Diane Montgomery - Married to a Narcissistic Sociopath

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Copyright 2015 by Diane Montgomery. All rightsreserved.

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As a remembrance of the birth of my son I decided tokeep a journal of his life. I started off well with the idea. I wasable to log all his "firsts" that children do. I was even able tomake note of all his little friends and take pictures. One day,while looking back through his book, I noticed that the entriesstarted to become more about me and what I was doing to protect myson. I, without realizing it, started making notes about what washappening in my marriage. I had started documenting things thatwere said and the horrific things that had started to takeplace.

This book chronicles that journal and whattook place in our once happy home. Its full of thoughts and eventsas they happened. I spent a long time living in fear and worryingabout what tomorrow was going to bring. And for me, this bookrepresents letting go of what was. Now, with the Grace of God, Iwill find the strength to move forward with my life. So here's thedisclaimer. I changed all the names of people involved and most ofthe names of places associated with us. And I did this, solely toprotect my son.

I also wrote this book, not just for me, butas a way of letting others know that they are not alone. They arenot the only one that is getting physically assaulted. They are notthe only one that is being financially deprived. They are not theonly one that is being verbally assaulted and abused. They are notalone. And, speaking from the voice of experience, I would urgeanyone caught in a relationship like mine to seek help andassistance for yourself and your children immediately. No one,absolutely no one, should be in a toxic relationship, such as theone I was in. And I pray every day that no one should ever have tosuffer as I have suffered.

My name is Diane Montgomery. This is my life and thelife lessons that I learned. I'm 36 and pretty good looking. I hadbeen on my own for a couple of years, after the termination of a 12year relationship. It was a great relationship. We had so much incommon; we did everything together. Unfortunately, due to hismedical problems and subsequent drug addiction, we had to separate.I loved him and he was the best man for me; that was until his lifefell apart and his addiction took over. It's a different marriagewhen the one love of your life is an addict. He wanted out andthought it would be in my best interest. I still sometimes miss himand wonder if he's well; he deserves that. He deserved to be happy.We both did; and it was very much mutual that we part. I amcurrently a single mom, I don't look my age, with a beautiful sonand this is my story. This is a story about restarting your lifewith a new partner. Of new experiences. And wondering what liesaround the corner.

I worked at Lawndale Sheriff's Department. Itwas a great job! I worked nights, the graveyard shift. I worked inthe support services division, inputting information into complexcomputer systems. It was a blast and the people I worked with weretremendous, you couldn't have asked for a better group of friendsand coworkers. I would get off early in the morning and still havethe better part of the day to do what I wanted. A lot of times Iwould get off work and go visit my Nana; she lived by herself andwas lonely. Unfortunately, most of my family has "died off" ormoved on with their own lives; all that was really left was myself,Nana, my brother Daniel, and my mother. We had become closer overthe years. My mother and I didn't have a great relationship and wenever would; however, things had improved. I guess its true, theolder you get, the more important family becomes. You learn toexcept others and overlook the small things. I had grown up.

It's not that I was lonely or desperate, Ijust didn't have anyone significant or that "someone special" in mylife. I tried going out with friends to parties, bars and nightclubs, it just wasn't what I was looking for. Lets just say, itshard having a conversation with someone when they have their handon your leg. It was annoying and rude and I was frustrated withgetting "pawed at" most every time I went out. Coworkers triedfixing me up with single deputies from work, I just couldn't seemyself being with someone I worked with, and besides most of themweren't looking for a relationship, more like an occasional "bedbuddy" when their wives weren't looking. Its unfortunate, you relyupon those members in law enforcement to be "above board" and havesome type of honor and integrity; let me be the first to burst thatbubble. Most, I'm not saying everyone or all, but most, are hornierthan an alley cat in heat. I wasn't going to be another notch onanyones gun belt, I had more going for myself than that.

I was sitting on my computer one summermorning and I saw an ad for dating/meeting people. I thought, whatthe heck, maybe I could find someone to hang out with, someone whowould have the same interest? I was looking to make friends and goplaces with new people. It wasn't easy working nights and trying tokeep the same schedule as your friends and family. Most of thepeople in my life didn't understand my schedule. I was just lookingfor new experience, something different. So, I set up an accountfor this particular dating website. A couple of hours later, aftergetting approved, I was granted access to hundreds of bios aboutpeople from all walks of life. It was rather interesting to readabout what others do for a living and the interests that they have.There were a good dozen that I sent messages to, just in that shorttime I was looking at the sight. I remember I had to work thatnight and had to get some sleep, when I got up to get ready forwork, I had about 40 messages from the website; all with menwanting to "get to know me better". I couldn't believe it!! Ireturned home from work the next morning and there wasapproximately 150 messages by now.

Thank goodness it was my Friday; I sat downat my computer and started going through all the messages that hadbeen sent to me. Some of the messages, I just laughed out loud andothers I quickly deleted (just so very creepy). I had plowedthrough about 60 of them when I saw him. A man in his early 40's,dark hair and eyes. His bio said that he was a pilot in the UnitedStates Air Force and stationed in Antartica. Yes, Antartica. Italso said that he comes home every three months to Roseland County.I quickly clicked on the "interested" button and sent him amessage. I honestly didn't think I would hear back from him, or atleast not right away; but, low and behold that afternoon he hadsent me a message and wanted to call me and get together for lunch.What timing! What luck! I sent back my phone number and he calledthat night. We talked for about an hour. We had so much in common.Family, work ethic, we liked country music, and movies. Neither ofus drank much nor liked going to bars. He had been in the militaryfor 20 plus years and he still loved his job. He had told me of thedifferent places he had flown to and seen. I felt so comfortablewith him on the phone, it was like I had been talking to a friend.He seemed so honest. You could hear the sincerity in his voice. Iagreed to meet him at a restaurant on that Wednesday afternoon, hewas flying out Thursday and would be gone to Antartica for about 4months.