Ramos Winter - Game Over: My Love for Hip Hop

I want to thank my Lord and Savior for keeping me safe during my wild and crazy life. Thank You for taking me through the bad to eventually get to the great. I appreciate it with all of my heart.

To my mini me, I cant wait until you get here and meet us. Everyone has waited for you for so long. You are going to be a spoiled bratso what you are your mothers child. World get ready for my mini me.

To my grandmother who gave up her life to make sure I had a great one, thank you. You always had my back and I thank you for everything. My step father, who I adore, I swear you are the best thing that has ever happened to me even though it took me some time to realize it. You are the best man ever and Im sure they broke the mold when they made you. But thank God I found the closest thing. To my mother, who holds no bars, and who taught me to speak my mind and never back down. If you think Im bad, Jackie is ten times worse.

To the love of my life and his three little bears, I love you guys and thank you for being so understanding when my life and schedule is so hectic. To my aunt, Leslie for teaching me no matter how much money he has, you better get your own. I know Ive done things to disappoint you, but I got it right now and know everything you taught me stayed with me. Now, its time to make you proud. Thanks for always letting me know there was more to life than just living in the projects.

To my best friend in the whole wide world and my favorite child. Keya you totally get me, and you gave me Na. I will forever owe you for that. Thank you for being the sister I never had. To Ebony and Raheem, my tag team. Thanks for always being real with me, and slapping me in the back of my head when I needed it most. Tina, Rosanna and Renee thank you for being the older sisters I never had and all the sit your ass down comments when I was doing way too much. I can honestly say I have three older sisters that kick ass.

I also want to thank my Jamaican family for supporting me; Tracey, Raven, Sean, Ray, Lamar, Logan, Grandma, Toya, Brooklyn, Chrissy, Jeri, and Aliyah. To Indiya, my special child. Ive seen you grow and happy to say, You have finally gotten your life. A special shout out to Baby for being by my side and doing everything to help me through writing this book, filming, and having a baby. I love you guy!

Thanks to my fabulous publishing team for making my book a hit! Rockelle, Gilda, Simone, Kwiecia, Stephanie of Black Rose ENT and the entire roster of Life Changing Books authors, thanks for all the hard work and dedication. I know its tough dealing with a firecracker like me, so thanks for the love and patience. Kellie, thanks for the hot book cover design. Thanks to my editor, Melody for the sharp eyes. A special thanks goes to Nicole Bey and Tiphani. I cant thank you enough for all the promotion on social media. Your contribution to this project is extremely appreciated.

Also, thanks to Shante at Julisas Bar & Lounge in Harlem.

To my publisher, Azarel- I know youre tired, but this next book is brewing. To everyone who has an opinion on my past just know this, its not did I do it, but am I still doing it. Never judge others. And lastlyId like to thank Kiss for putting the battery in my back to write this book. If you ever need a loan, I got you! Ahhhhhhhh!

Muah!

Winter Ramos

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Imagine a sexy, A-list celebrity whos making millions and wooing you. He meets your homegirl, your mother, impresses your best friend, and tells you all the things youve always wanted to hear. Its a dream come true. Soon, hes spending all his free time with youwhen hes not working or at the studio. Hes at your beck and call, and you put the rest of the world on pause.

After a few months, youre telling everyone that you guys are a couple that isuntil youre being dragged down the steps by your hair while you scream at the top of your lungs, Noooooooo. Stop! Get off of me!!!! The man whos supposed to be your protector is now kicking you like an animal in front of his friends, sending your body hurtling around the room. Now youre in a fetal position, crying out for help. People are watching but they stand by and do nothing. Months later, youre still in that relationship.

This is what I have seen in the crazy world called Hip Hop that took me from the Cypress Hill projects in Brooklyn to the offices of major record labels like Murder Inc., Def Jam and Ruff Ryder. And even into the arms of the CEO of the most successful, independent label out to date.

My name is Winter Ramos and Im here to tell my story. Not out of spite nor animosity. But, because it needs to be told. It will not be easy for the many names that will get mentioned or the secrets that will be revealed; or even for the guy who has the smallest dick in the gamebut Im telling it anyway. It is my hope that both younger and older females who think being with a rapper or celebrity is all glitz and glam will learn from my mistakes and stop chasing that dream that eventually turns into a nightmare.

I hope those Hip Hop celebs mentioned who are married have pre-nups in place; youll need them. To those who have rap careers hanging on by a string, get ready to be re-born, my story will boost your career. And to those rappers or industry execs who will flat out deny my story, get ready because you know I have proof.

Journal Entry- 2/20/12

Somebody slap me! Tell me today was all a dream. It was all a joke. Friends keep saying, Winter, stop believing everything you read. But after Googling the effects of sexual intercourse, I froze. Someone wrote, When a man ejaculates deep into a womans vagina Its unreasonable to think it will all drain out. What remains will be absorbed into the womans bodyand becomes an actual part of the woman with the potential to remain with her for the rest of her life. Thus a woman who has slept with several men, will carry a small part of each of her lovers with her forever.

Those words messed me up. Especially: Forever. My mind raced. My heart thumped. I thought about all my sexual relationships with rappers, athletes and Hip Hop executives. All of their faces flashed before me: Dame Dash, Jadakiss, a Murder Inc. favorite and many more. I then thought about the tons of women theyd been with. The room seemed to spin at the thought of their sperm being re-absorbed as my very own cells. GeezI quickly began researching online more and more, lasting late into the night with people commenting, saying the notion couldnt be true. But in my heart I now believed the bullshit that had been written and how each man Id slept with had now become a part of me. I then started to think about their different personality traits and how each of them had left me with something, or rubbed off on me in some way. I even thought about my first love, the man whod obviously left me with major intuition, allowing me to recognize Game before it ever got too close. The notion that they each had contributed to my outlook on life made me think differently.