ED OCHESTER, EDITOR The publication of this book is supported by a grant from the Pennsylvania Council on the Arts
This compilation and afterword copyright 2000, 2003 by the University of Pittsburgh Press Poems copyright 1972, 1977, 1981, 1985, 1991, 1997 by Larry Levis All rights reserved Manufactured in the United States of America Printed on acid-free paper 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 ISBN 0-8229-5793-0 ISBN-13: 978-0-8229-9106-9 (electronic)
The Poem You Asked For
My poem would eat nothing. I tried giving it water but it said no, worrying me. Day after day, I held it up to the light, turning it over, but it only pressed its lips more tightly together. It grew sullen, like a toad through with being teased. I offered it all my money, my clothes, my car with a full tank. But the poem stared at the floor.
Finally I cupped it in my hands, and carried it gently out into the soft air, into the evening traffic, wondering how to end things between us. For now it had begun breathing, putting on more and more hard rings of flesh. And the poem demanded the food, it drank up all the water, beat me and took my money, tore the faded clothes off my back, said Shit, and walked slowly away, slicking its hair down. Said it was going over to your place.
Magician Poems
1. The Magician's Exit Wound All day the sky has the look of dirty paper.
My shadow stays indoors. I watch its step, and plan my tricks. This evening, the loneliness of disappearing acts! I think of poking my head through the sky, and, in those frozen pressures, of breaking into blood on a cloud. 2. The Magician's Ride to the Hospital Just now I noticed my arms, how they act without even telling me anymore, their preference for rain and razor blades, or for simply dropping off, like forgotten two-by-fours falling off half built houses. Now they grab at me like stubborn interns.
I turn quickly, mirrored in the dark glass of the ambulance, where already my face is wood, and painted to a doll's astonished whites and reds. Outside even the sky is shocked and darkens. 3. The Magician's Face One day all the smiles hardened; pals frowned like a firing squad and closed in. So I got lost in cafeterias, in the waiting rooms of airports, and tapped my fingers, until I was alone as a paper scrap under someone's heel. Then a funny thing happened.
I did a real trick sitting still while a plane roared off, I made a face like a single window smashed and bare with sky. 4. The Magician at His Own Revival Once I thought my mouth was a scar that disappeared like spittle being wiped off of a plate. So I shut up and sulked like last year's inner tube that hangs in a noose all winter through the rain. I sat through the chatter. I rose. I rose.
I called out like a blind man drifting on the drifting ice, for no reason at all but me, me. 5. The Magician's Call Our conversation frays like an old wire in the rain its thinness crackles. And there's a silence as the phone's hung up, as frank as someone's heels walking out. Outside in lightning, the palm trees whiten quickly and go bald as the fronds crack in the wind. 6. 6.
The Magician's Edge and Exit I've got my edge now as a lone end of a sheet quivers on the line and waits for the flick of someone's nail in the wind, and a lost pocketknife rusts on the railings, where the fence boards warp and blister. Now driving I whip the wheel back and forth as a frayed tire skids on the ice, and a back fence looms like flesh turned inside out in the noise. And I drift through it, suddenly air. 7. The Magician Ending After a while my lungs give like shale keeling off without a sound.
L.A., Loiterings
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L.A., Loiterings
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Convalescent Home High on painkillers, the old don't hear their bones hollering anything tonight. They turn harmless and furry, licking themselves good-bye They are the small animals vanishing at the road's edge everywhere 2. The Myth The go-go girl yawns. The cheap dye her mother swiped from a five-and-ten has turned her hair green, but her eyes are flat and still as thumbprints, or the dead presidents pressed into coins. She glints She is like the screen flickering in an empty movie house far into the night. 3.
Spider In the bruised doorway that has been jimmied open, even the dark spider shines, tears at its belly and moves sideways a little on its web, swaying, while my hand on this pencil knows nothing, moves back and forth, takes hold of things, is never sorry
For Stones
Against laws the tongue tries to go back down the throat it gets uncontrollable it lies while flickering everywhere are knuckles, teeth, fists nobody saw, hair drifting from wires, eyes that stopped closing heavily and met the ax and the train head on all the die-hards who kept the faith with the stones stones that will open at a touch, breathe and spread like water like plain water that is simple and against the law
Fish
for Philip Levine The cop holds me up like a fish; he feels the huge bones surrounding my eyes, and he runs a thumb under them, lifting my eyelids as if they were envelopes filled with the night. Now he turns my head back and forth, gently, until I'm so tame and still I could be a tiny, plastic skull left on the dashboard of a junked car. By now he's so sure of me he chews gum, and drops his flashlight to his side; he could be cleaning a trout while the pines rise into the darkness, though tonight trout are freezing into bits of stars under the ice. When he lets me go I feel numb. I feel like a fish burned by his touch, and turn and slip into the cold night rippling with neons, and the razor blades of the poor, and the torn mouths on posters. Once, I thought even through this I could go quietly as a star turning over and over in the deep truce of its light.
Now, I must go on repeating the last, filthy words on the lips of this shrunken head, shining out of its death in the moon until trout surface with their petrified, round eyes, and the stars begin moving.
For the Country
One of them undid your blouse, then used a pocketknife to cut away your skirt like he'd take fur off some limp thing, or slice up the belly of a fish. Pools of rainwater shone in the sunlight, and they took turns. After it was over, you stared up, maybe, at the blue sky where the shingles were missing, the only sounds pigeons walking the rafters, their eyes fixed, shining, the sound of water dripping. The idiot drool of the cattle. Flies.
You are the sweet, pregnant, teen-age blonde thrown from the speeding car. You are a dead, clean-shaven astronaut orbiting perfectly forever. You are America. You are nobody. I made you up. I take pills and drive a flammable truck until I drop.
I am the nicest guy in the world, closing his switchblade and whistling. The plum blossoms have been driven into a silence all their own, as I go on driving an old red tractor with a busted seat. The teeth of its gears chatter in a faint language of mad farmwives who have whittled, and sung tunelessly, over the dog turds in their front yards, for the last hundred years. And I will say nothing, anymore, of my country, nor of my wife reading about abortions, nor of the birds that have circled high over my head, following me, for days. I will close my eyes, and grit my teeth, and slump down further in my chair, and watch what goes on behind my eyelids: stare at the dead horses with flowers stuck in their mouths and that is the end of it.
The Town
This moon a pig spits out on a hot night.
So empty, it spins when no one thinks of it, looks it in the face. You can pin it down with your eye, your little eye. Make it stop. Let it go. The town I grew up in has a drug store where men gather, since their words fall into the tiny graves rain makes in their tracks. So it goes.