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Carol Mithers - Final Gifts

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Caring for aging parents may be todays defining midlife experienceand Carol Mithers went through it in multiples. Four aging relatives needed her at once, while she was working and raising her own family, sweeping her into a place she calls elderworld. The experience changed her forever. This memoir, funny, sad, brutally honest, and ultimately life-affirming, is a must for every member of the sandwich generation.

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When I was deep in the craziness and trying not to drown, I wondered why there was something about it that felt so familiar. Then I got it: taking care of the old is just like parenting an infantonly on really bad acid.

That acid trip was my life for five years, the length of time my husband and I cared forsequentially, simultaneouslya series of aged relatives as they passed through the relatively new life phase that is the prelude to death but not active dying. First came my mother-in-law, then father-in-law, my aunt, my mother. All were over 80, with a dizzying array of ailmentschronic obstructive lung disease, dementia, type 2 diabetes, miscellaneous heart conditions, high blood pressure and cholesterol, vertigo, diverticulitis, macular degeneration, gout. All lived far from our Los Angeles home, my mother in north San Diego County, a two-hour drive, four at rush hour; my in-laws in Fort Worth (three hours by plane, 45 minutes from the airport); my aunt in upstate New York (six hours on the plane, two on the road). My sister was also there for our mother, but my husband was an only child and my aunt was childless. Which meant the bulk of the care was on us.

It had been over a decade since Id given birth, but the feelings of early motherhood came rushing right back: the boulder-weight exhaustion and fractured brain, the claustrophobia, the demands, smells, tasks that had to be done over and over without ever being complete.

Also, and even more strongly, the sense that I had entered a whole new universe. Motherhood at 40 had been utter dislocation. One minute I was the fit, driven journalist Id always beenat the gym, on the trail, the pregnant pro, proudly hauling my seething, about-to-pop belly to the Bel Air Hotel to interview a movie star, and the next, I was a flabby, hairy-legged wretch who couldnt hold a thought beyond God, please let her sleep tonight. I wept as I pushed my new daughters carriage through my suburban neighborhood, wondering what the hell had happened to me.

This time, it was as if my whole lifeas writer, mother, wifehad been swept into a hallucinatory other place, where I did what Id always done, yetnothing worked. I accepted magazine assignments but struggled to write them because my attention was shattered by a constantly ringing phone. I could live physically in my own house, but psychically, I was scattered across four cities and 3,000 miles. Id wake up to a brilliant blue L.A. morning that I wouldnt see because I was worrying about the hail due in Texas, the northeaster approaching New York, the brush fire to the south. (If I leaped out of bed and out the door immediately, could I reach my mother?) Arrangements that seemed fixed on Wednesday wavered by Thursday like a roadway heat mirage. Conversations veered from Earth to ether in seconds; by the time Id finish a sentence, its beginning was gone.

All right, sport, Ill see that new doctor if you think its so important, my father-in-law says, resigned, after Ive spent a full half hour explaining my reasons.

Finally. I exhale. I do think its important, so But he is shaking his head as I reach for the phone.

Hey, hey, wait a minute now, what are you doing? See a new doctor? Why should I do that?

Of course, intellectually, very little of what happened was a surprise. I knew that America was aging, that life spans had stretched, that the people gerontologists called the old-old were sick, frail and needed extra attention, and that providing it would be hard.

Emotionally, I was completely unprepared. Friends whod already watched their parents age and go might have murmured their sympathy, but no one offered details, a guidesome perky little What To Expect When Moms 90 would have been nice. No one was honest enough to tell the truth about what was coming: a nightmare, a farce, the blackest black comedy imaginable. No one warned me that at one moment I might find myself fantasizing about dumping a fatal overdose of Valium into someones coffee, and the next, be tenderly stroking her back, promising, I will keep you safe. No one warned me that this drama, whose ending was never in doubt, would still leave my heart in tatters. No one told me that it was also a love story.

I took care of the old people in my life because they needed me, because it was the right thing to do. I never imagined that when my time with them was done, Id struggle to put it, and them, aside. I lived in a different universe, and four years after the last funeral, Im still a long way from home.

A question: Can I find a way to come back?

Another: Can I make myself want to?

II.

It began on February 1, 2006, a Wednesday morning. My 12-year-old daughter was already at school, my professor husband about to leave to teach his classes. I was at my desk getting ready to make some calls for my latest assignment.

The phone rang: my Aunt Clarice in New York. It was strange to hear from her. Usually, I was the one who called.

Rob died, she said. He died! Oh God! She was almost gasping in disbelief.

What? The news stunned me. Clarice, my late fathers middle sister, and her husband, Rob, were poster children for bad health habits: sedentary, overweight, overeaters of meat, fat, sugar, and salt; the kind of chain smokers who lit a new cigarette with the butt of the old one. Both ultimately quit but not before they developed chronic obstructive lung disease, which was progressive and incurable. When they breathed, you could hear the strain. Rob also had arthritis, and I knew that recently, hed been suffering. When I talked to Clarice, maybe once a month, I begged her to take him to a specialist. Still, hed hardly seemed on the verge of death.

It came out of nowhere, Clarice told me; not his lungs but an aortic aneurysmno symptoms, a sudden rupture, and within minutes, he was gone.

How can this be? she kept saying. I was just talking to him! I dont understand, I dont know what to do

I knew I needed to get east. When Clarice married Rob, she was 56 and he was 38. Shed always joked that the gap was her old-age insurance policy. Since no one imagined she might outlive him, there was no Plan B. Now he was dead at 69. She was 87, and alone in a split-level ranch on an acre of land in the small upstate town where theyd settled after retiring as Brooklyn high school teachers.

There was no one to step in but me. My fathers family was a strange, difficult bunch. Their immigrant fathermy grandfatherhad been bright enough for a rapid rise from Bucharest tailor to New York City lawyer but couldnt hold onto what little money he made; my New Yorkborn grandmother, a Jew who later joined the Rosicrucians, a quasi-mystic, quasi-Christian sect, was coldly critical, a keeper of grudges. Their marriage was a disaster, and they managed to instill in their three kids the contradictory beliefs that their family was special and that love meant war. My father and his baby sister, Ellen, close through childhood, often excluded the difficult sibling, Clarice. In adulthood, the two sisters became inseparable, and shared fury over the unfair privileges given the golden only son. (My father went away to a private college, while they commuted from home by subway. Etcetera.) Then, when she was in her early 40s and divorced, Ellen married a man whod once been Clarices longtime lover: the two sisters never spoke again. Ellen and my father reunited and fell out once more, and by the time she died (young, of lung cancer; cigarettes were another recurring family theme), she and my father were neighbors in a California retirement community but rarely saw one another.

I never knew Clarice growing up. My parents left New York City for Los Angeles when I was five, and for most of my childhood, she and my father were estranged. But when I moved to Manhattan at 24, I called her. I was fascinated by this strange crew and desperate for blood connections in general. We were always so alone in L.A. Everyone else in both my parents families had stayed in New York; flights were expensive and money was tight, so visits were rare. My mothers only sister and three of my four grandparents died before I turned 11. I barely recall them.

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