r.h. sin - Algedonic

other books by r.h. Sin Whiskey Words & a Shovel I Whiskey Words & a Shovel II Whiskey Words & a Shovel III Rest in the Mourning A Beautiful Composition of Broken dedicated to the fighters the survivors PAIN | CHAOS wanting you was never enough to make you deserve me we reach for hands unworthy of holding ours i apologized when you destroyed me i held on when i shouldve let go youre fighting for him and hes fighting you thats not love i know youre hurting but dont let him break you powerful women are tired of trying for lovers who never try for them she wore her scars without hiding she wore her pain so well as children were told to wait for someone special but no one ever teaches us what special is i blame your mother for not building your self-esteem and encouraging you to be a queen i blame your father for not loving you enough to keep you from searching for a love in men who couldnt love you she spent most nights surviving you most nights hes undeserving of any space in your mind a man who hides you is a coward it happens its true they always leave you for the person they told you not to worry about while you lie there hurting wide awake hes asleep on the piles of lies hes made dying for a love that never mattered sadness fills me like a mind flooded with pain love can perish i feel us dying my mind finds time to waste on you the most dangerous anger is the one that lingers in silence it sits it stays it lives in solitude it wants to be alone it dwells within me i made it easy for you to complicate my life i have bruises no one can see i am hurting but ill just smile a man who apologizes for things hell never stop doing doesnt love you he doesnt deserve you her angel eyes saw the good in many devils she accepted a love that never matched her own silence is a language that does not need words this isnt what i wanted i thought i needed you until i realized that you never deserved me the hardest part is forgiving people who were never truly sorry who were you before the aches of a broken heart who were you before the world decided to tear you apart who were you before your first love turned hopeful to despair who were you before the disappointment back when you used to care who were you within your innocence before they robbed you of your smile who are you in this moment you havent been yourself for a while who were you, who are you the questions for the soul who were you, who are you what makes you feel whole