Mom steps out with as much dignity as she can muster, pulling Tamra with her. My sisters grown even paler since Big Rock; her wheezy breath scrapes the air. Her amber brown eyes, the same as mine, look cloudy, almost filmy as she stares into space. Her lips part, but no words escape. I step close and lend a hand, helping Mom support her. Tams icy to the touch, her skin not skin at all. Chilled marble.

Cassian faces Xander, regal as the prince he essentially is. Light glints off the purple and black strands of his hair.

I moisten my lips, wondering how I can convince Xander he didnt see me manifest. What do you want?

Wills cousin stabs a finger at me. Well start with youwhatever the hell you are.

Get away from her, Cassian commands.

Xanders attention swings to Cassian. And then well move to you, big guy... and how it is you fell off that cliff with Will and dont have a scratch.

Wheres Will? I blurt. I have to know.

Xander jerks a thumb to one of the nearby cars. Passed out in the back. I squint through the gloom and notice a figure slumped in the back of a car. Will . So close, but he might as well be an ocean away. When last I saw him, he was promising to find me again. He was hurt, but conscious. I shudder to think what his own family may have done to change that.

He needs a doctor, I say.