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Its tempting to call Jes Baker fearless, but to do so would diminish her profound capacity for vulnerability and, by extension, her strength. The thing that makes Jes such a force is that she is so brave, so funny, so blazing, so herself, even in the face of fear. I do not know what we would do without her.
Lindy West, New York Times bestselling author of Shrill
Funny, kind, wise, generous, and incredibly realJes Bakers writing will have you feeling seen, heard, and held. I enjoyed every minute of reading this book, even when it made me cry. Instead of calling to us from a finish line that seems impossibly far away, Jes shares a path to self-love that shes still on with us. And in her story we can find the joy in the journey itself, even if we cant yet see the destination.
Ijeoma Oluo, New York Times bestselling author of So You Want To Talk About Race
With the perfect tidal wave of humor and candid emotion, Jes once again shows me how to not only love my own body, but every body around me, as well. Its as if shes written Landwhale about the daily complicated love affair I have in my skin, and Ill never stop reading it. All women, at all stages of their journey, must read this book!
Brittany Gibbons, New York Times bestselling author of Fat Girl Walking and The Clothes Make the Girl (Look Fat)?
In Landwhale, Jes Baker asks the hard questions of herself and of our fat-hating culture, and she never sugarcoats the answers. Her memoir is full of humor and grace and honesty. She treats the reader like a friend, and on every page she sends the message: Youre not alone.
Sarai Walker, author of Dietland
Jes Bakers words are ointment for the soul. I want to give this book to every person whos ever struggled with their body and its place in this world. Read this book. Thank me later.
Julie Murphy, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Dumplin
We have tried to prove to the thin world that we are worthy for far too long.
If you are going to be brave, be brave for the fat people.
IJEOMA OLUO
H EY, FRIEND !
When I asked a few brilliant minds to read selected sections from this book and send back their critiques, many left comments in the margins that went a lot like: Holy shit, maybe consider giving people a heads-up that there is some rough stuff in here so they dont pass out mid-chapter, okay? That, combined with the fact that I cried all over my keyboard while typing half of this memoir, convinced me that a Hey, Im writing about real life, and real life can occasionally be difficult, so please be gentle with your heart while flipping through these pages was in order.
So, in the spirit of transparency, I offer you this insider tip: The book youre holding? Its basically one long-ass trigger.
Tough topics covered that you might want to mentally buckle up for:
Self-hatred
Eating disorders
Weight-loss surgery
Bedbugs (Im still trying to emotionally recover) Fatphobia
Embarrassing personal failure
Diet-ey diet talk about a lot of diets
I wrote Landwhale for three reasons: 1) I wanted to give these stories a permanent home; 2) I wanted to offer my personal narrative to you in the hope that you might feel a little less alone after turning the last page; and 3) the title was too good to not be on a book cover.
With any luck, youll find some validation, solidarity, and humor within these pages as well.
I will also disclose that some names have been changed, not because I believe that divulging every last detail is a sin, but because many other people in this universe do.
Youre holding a story. Its a sad one. A scary one. A common one. A happy one. A tragic one. A privileged one. An impossible-to-properly-articulate one. A relatable one. An unwelcome one. A lucky one. An alienating one. A confusing one. A brave one. A safe one. A problematic one. An unfinished one. A true one.
It is all of these things, but, simply put, it is mine.
All of that said, welcome! Im glad youre here. So hold on to those britches of yours, because were about to talk about some really important shit.
Holding your hand (consensually, of course) as we dive in,
. Im astounded that my keyboard still works after endless months of salty eyeball flooding. Hewlett Packard, keep up the good work.
I AM AN impressively terrible businesswoman.
I became Jes, The Militant Baker: conspicuous fat chick, beauty-myth challenger, shit talker, petty blocker, Twitter amateur, and internet human with more followers than any person from Tucson deserves by complete accident. The fact that youre holding this book in your hands right now? Total fluke. In fact, I keep expecting someone important who is in charge of something big (Google? Amazon maybe? Even Kmart would do) to come out and say, Sorry guys, this was all just one big mistake! Jes, delete everything youve written online. Everyone else, carry on.
Im still not ruling that out.
So, no. I never imagined, back when I started typing center-justified blog posts (I still have serious internet shame around this) on a shoddily designed Blogger sitefirst about vintage kitchenware *yawn* and then about my plus-size bodythat it would lead to this. This being becoming a somewhat well-known fat person on the internet whom thousands of people praise and even more people pray an untimely death for. This being a future containing invitations to participate in documentaries, film corporate campaigns and offers to write Upworthy articles (which no doubt require hours of editing on their end). This being a creepily detailed Wikipedia page about my past written by strangers, a delightfully scathing shout-out on Breitbart, the chance to lecture at universities about why being nice is a reallygood thing, and the opportunity to be in the same room as (and the inexplicable privilege to be ignored by) the accomplished actress Danielle Brooks. When I started writing online, none of this crossed my baby blogger mind.